I will never forget
Because they are everywhere
The voices of what is new what is old
They let me die
Bleed out my tears, she cries
I laid to die
In my grave, she has gone insane
How did I get here again?
A reality recurring into a nightmare
Do I have to do this again?
I don't regret a thing
Only that I forgot my shelf in the **** hunting hallway
Long live obsessed with kept secrets
I’ll find them in men of all kinds
Daisies wash away
One by one I call out the ones who
Double dealed, fake, and flaked.
I’m just looking for absolution
Mother Earth once my friend
At the twelfth strike
You trash my world
Speck of love
Yet your eyes double cross
My love has shown me first hand infidelity
Tell me about falseness
As you eat your words
Runaway, look away in hard times
There must be more?
Teach me, better yet model me, then cheat me
I’m wondering, who are you?
You share my DNA but I don’t know you
You think of me as cold
That’s only half the path
Feel the distance
Know it’s your result of mistrust
Those tears say and say
The body holds the source
I know your long lost kept secret
Only a child used so carelessly
All the years of loneliness and void
Blame **** them and forgive them
Please daisies castaway the deception
Clarity swimming in remission
Long before I drown in the many retributions.
Send me a love so grand
I can't seem to believe love is within me
No palms to hold
No grip to be seen
Not another friend
Someone pull me upright
Hold me strong
Narrate love songs of how all is gonna be good
Know my intentions
How I mean well
Instead let's fight about stupid games
Not who I am + what I do
Cause I feel like a fool
I can't get why friends just never stay
Forever reciting the blues
Cause God I feel so misunderstood
So I'm asking you
Hopping I will receive
A novel of raw + contemporary love.
I have never met you
But I heard your energy is so divine
I have never been near you
But I heard the air is so fine.
I used to fancy about you day in + out
Until you became over played and so over hyped
I used to count the days until I'd meet you
But then I found out you were just like everyone else
Even after all the push + pulls
I see you in a new + queer light
I see you in pure faces in the open air
I made you a reverie
Until I realized you were a lie
My days have reformed
I want to live and breathe the voyage
Things I haven't yet seduced.
Still, I haven't met you
But somehow I know we have met before
Just in another past-life
I have never met you but I am so sure we will again
You go beyond space, time, skin, body, + mind
So, I'm telling you I'm so sure we will meet again in time
Just forget about how + when
So personal to me
I gave up my knowing
It doesn't belong anymore
If I'm listening closely I hear you whisper my name in dark streets during the night
If I look closely I see you outside of my glass screen door
Just waiting to be let in.
You once met me and rooted passion + desire within me
Binding me to you
When I lose my creed
Your love bleeds igniting me
The knowing we will meet again
I thought I was oh so high
Until the word
You are oh so high oh mighty.
Yet again a dual duplicate
Edge of night i arise
I flee the scene
It’s frigid and so chilly
I gasp with a puff and whiff of a coral blooded breeze
My kitty on edge and alarmed
A feeling of mind bending pastimes
Both portals wide + unsealed
Hold dreary + dismal riddles
Just waiting to be solved
Such a common carmine illusion
One spine chilling
Second time a state of art
i feel like time is
i feel like there is more i could have done yesterday.
i regret not kissing you enough yesterday,
because now i realize i can't tomorrow.
today i missed you,
it came in waves like water clashing against rocks.
yesterday i said "tomorrow you'll be okay."
and again i will tell myself, tomorrow.
yesterday wasn't as bad as today is or will be,
yesterday and tomorrow.
does it make a difference if i feel the same?
i kinda fixed this one up a bit but it's pretty old - think i'll edit it again later to actually mean something because i really like the ending. sorry if my stuff doesn't make sense.
When a word is wise
It’s nice to hear
More of those
Words of kindness
So simply put
Love is an energy
Humanity it’s roots
You may not fear
But I have seen
A million tears
Heartache and misery
Written in stone
Can follow you home
And you may not believe
That poetry has such power
Until my friends
Your hearts are devoured