More addictive than heroine
I've tried them both
Something to marvel in
Created from loath

Can't imagine the pleasure
Can't imagine the fun
Till you've tried to measure
The pain of a gun

How long are the scars?
How deep do they go?
More numerous than stars
And you'll never know

What is your poison?
What is your drug?
Mine is a razor
I watched as it dug

And none must ever know
So never let it show

I am a *******
How long can I last like this?

The most degrading of sins?
Such terrible disgust?
Or the filthiest of wins?
My only true lust

Tied me down
To the ground
Took what you wanted
Called me a **** and

You slapped me
You beat me
You hated me
You ***** me

Then left me alone
Because, as I know
Once you were done
I was no one

Now you come looking back
With the same feeling slap
Your troubles in life
Don't excuse giving me strife

It's over you freak
Just leave me be
This time I won't defend
Your *** you ****-head

Leave me the **** alone
Or the past will be shone
I'll send you to jail
And trust me, you'll fail
Even if you're a 'kid'
From you I'll be rid
You're still older than me
So who will courts believe?

You better get out
Take this with no doubt
You'd better believe
So stop ******* with me

Please

How stupid I was to let myself think
That what we had was some special link
I allowed you to lie straight to my face
And you abandoned me in utter disgrace
You humiliated me in from of my friends
And now you want what? To make amends?

Tell me, was she worth it? Was she so good?
That you'd leave me so alone where I stood?
You chose her, not me, and years latter regret it
And now you think that you can correct it?
Forget it, it's over, you ***-driven monkey
I'm not a possession, not one of your junkies

You got what you wanted, what's left to take?
You were my biggest of many mistakes
You were all that I had in a world so **** dark
Now, feeding my hate, you've played your part
Don't let me catch you around here again
Or I promise I'll **** you with my own hands

Tell me you hate me
Don't you dare lie
I'm nothing to see
I know deep inside
I have nothing to be
And nothing to hide

Don't dare do want you do
Don't dare say "I love you"

Am I a coward?
Or am I strong?
The pain that has towered
Dealt with for so long

Yet, I'm still here
Is it because fear?

I've wanted to die
I can't help but wonder why
Why haven't I?

Do I persevere?
Life, do I hold dear?

Or am I afraid?
Of being laid
Down in a tomb?
Is it worse than my room?

So am I a coward?
Am I so weak?
Or am I strong
In the face of a life soured?
I can't help but think
About my song

The song of my life
Could it sing strength?
Somehow my knife
Shining at length
Doesn't seem to believe
I'll be remembered that way
So I would conceive
Strength isn't what people would say
When describing me
So cowardly then
Is what I must be
For not bringing my end

And I still don't know
If I'll ever go
Will I ever confide
In my suicide?

So many people seem to insist
On hurting me more than I can take
And the regret that I feel every day
As all I can do is attempt to resist
I try to improve for my own sake
But they always manage to downplay

So here I am just cutting away
Because I have to make myself pay
While all they do and all they say
I know is my fault in it's own way

The burns that scar me deep inside
The hurt that I can no longer hide
Because day in and because day out
Hateful words they always shout

I need to find a way to survive
As it cuts and chips away at my hide
I wish that I could find a ride
To take me where I don't have to abide

People will always have hateful words
Many I wish that I hadn't heard
Maybe then I'd know what to do
To help out me and to help out you
With this hate that I've always known
Then there'd be no scars to be shown

So tell me how am I to resist
The hateful words that always persist
From hateful people who mostly insist
That I don't have the right to exist

People in pain over love that's been lost
Crying and sighing because of high cost
And when I see this I can't help but think
How lucky am I to have never formed a link

I've not felt of passion stinging the blood
I've never known ecstasy streaming in flood
Though too young may I be to have met love
If ever I met them I'd respond with a shove

Not better to have loved and lost is what I find
Whilst it leaves you too often in shatters behind
So I'll continue my way without such a grace
Because I have heard how it ends in disgrace

