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Sep 2018 · 144
just some thoughts: 2
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
i'm just gonna spill my thoughts
i like to preach to always be yourself
but sometimes  being yourself
feels like hell
kids ridicule me
because they can't feel me
so i found escape in poetry
because i can explain my thoughts
so when i die
you guys can say you kinda knew me
buts its hard to write sometimes
because i know someone will always out do me
and it feels like death just pursues me
and its got me questioning
what the **** am i even doing

but what do i know, i'm just venting
Sep 2018 · 141
i'm not blaming the world
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
i'm not blaming the world
for this
THIS
this for my wrong doings
my lying
my..flaws
its not your fault world,
i was just born the a distorted view
of human perception
i'm not blaming the world for being an emotional yet unsympathetic *****
Sep 2018 · 126
Untitled
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
look i don't deserve the smiles i get
you all think i'm a great person
why?
because thank god
my secrets aren't out there for you to see
Sep 2018 · 210
human emotions
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
emotions are just another part of human perception which I can easily change with a little deception
true
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
lets get this straight
to be fine
is to be be ok
to be ok
is to not be upset
or sad
or mad
but to be just ok
its to be in a satisfying mood

when you and i say
we are fine
we are spitting on the dictionary
we are getting rid of what that word means
what its supposed to mean

when you hear us say
we are fine
you will see us crying
slowly dying
and just trying
to hold on

but were letting go
but we hide behind the word fine
well, we did
but now you know

to be honset
to be fine
is to be to lost in denial
to want to let you acknowledge the pain
lets just tear apart your world.
Sep 2018 · 112
just some thoughts: 1
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
i'm not gonna sit here
and let the world take blame
ima write down the truth
its me own fault i ain't strong enough
to deal with it all
i gave myself to everyone
in the end
caused my downfall

i like to say that everyone else is selfish
because all you do is take from me
but in the end
i'm the one who gave it to you
starting the cycle of greed

and in hopes you understand
i just write some thoughts
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
you cant love others if you don't love yourself
well, to whoever said that
your a lair
i love everyone
i have given myself to everyone
anyone
i've let you
yell
scream
hit
and vent
and still ts not enough to know
i'm helping others
its not enough to get me to love myself
Sep 2018 · 1.4k
Curtain
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
i'm tired of all you brainless
heartless cowards
yeah you hid behind curtain
because your never certain
you'll get away with  it

but you got no power
i've seen more strength
in a ******* a flower
so hide behind your curtain

because i'll  run the show
Sep 2018 · 144
conscience
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
"your pretty much nothing"
well that wasn't very nice
"i'm not here to be nice i'm here to do my job"
and that is?
"telling you what your doing wrong"

and i can't be mad that my conscience is doing its job
and maybe i need to do a better job of doing mine
but its hard
i'm in a constant state of being frozen
my head is frozen
but my bodies animated
trying to distract you

and as much as i try
these dark thoughts won't leave
and ive considered
pushing my wardrobe to long sleeves

but this cant be
i've always been happy
denail
i've always made others happy
i wish i could just make everyone happy
i'm doing great at my job
your failing at it
i'm failing at it

i can't even talk to people without my conscience
budding in
and maybe this is just a punishment
for all that i've so called "sinned"

but conscience please give me a break
i don't want today
to end up
my death date
Sep 2018 · 1.5k
my mind is a prison
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
i'm locked inside a prison cell,
but instead of metal bars to keep from escaping
i got thoughts
because my prison is my mind
and i've done some bad ****
so conscious is making me do the time

and as much as i try to forget
what a terrible person i am
i can't
because all i see is a girl in strips when i look in the mirror

i'm trapped in my mind

lets go to the cafeteria
instead of eating this slop they pass out
i simply just, pass out
id rather starve then eat the lies i'm shoving down my own throat
but if these lies are in my head
haven't i already accepted them?

