Nights like this,
the past hurts a lot.
I still have so many questions,
and none of the answers I get make sense.
I know I'm suppose to be healed by now,
but I don't think I'll ever be better.
Not completely.
I have days and nights where I'm fine.
Then I have days and nights like tonight,
where I just feel uneasy,
and like I just need to be held.
I'm going to be okay.
I know that.
But I go through life with a damaged heart,
and sometimes I just need reassurance.
I just need to know I'm not alone.
I need to know I'm enough.
A lot of stuff from the past has once again come to the surface and tonight I'm just feeling the pain of it all. I know it will go away, but for right now, I just need a good cry.