I have no dependency on love's cruel infection
I would rather I choose mine own direction
So I'll never have to be so weakly dependent
And I won't have to wallow in fatal repentant

Love will never be right for me in this world
I'd rather stay hidden with soul deeply curled
So no I don't understand the pain of your heart
And I never will or else it would tear me apart

No one doth care
To remember mine name
No one doth care
Of from which I came

I come and I go
And as I grow
There are none who follow
As I stride in straight rows

Some may I like
And some may I hate
But always in psych
I know mine own fate
So weather I wish
Or weather I don't
I always do wisp
Away though I won't
Be remembered by any
In these places I go
For as I see many
None do I know

A calf without milk
Ripped from the womb
Mother's hair like silk
Lay stiff in the tomb

And father's embrace
To go up in flames
Our house to misplace
In a lion's main

My siblings so dear
Strung far apart
Lost and in fear
Rip out my heart

The system tells not
Of where we should go
It makes me burn hot
Through rain and in snow

Lost were the lambs
Without mother's kind face
Lost were us lambs
Without father's sturdy place

Scattered are we
My siblings and me
No place to go
Nothing to be

Blood, gore
***, *****
High, drugs
Thief, mugs
Anger, harm
Cut, arm
****, *******
Looser, *******
*****, ****
Slutty, shunned
******, ugly
Smart, nerdy
Stupid, dumb
Perfect, come
Gay, handy
Ignorant, trani
Black, ******
White, *******
Lost, dog
Fat, hog
Illegal, immigrant
Immoral, rent

Discriminate
Hate
Procrastinate
Fake

We all give labels to everyone
All of us, let's have some fun
Let's go out and **** someone
Who hurts you, don't let them run

Make all pay for labels begun.

Any insult you could throw my way
Is true.

I'm worthless in every single day
Who knew?

When I'm near children I shy away
Not coo.

And when I'm angry, terrible things I say
You'll rue.

I **** sunshine's shining rays
With blue.

About people, every waking moment pray
They'll shoo.

And every sin which others lay
I do.

So every insult thrown my way
Is undeniably true.

Shameful glaring.
Hateful words.
Always reprimanding.
Misplaced worlds.
Everything breaking.

All pain.
Stinging guilt.
Sighing rain.
Interests tilt.
Giving demons.
Having loathing.
Never bronze.
Ever dulling.
Disgraceful self.

Shame assigned.

Some people are lost
And wish only to be found
But what is the cost
Of wandering around?

I prefer to be senseless
Without a direction
Moving through countless
Ways of deception

Truly, being found, is not what it seems
It's people describing you, driving to screams
I'd wander the oceans, rivers, and streams
Rather than stand in the assigned spot for me

Hate leads to more success
Ability to vanquish foes
Variant into worrying less
Every day is the life you chose

Having friends who are so needy
Always makes life harder
Though some may view as greedy
Each friend is one to barter

Have hate.

Watch me cry
Up to the sky
My wails drowned
Out by the clouded
Merciless heavens.

Unto the wind
Though I've sinned
Hear my bawl
Answer my call

And still I sigh
Lost in the sky
The moon hung high
While I cry
"Die."

Goodnight World
Goodnight Moon
***** this ****
I'm not childish

I simply need
I must concede

A total fool
A blood pool
My razor shines
My fine lines

The red glint
The strong scent
High risks received
High stakes involved
Endless pleas sung
Endless screams rung

Waiting so silent
Waiting so violent
Over the edge
Over the ledge
Right here collapsed
Right now elapsed
So far gone
So stepped on
Too much pain
Too little gain

I am the worst.

You think you can love me?
I guarantee you're wrong.
None could ever be
That inherently strong.

I have no social graces.
I dare not try feeling.
I remember no faces
Because I'm uncaring.

I will never matter,
So please, don't try.
The world would be better
If I would just die.

I'm not worth your time.
Don't spare me a thought.
I'm not worth a dime.
I should be forgot.