I saw roses in bloom
Yet only remember the thorns.

She is alone, drowning in her heavy darkness.
She chokes on the blackness of the void
And feels it sharper than the blade spilling blood on her skin
His hands are ice around her neck
Her eyes cry out for help
She is alone, drowning in her heavy darkness.

Never did she feel this way before
This vulnerability struck fear in her
A heart shredded by this monster
This man she couldn’t escape
He watches her like prey
She is alone, drowning in her heavy darkness

She is sick but they won’t see
Hiding behind a smile
She feels him watch her every move
She is consumed by pain
And yet, she loves him
She is alone, drowning in her heavy darkness

I might be out of words when it comes to you, welcome me into the world of nothingness.

I have trouble keeping up
with myself these days.
I waited a year just to starve out
the taste you left in my mouth
for possibility.

Maybe you still live there.
Maybe you're still seeing that girl,
the pretty one from San Pedro
who made jewelry for a living.

It's a sweet and cradling thought,
the unknowing. What's sweeter still
is feeling such confidence that I
will never know.

you asked me to describe you,
and i found myself at a loss
for words
(which doesn’t happen very often;
words usually pour out of me
like water from a fountain).
you mean the entire ******* world to me,
how do i put that into words?
how do i put you into words?

you're the literal light of my life:
you’re a ray of sunshine,
a respite from the constant thunder and rain
that seems to follow me around no matter where i go.
you pour constant love and warmth into me,
so much so that
even on the gloomiest of days,
i feel happy and okay.

you’re my inspiration;
i look up to you in every possible way.
you make me want to be a better person,
show me what that could be like.

you are soft and gentle and kind.
you’re the feeling of coming home
of watching a movie under the blankets
with a cup of hot cocoa
of finding something that you thought you had lost,
and the relief because
you couldn’t imagine living
without something so amazing.
you’re the feeling of safety and security,
of knowing that everything’s going to be okay,
of opening a new book and becoming immersed
in an entirely new world, something you never could’ve dreamt up.

you’re the feeling i get when my favorite song comes on,
shouting the lyrics and knowing i’m off-key but not caring.

you remind me what it’s like to feel alive,
what it’s like to feel human
(and how can i put that into words?)

Are you there God?
It's me again
Needing your ear
Have you been listening
To my words of pain and fear
Can you see the pain of my sorrow
It's so very clear
Others see it on my face
But they don't feel it in here
It's a feeling of questions;
Words;  thoughts; doings; actions;
Love- all bundled in one!!!
If you threw it against the wall-
It would explode like a bomb!

It's still don't explain
My feelings of pain
The night she went away

You forgot
I had to talk to her
Just a few days more
To tell her
I love her
And needed her more

You could have warned me
And told me the pain was to come
I would have told you

" I'd rather have her be here
On Earth
And don't see her--
Then never see her at all!!!"

Now  my Lord
Do you see the pain
Of my sorrow
How long will it stay
I won't need it tomorrow

I must remember
Never forget
For your son was also
Taking away long ago;

Is she there
Does she hear
What I need her to hear-

I love you
And miss you
Always my dear!!