Emotions change constantly.
I experience a wave of the new.
From happy, sad, anger.

At least that's what i thought.

I saw them, these disparate faces.
All trying to claim my personality.
I thought and tried to protect it.
But really it's a sin.

A sin to be because it obliterates the self
myself.
And such a sin
imperils reality itself.

So i let go of the personality.
Finally to lay bare whats free.
Because in the truth i'm not a disposition.
I am just being.

Confused in a social box of response.
In feeling these untruths.
Which are promoted as rectitude.
But they are just emotions, nothing more.

These emotions are not me.
The personality is nothing as well.
NO- THING
It hurts when you first realize that.
But then you see that the hurt is fake
as well.

So inner demons exist.
But they always shatter too.
It's all a jumbled mess.
So to escape the mind brings me harmony.

And with that i decamp.
Then openly i may find peace.
Because a constantly moving
mind can drive you nuts.

It's like a prison, as
the mind continues to create.
With no bounds or limitations
but the penitentiary is really only
there when the personality exists.

But is letting go of personality
Crazy? As you become what they call "weird"
to let go and be who you
really are requires courage.

"civilization" creating personality so let it go.
and to let go of that.
Is to let of the false fellowship.
So is it worth it?

I think yes.
To save yourself and to get rid
of social and mental dis-ease.
You have to let go.

I have to be free.
Free from the box of emotes presented.
as that i can feel it all.
And who i am.

To express to be open.
To those in society this is wacko.
But it doesn't matter.
Because they are all trapped in  temperament.

I am moving to be free from.
the curse.
The same curse i mentioned earlier.
which kills you through rationalization.

So I've seen and accepted
the faces.
I met them face to face
ear to ear.

I heard them in person.
and i saw who they wanted me.
to be.
I saw what they wanted others to see.

But i'm not doing that.
Imma be  me.
I'm not doing that.
Imma be me.

To be me is to accept it all.
I accepted the past.
I accepted the now and future
and let go of it all.

I was ready to experience truth
to see the authenticity of everything.
To lie in authenticity
and to be alone.

To not be alone in thoughts.
To not be together with others in
public.
But to be alone outside of that trip.

There are many ways to go
and the way is around thee.
In the whirlwind that encapsulates the soul.
So i can let it go.

Confusing eh?

Being awake for the first time in life
Moving on around the inner light.
The inner openings of strife/sacrifice
and seeing that the light is not inner or out.

Instead it's beyond and together.

And finally i made it to that point.
Where the mind is gone and soul too.
So that u could touch what is wise,
open, and true.

I can feel it all
and be me.
Not tainted by the falseness
of society's fake emotions.

Instead, feeling them in their truth
seeing their vulnerable nature
and truly connecting and discerning
not going and becoming.

Instead just being
be to be
see to see
me to me.

And finally, i can whisper its name.
Not fortitude's essence and flavor.
I can live not brilliantly or in mediocrity
I can be to be.

And it's crazy.
be to be
that is crazy
but it's truth
and it's really free.

Let it grow.

The exertion of the people.
The appliance of the human soul.
A part of the spirit.
It is all the phoenix, it is all.

Let it grow.
Let it grow.
Allow and you will go far,
because the phoenix within you.
It shall reveal itself and it will know.

It shall know the path to take.
Which means you will know,
because you are already the phoenix.
You just have to let go.

Your knowledge is infinite.
Unless you think and anticipate.
Your power incomprehensible.
Until you aim to wield it.

So don't use your capacity.
Until you know who you are.
Until you know who you really are!
Not your disposition or goals,
nor accomplishments, roles or proclivities.

These things are not you.
Those are but masks.
You're really something beyond that.
You're something extramural to the space.

You're a truth that doesn't
even need time.
These things that you use in what is called
"everyday."
It's not you.

The attachment it strong because you feel.
Once again those emotions,
you perceive them.
If you just encounter them face to face.
Then you'll see the love.

And then you'll see.
You will see beyond those masks of emotions.
See there's an entire set beyond the box of the usual ones.

This other set are feelings
that can live with you
You accept yourself for who you are.
Then you see who you really are.
And you are not those other things.
You are infinite in nature.

No one can really haul it away. Not infinity.
But sometimes you become beguiled in and by the masks.
In  the roles you and others fabricate.

They say you're evil, they say you're mean
they call you needy, clingy, they call you free.
They say you're amazing.
They say you're one of a kind.

