I hate that I wasted my time with you
You never gave me anything but trouble
You treated me like I was worth nothing
          But then why do I miss you so much?

I wish I could accept myself
I wish I could love myself
I wish I could stop caring what you think

I left my home and the feeling cannot be described
I left everything I have ever known for this completely unpredictable adventure
Being an international student is a wonderful struggle

I wish I knew exactly what it meant to be loved by someone who didnt have to. I care about so many, but no ones cares back.
   I feel like I am slipping, and I dont know what to do,
I will always smile, they have no idea of what I go through. I am always laughing, I save the crying for later when no one is watching.

So far away
Capturing my heart
Taking it with you
So far far away

I long for you
I need you
But you don't need me
Breaking me apart
Causing me pain

How dare you
Taking my heart
Making me love you
Deeply
Without loving me back

look at me
just one time
and tell me
that this was not meant to be

In 50 years, you will be ugly,
                but I will still be beautiful.