you think because i smile
i'm doing "ok"?
no i'm not
but maybe if i play by the rules

i'll get out for good behavior

please tell me this idiot is my bail out
i need a bail out
Sep 2018 · 77
thoughts
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
why do i thrive off the fact of knowing that i'm borderline....evil
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
some people use they're mind
as a way to escape reality
i use reality
as a way to escape my mind

my mind is a prison
its always with me
its like my thoughts aren't mine

i can move from someplace to another if something in real life bothers me
but my mind and thoughts
i can't escape
and i'm afraid that if i could
its to late
Sep 2018 · 93
in advance
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
i would like to apologize in advance
for anything i may say or do
anything that i may write that may make you cry
anything i do
that makes you sad
or hurts you
i'm apologizing in advance
Sep 2018 · 83
quote
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
i'm not literal garage
just metaphorically
Sep 2018 · 85
to put it simply
Sep 2018 · 81
questions and thoughts: 1
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
are any of us truly even here?
or are we just figments of what we wish to perceive.
after all, even if it hurts..pain sometimes is the only way to know
we feel anything at all.
question what you believe. even if its yourself
Sep 2018 · 363
denial: your not ok
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
when i act like everythings ok
it makes things worse
its like
my idea of reality is disoriented
and somethings ******* with my mentality
when in all actuality
im just rotting from the inside out
and its hard to breath
and i wont to shout
because i don't want all the pain i carry
to spill out

"i want to just make you smile
and ill try
even in the end
its happens to be, that my insides dies"

and i've promised

and i've stayed true to that promise
but its worth the death
i'm just lost
lost
lost
lost
Sep 2018 · 96
..
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
..
who needs to eat or sleep?
i can survive on tears and pain alone
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
some people describe their sadness as a feeling of "falling"

to me its more like plummeting fast towards death

not fast enough
i hate me
Sep 2018 · 210
why I love sad poems
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
i don't know how to explain it exactly
i'm not fond of the sorrow in your words
but fond of the words you put the sorrow into.
Sep 2018 · 153
vent: thoughts
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
i am feeling my emotions
in my head their all yelling
causing a commotion
"your not good enough" they shout
"your selfish and greedy"
but don't feel sorry for yourself
you don't want to seem needy

how is it that i can help others
but i cant help myself?
you all come to me with your problems
expecting me to solve 'em

I can't solve mine
maybe its because of the mask i hide behind
but you know what world
I gotta thank you
for all this anger I carry inside

i know that its probably inevtible
for me to carry plan: s
but i want to give it one last shot

and thats what i keep telling myself
just one last shot
and maybe it'll get better

but its not, because of all you selfish *******
i give everything i have to you
i gave myself up to the world
i have torn myself apart
to entertain
please
and just give to you

but your all selfish
you don't give me a break
you always want more
and i guess thats partly my fault

instead of giving you all somethig to wish on in times of need
i gave you a machine
that you've slowly turned to grief

and I know
oh I know

theres nothing i can do

all i'm doing is venting to you
venting a new poetry series
Sep 2018 · 1.6k
ruined rainbows
Jasmine dryer Sep 2018
The say that after very storm theres a rainbow
But at evey rainbow is a *** of gold
Gold turns into greed
Greed turns into guilt
Giult turns into pain
Pain turns into tears
Raindrops
And then once more
A rainbow
The never ending cycle
Aug 2018 · 151
the girl, the ant, the pain
Jasmine dryer Aug 2018
She never really knew what to think
But she learned fast
That everything she loved
Could be gone in a blink

She found misery love
And beauty in misery
And it was hard
She thought she was crazy
And maybe she was
Maybe

But she didnt mind
Yes the thought scared her
But she tried not to care
After all, these days
sanity
True sanity
Is scarce

She waked outside
Notebook in hand
Pencil in the other
She walked to the edge of  the road
Sat on rock
Sat and thought


Thought of wonderful words
Terrible words
Any words
Every word

Then she saw an ant
Limping
Probably stepped on by a person
People don't care

She stared at it and cried

I know they don't care, and now you have to pay
The ant limped some more
So she sat there and stared
for the rest of the day

