A face speaks of innocence
Imaginations were free to run wild
A body rejecting listlessness
How fortunate for a mind so beguiled

Now the sparkle in the eyes
Slowly fades away
The curious being met its’ demise
Along with the words it wanted to say

Let me seep through
The crevices of your heart
Silently watching you
Fall apart

Even if it's wishful thinking
You cannot escape the reality
Of the chains binding
You and me

I often found myself every single cold night
Remembering all the facade I have put until now
Then, there was a fire, a fire trying to ignite
A heated voice, demanding to be exposed which I didn’t allow

I often found myself weeping despite smiling
Chromatic I am yet I perceived the world as dark gray
Unhappy I am by almost every single thing
And the voice inside laughed at me, much to my dismay

The voice asked, “But why? Why do you try so hard?”
“To impress the people who went astray?”
“You’re hiding it behind a cloak, the self you always guard”
“If they deny your existence, wouldn't it be better to walk away?”

I woke up today with my head in pain
I felt weaker than I was a day before
In my bed, there were tear stains
I coughed, blood on the floor

Needles over here, needles over there
Piercing my skin almost everyday
I shoved the bitter pills even if I couldn’t bear
I need it for me to live, for me to stay

Each passing day, I took a deep breath
Another day on being a burden
Each passing day, closing near to death
I can feel the hole in me widen

Listen to me, oh bright shiny star
The one in the sky so far
Why is it so hard to reach you?
You just made me sad and blue

Why are you always there?
Each time, I fall into despair
Are you mocking me, my bright shiny star?
Knowing that I can’t be where you are?

Even if you will disappear in time
Even if you’re way past your prime
Even if it leaves me a deep scar
I would still be here, my bright shiny star

I am a mere puppet
A meagre tool to be controlled
To achieve what they covet
I must do as I told

I am a wounded bird
The wings that I am proud of
Forcefully ripped by their words
Broken by their abusive love

I am an innocent prisoner*
Heavily chained, both my hands and feet
Dripping bloods of red, you get the picture
Can’t escape, trapped by their deceit

I walked down the road I always took
Still putting on the same old look
There you were, clutching your phone
You noticed me; I flashed a smile of my own

A rock was there, I did not see
I fell hard and the pavement grazed my knee
You offered me your hand while smiling
One glance, my heart was beating

After exchanging words to the person I owe
Sadly, it was time for me to go
As I hugged my pillow, I only think of that one stranger
And wished that, that will not only be our encounter

I walked down the road for the last time today
Hoping that before I leave, you’re on the same way
Disappointed, I watched the empty road in vain
And you never crossed my path again

Dark clouds gathered in the sky
No ray of light was seen from up high
The sky rumbled deafeningly
Like a child crying wholeheartedly

Pitter – patter, there goes the rain
Every drop descended in my window pane
I touched the glass with my hands so little
It calmed my heart that’s fragile and brittle

I ran outside and let the rain poured on me
I closed my eyes, blinding me from what I see
I fought and won... I have too many sins
Hoping in vain, may the raindrops make me clean

I opened my eyes, there was no more rain
I clutched my chest as I felt the same pain
I smiled as I went to bed with the same hope in my brain
Hoping that when it rains, I may become whole again

The mind will soon forget.
Soon, the memories will start to fade.
Yet the heart will never let,
The feeling you felt once die away.

The great joys that made you smile,
The little pains that you once carried,
All of these will still be remembered.
Never will it expire, it will always linger.

You were called “Beast” by many
People told me to stay away
I’m a stubborn one you see
I’ll stick close regardless what they’ll say

Appearance has the power to deceive
But only ignorant fools fell for it
Behind the cold glares you give
A kind heart that is willing to help

How can I resist a man like you?
Face of a demon but a heart of an angel
If only people can see the real you
Then maybe, they’ll see you less evil

When the bittersweet life wears you down,
And your smile changes into a frown,
Do not hesitate to come to me.
I will make you feel happy.

If all the ones you love turned away,
And you can’t find joy each passing day,
Do not forget my sweet dear,
I will always be right here.

The moment you set your eyes on me,
I knew something is bound to start,
No matter how much we deny it,
We know we both captured our hearts.

By the gentle touch of our hands,
We can feel the surge of emotions,
Every word that comes out our mouths,
We felt a strong liaison.

What is it that we see on each other?
That we get smitten too soon,
We barely even know each other,
Yet it feels like we've known each other for too long.

No matter how much work is done,
No matter how much pain life gives,
No matter how much battles she lost and won,
It will be alright as long as your love she receives.

No matter how tiring the day might be,
No matter how much painful lies she will believe,
The only thing fuels her to keep on living would be,
The glimmer of hope that your love she will receive.

Sad lilies adorned in every corner,
How I wish I'd asked you sooner,
Regret's hands, I wish to be free,
Do tell, will you mourn for me?