In reality, you are you.
Not these varying masks of perception.
When you move past these notions,
You see your verity.

Then you're not happy nor sad, elated, or full of fear.
But you also have no lack of emotion
Instead you are finally here.

You are finally here.
Here and nowhere else.
And one you get here.
Use your power for anything, because
you are blessed.

It doesn't exist.
Give him a name, ideas, nationality,
all put together to create a personality.
It doesn't exist.

This reality is something to persist.
It's a crisis existential in nature we resist.
a life of meaning and motion if you wish.
Superlative, expansive in its there.
A world of reality it's not fair.

Because overly outwardly inwardly we stare.
and knows its truth, in existence, unreality to ensnare.
It does not exist.
It does not exist.
It is not there.

Essence is what's inside your mind.
In-spirit you rise.
In-spirited you float.
Inspired your life is as boundless as the universe.

I’m looking out on the road the sky is bright the wind is cold.
The wind my element it blows so hard, the sheer force of the world is felt in this air.
I feel the life being ****** out and then in to my body at the same time such a beautiful sensation.
This is the sensation right before you begin the Great Work when you feel the energy of the universe.
The energy just whirling around in circles the path of lapis ruber or another path.

But my journey if not for lapis philosophorum my journey is for blank, my mind is not for anything.
The journey I travel is not for life it is not for death this journey is not for a **** thing in existence.
My journey is for something much more what it is only one on the road will understand.
So when I feel the wind blowing I ask myself is it time for me to move? Is it time to start?
I am going to the center of the sun what will I do now that I’ve taken the first step has it all begun?

It is not possible to turn back not in this particular journey.
In this journey once you take a step, the platform you were walking on before is completely destroyed.
It is swallowed up in the sea of what, the platform is consumed in the place of never-ending nothingness.
Really it is not a place, it is swallowed in the void, so you can’t turn around even if you will it.

Now I as I walk this path I sit here and I see the star, on it are five points.
The five points of the star are all looking at me I just wonder if the look is inverted or upright.
If it is observing me inverted what will I do? If it is watching me uprightly what can I do?
These questions are both the same but which way is the star observing me.
I couldn’t give a **** either way, but at certain points it seems I would give a ****, now why is that?

See I’m on a spiraling path of this something, and it’s becoming clear, it’s not that I’m stepping forward.
In this journey I am not stepping forward I am not stepping backwards I am doing much more.
But I am stepping.
That’s the beauty of this journey where time ceases to exist.
It’s because at the end of this journey I might have explored the universe in its entirety.
I may have went to the edge of this universe of motion and jumped off the edge.
I would have slipped through the corners barely escaping the hound dogs of the barrier.
And after facing the eternal beasts, I would have ended up back inside of the universe.
It’s funny because after this timeless journey, I may have gained so much and time will have certainly passed.

est ruber in terra, populous non est faciem in principia pater sol regnat
in terra humanos est regnant.
deus sol non est in oceanaia luna non est in caelum nocte quam quam non lux.
non lux quam quam sol non est regnat.
hominis the rise of the moon is so great that the light of the sun can be overtake.
But the light of the moon come from the light of the sun there is nothing else that can actually and truly be done.
What to be done is what to be given to all who want to go forward in the way of life.
The path of love and the path of light leads to the same sources it is up to one of us to decide which one will be our tool. Back to what I was talking about the sand was awesome.
The alpha and the omega a rise of the sun and the fall of the moon also rise of the moon and the fall of the sun.

I know it can feel tough, but it's up to you.
Don't let the fear consume you, it's up to you.
Life can be like this,
and you can feel blue.

Don't let it consume you, it's up to you.

It's your choice to do something
from where you are.
It can be scary, sad, or hurtful
but life stretches far.
It's up to you to make a decision.

It's up to you to feel your emotions.
To accept them, and let them breathe.
Not holding on but letting them be free.
If not then you'll create things that don't exist.

You would create things you cannot remove.
You'd create a distance from all the ease.
You'd create a self culture to dis your ease.
You'd simply build a life of disease.

So it's up to you to remember.
Remember to love yourself with all your being.
No one else can do it for you.
It's up to you to live your life.

The way it flows is up to you.
Even the brightness of the sun is up to you.
The people around you,
the lessons of love.
The lessons of sorrow,
the lessons of sum.
Remember this rule.
Internalize it well.
It's up to you to see what will be there.