She told the ant
Existence is pain sometimes
I dont what to do
And maybe I can't end my pain
But ill try to stay strong
Just for you

More hours past
She named it gubber
At first she called it alex
But this name was funner

Gubber I can't stand to watch this any longer
She picked up a rock and said
I'm sorry
I really am
But i can't watch  you die slowly
I won't let anyone watch you die slowy

Existence is pain
And I know its true
I feel pain and so do you
But your pain is worse

She picked up the rock
Took a small swing

1
2
3
4
5

Id rather put you out of our misery
Then see you in pain
How can something so cruel be so kind, I wish I could be someones ant
Aug 2018 · 134
I know you know
Jasmine dryer Aug 2018
I fell in love with your words
Your thoughts
I fell in love with a screen
What exactly does this mean?

Well ive a waited
Thinking long  and hard
And I think
ive finally returned

I'm going to open up with you
Aug 2018 · 119
my ex is like an app
Jasmine dryer Aug 2018
I'm fun and have wonderful colors
With me youll never be bored again
Bring your fantasy to life

May contain virus that will be harmful to user devices
In app purchases apply


In other words she said she loved me
That she would bring me to life
But instead I wore her out
And she broke me
I spent so much money and time on her

Just to have another deleted file
It popped into my head
Aug 2018 · 439
were all speaking
Jasmine dryer Aug 2018
emotional speaking,
you left me i hate you
i did everything for you
i'm making you happy
i'm not real
there not real get out of my head
she calls me names
why is there four of me
i have friends
you just cant see them
first they  were a game
now your comfort
i failed

Analytically speaking,

i failed at helping you
and that is of no fault of mine
i have tried
and failed


breaking down speaking,

you dint want to be my friend
but the voices do
they shower me in ink
as if my own blood was pouring over me
black
oozing ink
mettalic
oh its wonderful
they wave
and smile
i can see them
but you cant
unfortunately
they can see you


what i want to say.

H
   E
                         L
      P

MMMMME

*******  PLEASE

i'm begging you
she's begging you
were begging you
please don't listen to them please hear me

raw emotion no filter
Jasmine dryer Aug 2018
If I could describe myself then I would be a star
i want to glow up everyones day
I want to shine bright
And I try to put a smile on your face
Oh and  how I try with all my might

I want to be the person that people need
Something they can wish on
I mean thats the only reason why I’m still here
R
I
G
H
T
?


I mean as much as I hate to admit it sometimes
Its hard to be a star
After all
I have to die over and over again
Explode
Die
Again and again
To give you what you want
I must become brand new

But don’t worry , I promise that I
That we
That she
Will still do anything for you
are you smiling yet?
Jul 2018 · 239
Is it just me?
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
Is it just me or is it weird
To have been told that standing up for yourself makes you weak
But don’t be pushed around
So you sit in a bubble
making you more of a freak
no matter what i'm wrong, isn't that freaky
Jul 2018 · 351
Just a smudge
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
Your memory is like a thousand words being erased
Because no matter what
they still leave a dark smudge
Of what they used to be
as we grow, our former self becomes a smudge
Jul 2018 · 223
dusk and dawn
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
if anyone gets the hatred towards others
its a lost poet
not because of their flair for "dramatic"
but because we see what others fail to acknowledge
we see a new perspective
even if it is sometimes
in black an white
so when you say you hate me
or when they curse your name
simply explain how it is wrong
in the words of a poet

"it seems that through our differences we have forgotten, that at dusk and dawn we all share the same color shadow"
Jul 2018 · 212
melt a mirror
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
she wanted to melt mirrors
because her reflection wasn't good enough
it red smears scattered
and a terrible outline
but if you could melt her tattered clothes
maybe her even more tattered mind
could think she was beautiful

maybe even , flawless art
tattered beauty
Jul 2018 · 146
thunder and lightning
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
i flinch at thunder
but after theres always lightning
A bright wonderful light
Then it fades into the night