Gently, let the invisible tears be wiped away,
By the lifeless trees surrounding me as they sway,
Let your heavenly eyes set upon me,
And answer the question; will you mourn for me?

Now dressed in white, pure as snow,
I lie motionless, emitting a sunny glow,
Slowly, you walk your way towards me,
Tell me quickly, will you mourn for me?

With arms wide open, I saw His majesty,
With choir of angels, singing joyfully,
Hesitant to come, for the man is standing right beside me,
The man who will answer the question; will you mourn for me?

No words came from the mouth, the silence is deafening,
Surprised I was as the man began crying,
Could it be me, the reason for him to be blue?
The man whispered, "I am mourning because of you."

The very words made me satisfied,
Now without regrets, I won't be reluctant to return to His side,
Thankful I am for he did answer,
The very question that I wish I'd asked him sooner.

For now I know that he truly adores me,
Too late our love is, how sad for I did not notice nor see,
My love, though I came before you,
Always remember, this heart will still be yearning for you.

Like flowers, her life wilted,
Despite the ample rain,
The people whom she needed,
The ones who left her in pain.

Deceit was their craft,
To pretend is a must,
Behind the smiles, a rotten laugh,
How foolish was she to trust!

Lies are words with fatal poison,
Injected right through one's head,
Creeping unto the system of the person,
Slowly, making her dead.

When the situation turned unpleasant,
She sought for whom she called "friends",
But the people were hesitant,
Not even one hand can they  lend.

They use her for their own benefit,
Yet the slightest company, they can't provide,
How can she be blinded and cannot see it?
It's obvious, no matter how hard they try to hide.

A mask they would always wear,
Thousands of words they already said,
Yes! Back stabbers they were,
Rumors, they boldly spread.

Now, she finally opened her eyes,
Her trust completely broken, turned into dust,
She finally see through their horrible lies,
Though weeping, a strong facade is a must.

Something within her withered,
The darkness swallowed her whole,
Pain came forth, as memories remembered,
In both mind, body and soul.

Why does she remembered such memories?
At such a time like this,
There are no remedies,
To cure and let her feel heavenly bliss.

Silence took over in the pale still room,
The voices in her head became louder,
The innocent light within has met its doom,
As the darkness won by its' overwhelming power.

Her demons inside slowly awaken,
Her world turned to red,
She seeks revenge for being forsaken,
All the love turned to pure hatred.

The wind gently caressed your ebony hair,
And the sun kissed your skin so fair,
You glanced my way while smiling,
Oh, what a sight I am seeing!

But how cruel fate can be,
She stole your heart from me!
When she is with you, I cannot intervene,
It pains me to know that to you I'm unseen.

My world utterly crashed,
My heart was ruthlessly slashed,
I cried silently when you told me,
That she is all that you can ever see.

If I told you what I feel, would you glance my way?
Would you look at me like that everyday?
Can I rewind the time and change my fate?
Unfortunate I am, for it's too late.

Darkness loomed my entire surroundings,
All alone, can’t even hear anything,
Tightly wrapped me on its arms so cold,
No one to lean on, no one to hold.


I’ve tried reaching out but no one can hear me,
Abandoned, I felt, no one can even see,
Is there someone out there to save me?
Save me from the shadows and set me free?


I’m beginning to lose hope, losing my sanity,
I’m beginning to understand how cruel people can be,
I’m tired of waiting for a hero to save me,
I’m tired of hoping, tired of solitary.


Everyday seeing faceless faces, everyday being all alone,
Everyday pretending, the skill I greatly hone,
Exhausted, I was about to give up,
Until you came in and made it all stop.


Darkness that shrouded my world vanished,
Thanks to the love that you lavished,
Out of all the people, I can say you are true,
Hands down, I already trusted you.


I won’t let you go no more; I won’t let you disappear,
You taught me things that was once not clear,
I realized that amidst the darkness I see,
There is still light that is not visible to me.

A wickedly and ****** curve formed in her lips,
As she devoured the white light,
A chill runs through until my fingertips,
What a wretched sight!

She noticed the fear I emitted,
She glanced my way with fiery eyes,
Terrifying, my whole being debilitated,
Can't escape no matter how hard my body tries.

Slowly, her feet carry her towards me,
My eyes noticed something odd,
Her face seems suffering, I see,
Though her entire face covered in blood.

Her eyes exposed her,
The smile she showed earlier was fake,
She must have tasted life, not sweet but bitter,
Which her heart couldn't take.

I felt a gelid sensation,
As her hands abruptly placed on me.
Her face was close, no expression,
But her eyes were yearning to be free.

Inconspicuous tears strolled down,
The chains were meant to bound her forever,
I turned away with a frown,
Since I was too weak to save her.

If only I could completely eradicate,
The growing feelings I have for you,
Then, I wouldn't hesitate,
To be your friend once more, empathic and true.

If only I could erase the memories,
Of all the things we once shared,
That the swelling feeling this heart carries,
May be gone, destroyed and dead.