Imagine this... You've been reading this book for awhile now and you're not really interested anymore, but you still keep reading it.  One day you pick up a complete different book and skim through it, it seems interesting. It's interesting. Very interesting. You start reading it and now you can't take your eyes off the book. You even lose sleep cause of it. You just wanna keep reading and reading. The book never gets boring and you definitely don't want to put it down. You're drawn to that book very much. All you do all day at work is think about this new book you have and can't wait to get home and read some more.
You've left the old book behind and don't even want to read it because you've realized that you've been reading something that won't change and it doesn't interests you. You've moved on. Now you're only focused on the new one and that's the only one you want to read nothing else.
You're my new book.

You tell me about your life... and the things that you're doing... and I'm happy for you, I really am...
Knowing that you're trying to find your way and who you are in this life is great to hear...
I'm happy that you're becoming a stronger person, so independent with big goals that I know you'll achieve someday...

I just wish all this would've happened with me by your side...

But I know... you needed to do this alone.
I couldn't help you... this was your "me" time... You needed that "me" time to see what the world had to offer...
And I can't lie... I did too...

I needed to be alone to realize what I wanted ... and to know for sure what I did not want...
I needed to be free to realize that love is hard to find...that real, true, unconditional love is rare...
You were all that.
I needed to grow up... just a little...
I had to be alone to realize how lucky I was...

It's crazy to think that after all the time we spent together,  we're now two separate people...
I'm such a different person than when we met
... my heart has changed, so has my mind.
I don't think I would recognize myself if I saw me five years ago...
I feel that you're different too... and I hope to see this new version of yourself someday...

Life is complicated, and it's beautiful
It hurts sometimes, but the pain makes me feel alive...
Songs... so many remind me of you
Places... can't look around without picturing you there too...
Gestures, sounds, mannerisms... I still have some of yours that I picked up when we were together... They've become part of me too.

I have to say... I do miss you
I recall memories of us together when I'm home alone, or when I'm simple walking down the street... I cherish those moments;  I put them in my heart to have with me always...

I truly do not know if we'll ever have the chance to give this a try once more... I don't even know if we'll ever see each other again...
But I can't say "never"... Life has taught me that much.
Just know that I appreciate every moment we got to spend together, every laugh, every tear, every hug, every kiss...  
You'll always be a part of me regardless of time...
I will always love you.

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I'm standing here

       In this doorway

   Halfway between where I have been
And where I will go

     *And I can't help but cry tears of joy.

And every bit of you
is something true

Deep as the ocean
Even your tears are blue

every inch of you
is different
every piece is new

Your soul is paradise
I want to live in you

you are so true
you are so true

very bit of you

Your tears are drops of the ocean
and who doesn't love the deep blue

Your tears are drops of the ocean
and who doesn't love the deep blue

tears of joy are happy they have good intent
whether birth  or marriage or a life event
running down your face happy tears not sad
these are tears of love that make you feel so glad
emotions they are shed when the tear drops start
filled with lot of happiness coming from your heart