Thunder and lightning
Part of storm
Just  like love
Its frightening at first
But then it gets better
Still scary but oh so-
Beautiful~
u like?
Jul 2018 · 216
poetry collab
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
hello there everyone! my name is jasmine and i was thinking about how many awesome poets there are on this site . so i was thinking maybe we can start a group account ? we can all name it together. and then if you message me ill give you the email and password for that account. i think that way when someone goes there they have a number of poems from different people all on one account!  and you can even advertise your personal account on it to. so who's in? message me if you are or have any questions!
this is a good idea .
Jul 2018 · 369
my friends
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
my friends are like flies
focusing only on ****
and living short

all dyng

they drop like flies
sad but true
Jul 2018 · 124
mind and reality
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
im a poet
the words surround me
chock me

im a poet
and because of that
its hard to tell if all this stuff-
this pain, love, beauty
is all in my head
just in my mind

but even my non poetic counterparts
see pain
love
and there idea of beauty

but what if my mind is reality
or maybe reality is a much less sinister
version of my mind

its a funny thought
but lets face
mind and reality
may tie into each
but only when your trying to distinguish them apart
Jul 2018 · 623
Guilt: washing machine
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
your filthy
you reek of  individuality
how dare you be such a mess
don't worry society can fix
after all they fixed all the other kids

with there blank stares
they confom
because now they don't care

now run along to the washing machine
and clean yourself up

but i don't want to go in the machine
its an hour
of turning and turning
over agian
till your rid of all stench

years later
i miss your mess
i miss the stench
and now i'm alone
once more
now your a shiny mirror
you only mimick
you conform

conformity is the biggest diseases  we face. it can **** an individual and only leave a husk
dont conform
Jul 2018 · 192
Guilt: depression
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
i feel cold
i feel like i'm stuck in a hole
i feel like i'm dying
wait- no i feel something different
a yearn, a want
a plead for death
its my fault
its all fualt
i feel guilty
when i've done nothing wrong
now they've got me on meds
i don't want to be happy
if i'm not really happy
but instead being ****** over in the head
i know its sad but oh its so true for me
Jul 2018 · 462
Guilt: Anorexic
Jasmine dryer Jul 2018
are you fine?
yes of course, don't worry

my fridge is stocked
thats a good thing right?
unless its the same food
for a week, un touched in the slightest

you wont eat
"are you anorexic, my friend?"
"yes" the words flow into me like a million blades in my blood
but i smile and say, i'll help you

you start to eat
your getting better
my best friend is getting better

my friend..."your fat"

i remember saying that to you
all those years ago
i started this

i hear the sound of gagging filling the halls
i run to you there
besides the toilet
face expressionless, eyes cold

how could you?

you lie down, and i remember that its my fault

this is all my fault , right?
yes
i'm sorry
pretty late isn't it?
what do you mean?
i'm already dead

and with that theres a pounding in your head
there tears in your eyes
and you realize
this is all a lie

when i thought you were getting better, it was a way to cope with the fact that you had died
i lied-
to myself
to you

guilt, turns a person mad and forces them into the truth
even if they cant mange to swallow it
part of my new poetry line "guilt" post this everywhere you can on the internet , to help this problem!


*these are all realistic fiction which means there not real, but have real pressing issues
Jun 2018 · 285
whats the point?
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
whats the point of falling
if at the bottom theres no balloons
or pillow to soften then blow

you hurt me

whats the point in falling
if you only end up
hitting the hard concrete floor

spill blood

whats the point of falling
of taking a risk
if you know for a fact
that when you fall
in your finally moments before hitting the ground
no one will catch you

whats the point of loving you?
Jun 2018 · 391
A modern apocalypse
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
society has drugged some people into the idea that if we have money we will be happy
Turning people into brainless hungry zombie
Never having a enough
Always searching the lowest of wastelands for more

Society has built us into soldiers
Robotic and grey
Gave of us the ability to make choices
But put us on restricted mode
the robots are slowly turning to rust
Yet they march forever more

