look at me
just one time
and tell me
that this was not meant to be

I wish I could accept myself
I wish I could love myself
I wish I could stop caring what you think

I hate that I wasted my time with you
You never gave me anything but trouble
You treated me like I was worth nothing
          But then why do I miss you so much?

I left my home and the feeling cannot be described
I left everything I have ever known for this completely unpredictable adventure
Being an international student is a wonderful struggle

In 50 years, you will be ugly,
                but I will still be beautiful.

So far away
Capturing my heart
Taking it with you
So far far away

I long for you
I need you
But you don't need me
Breaking me apart
Causing me pain

How dare you
Taking my heart
Making me love you
Deeply
Without loving me back

I wish I knew exactly what it meant to be loved by someone who didnt have to. I care about so many, but no ones cares back.
   I feel like I am slipping, and I dont know what to do,
I will always smile, they have no idea of what I go through. I am always laughing, I save the crying for later when no one is watching.