Society has given a dystopia
Out of a utopia
By making us feel like we have choices
distracting us
Lying  and saying
That everything fine
But the air is ash
And our minds are trash

the modern apocalypse
look deeper in our lives
Jun 2018 · 214
Sick of love, give me pain
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
I'm sick of love
I'm tired of the crows tearing me apart
and feasting on my heart
instead i seek pain
something to keep my mind stable
because crows are birds
part of nature
they don't realize what they are doing

i'm tired of of being sick
not with the cold or flue -
but love
instead I seek the cold and painful air
to surround me in a suffocating hug

i'm tired of my heart beating fast
no instead i need it to be calm
and steaady
because i have to be ready
in case love calls again
because they aren't ready
they aren't prepared for this

instead pain surrounded me
surround me with my own pain
or maybe yours
because i love the pain
it hurts just as much love
hope u like ig. i'm just a young poet
Jun 2018 · 141
mind games
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
One wrong move
One last sigh
Look for answer
But no one replies

Yes , this was all a lie
Now go on
Run and hide
And scream at me
Oh how I wish you would die

Well don’t worry ,darling we all die eventually
Its inevitable
So I embrace it

Your a monster
You made me feel things
You made me happy

I know

Thats why I did it
This is sick and twisted game
The game I wish I could stop
And unplug it from my head

Im sorry friend
Im a master at mind games
And sadly as I suspected

You lost
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
i know theres something wrong

When I look in the mirror

Because instead rotting flesh falling to ground

I find a girl, she looks normal

Normal looking isn't enough



I know theres something wrong because when I walk through the halls I can hear screaming

Though I can't hear words

Just screams

it can't stop

   It won't stop



I know theres something wrong because when I open my phone

And look for a game

All can see

Are the terrible words

flooding the screen

why are you still here



I know theres something because when I smile at a certain person

They smile back , not a fake smile

Or a taunting smile

That all the other shadows cast

But real

i trust you



i know that somethings wrong because when I go to sleep

All I can see are thousands of menacing crows

Tearing at my insides

Tearing my heart apart

   i loved you
somethings dreadfully wrong
Jun 2018 · 209
Disappointed
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
I'm not sad
I'm not mad
I'm just disappointed

You lie
So your sinner

You don't eat
Your getting thinner

You disappointed me, because you can't focus your state of mind

Well it's time
I've had enough
Get your **** together
Or get out

Don't be a waste of space

Sincerely, your inner self hate
Sometimes my mind just hates me
Jun 2018 · 146
Not afraid of death
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
Im not afraid of death
Or what comes after-
If anything at all

Im afraid of being forgotten
just because you can hear my voice, or my hearts not beating
Doesn’t mean I was never there

Im afraid that everyone will forget me
Because only few get remembered
And even the people that remember me
Will die to
And be forgotten as well

Promise you’ll remember me?
Jun 2018 · 166
ancestors
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
We try to trace ourselves to our ancestors
But do you think they want to trace there genes to us?
Jun 2018 · 131
water
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
to me you became water
For your smooth
Flowing and eternal
Now I need you
Just to survive in this desert we call life
Jun 2018 · 122
may and June
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
Tears are falling down for it is June
The last day of may
Were yesterday
Oh my darling wilted rose
How I wish you could’ve stayed
Jasmine dryer Jun 2018
Don’t look under my bed
There are no monsters there
Instead there all around me
When I walk in the streets

There in the halls
They laugh and smile
They look normal
Normal enough

There in are minds
there trapped inside
Hiding under everyones lies

the monsters are every where
Not under my bed
So time mammy and daddy
Please lock the windows
Plug my ears
Because when the monsters come
I don’t wanna hear
May 2018 · 133
surrounded
Jasmine dryer May 2018
why when i'm surrounded by people

who love me

do i feel so ******* lonely

i cant control my emotions

but i can control how they are portrayed

i made a promise to always be happy

and i will be

but know

behind every smile

is a broken

lunatic

who will stop at nothing
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