Even though you're another's
I can't take your picture from my phone
I'm a ******* loser
I'm sorry I can't yet
I didn't know you had trouble removing me from yours

You're not a sinner
You were always my saint.
You, higher than the Fathers,
You, greater than the archangels.
You, magnificent, magnanimous, though flawed
Me, a sinner, incomparable to your glory.

Your secrets may not be something my mind can fathom
Or my heart handle
You are still my favorite person
Even if my love may not be with you like it was

My emotions, soon stoic,
But, in here, legendary.

My world, transformed.
A scroll folds across the sky
Ahead of me, the trumpets blare,
And i'm left to be trampled by a Godly steed.

Im going to regret
Writing every single word
On my soul, flesh, paper, electricity
Flows from my being like
A star has exploded.

My very essence has been transformed.
What catalyst has caused such change?
Alchemical reactions to extreme emotion
Solidified in the will to become
A free soul.

Bring about my decalcification!
Bring forth the rudder that steers me to victory,
And bash my ******* skull in.
Make me a free man, my soul,
Restore to me the primal essence.
That primitive vitality, Lord,
Let me become You.

I cannot believe
My body can ache
From the wrath i cause myself.

Leave me alone
Oh tormenting mind
And free me from my cell.

Remove me from temporal gain,
Eleviate my need for joy.
**** my soul, destroy me whole
And keep me as I was.

On here, I am free
To say as I wish
But I don't want to give you fuel
To fan flames against me

I will never hide
No matter how much I ache
I trust you to look away
If you truly wish to.

Thank you so much.
I will be better.
I'll be a good friend to you,
and I'll keep my emotions out of it

I am not afraid of who i am
Nor am I scared of who I'll become

I'll use this as a lesson
In the school of life
Never believe what people say
Unless you stare them in the eyes

Ill pour my ******* heart out now
That i know that I can
And i am in so much ******* disarray

Be happier than i ever made you
And it'll make me happier than I ever have been.

I hope the best
For you and I
That I may grow
And that you may too

Reading your poems
Brings my heart
Joys unseen

Let that smile return
Never let it fade
Whatever's occured
I know you'll feel better

Folkloric tales of fables and songs
Of rabid bands of wond'ring throngs
Of merchant men, of robbers sweet,
The hearts of all are sold as meat

I'm a loser baby
So why don't ya **** me
*wicked guitar solo

When I walked to the restroom
The way he smiled at me
Tore my soul to shreds

You wish to know the secret things?
Those hidden things shown unto me?
The Mystery of Mysteries, of Divine Intervention?
Then follow me into the midnight plane
And let me show you a world unseen!

Look upon the starry sky,
Do you not see the heavens aglow?
Can you not feel the magic, thick
In the air, like shrouding smoke?

Then breathe the air, smell the trees
You're going to feel odd for now
But once you let the magic in
You'll never want to let it out.

I didn't know
By teaching things
Of salvation and of death
I would be tossed
Into such a state
No wonder I'm a mess.

How dare I contemplated the Lord
As if He told me to?
How dare I teach the ways of God
To those unwanting few?

It's said thoughts of suicide
Can accompany prelest
And I saw the damage the demons caused
When I decided to speak.

I know now what I've said
I've only learned from books
That's why my mind is troubled so
Plagued with Hell's fishhooks.

I need to fight back the thoughts
That well up in my head
I need to fight the demons back
Unless I'd find me dead.

Suicide, depression, please spare me, please.
I just want a single day of release
I would like to not feel like sleeping all day
And I want to win my life back.

But, alas, I chose my fate
And now I've got to heal my mind
I feel like dying, I cannot see
The light that I once had

You've done so much to fix my life,
Lord, let me count some ways.
I've not the need for **** indeed
I won't smoke for all my days!
My bank account is full
And so shall it be to-morrow
My heart, now full of song and love
No longer full of sorrow!

You helped me love myself again
By letting me be me
I cannot thank you enough, my joy
Because of you, I'm free!

To re-mystify, here's what i mean:
Imagine a well planned out, ancient scene
Imagine the Druids all clothed in white
Waving their staves, a pure, wondrous sight

Can you smell the fire burning?
Can you hear the kettle turning?
Can you see the embers rising on high?

Can you hear all the chanting?
The rhythmic drum bashing?
This is what i mean: Re-Mystify!

Bring back the comradery
Of dancing round, fondly,
A fire that's meant for a king!

Take all of your friends
And tie all of your ends
May the mystical triumph ascend!

I'm sorry I held on
Even though you made it clear
I should've been smarter
And I intend to be now.

I've got to guard my heart
I never must let this happen again
I trusted others to protect it
Yet, I couldn't trust myself.

I shall grow, and I shall be better
I'll be the hero I aspire to be
You'll be by my side, me by yours,
Friends until the dawn of the end.

Guilt will come
Guilt will go
Happiness will come to stay

Don't be complacent
Become your goals
And never let others get in the way

I'm sorry
I don't know why anymore
But I am

I wish i could envelope myself
In the ecstacy of escapism
Rushing away to realms concealed
In things that make me sway.

But, no, I am strong.
I shall overcome.
I am stronger than that which consumes me
Whether suicide or addiction, I will win.

Cuts and scrapes
Slashes, tears
Unintended, with intention
Please save my soul.

Patience
Something I am working on
Something I will be using greatly.

I will be patient.
You are going through so much
And I am going to help make it better.

Help me be patient
Teach me what it is you need
Let me into your heart to stay

Please be patient
Don't wander off so quickly
Maybe we can love again

Patience.
It's a beautiful thing
For lovers, and friends.

My faith in God
These last two days
Have been as thin ice in the last days of winter.

how could I be so blind
To let everything get ahead of me
Why did I not put her first?

My salvation will never be ensured
But one thing was
And that was her love.

Or so I thought
I may not believe in anything anymore
I didn't expect this from her.

I seriously miss you so ******* much. I can't believe you're gone. I just can't. I can't wrap my head around the fact that you're okay with just leaving me, even though just three days ago we had kissed and you held me close and I was all yours. I'm still all yours. I love you so ******* much. I ******* love you still so ******* much. I am so ******* tired of not being good enough. I want you to love me again. Please. Please just please for even a day, I'll make it last a lifetime. Just please.

I'm afraid to hold on
My trust, not shattered, but hurt
Am I to believe you won't leave me again
Lying alone, in pain, in the dirt?

The Olympian Spirits compare not to your wondrous beauty.
Their power is nothing to your smile
The dragons of the world revile
When they're pierced by your shining glow.

Your radiance appeasing Helios,
Athena admires your wit,
And Aphrodite loves your look
Every curve, every bump, is blessed.

You may not be able to look past my odd beliefs
But I adore yours
You need not khernip, for your miasma
Is as wonderful as fallen snow.

I can't believe
I'll never feel
Your lips against mine again

I'm thankful for you
I have given you my heart
And i pray you keep it safe.

No matter what
I'll keep yours safe
Beating happily next to mine

Lord grant me a peaceful rest
Alleviate this stress
And resign myself to You.

Keep my dreams
Let them not wander
Lest I remind myself why i am sleeping

The bad may come in threes,
But you were not that.
Tragedy echoes not
The feelings within me.

You are the Great Third,
The final of the trio
The golden sheft of wheat
Given to the gods of autumn.

You are the shining sun
A glorious ray of light
But a cloud rolls past you, dear
Shadowing your might.

The tragedy may have been me
But twas it not you.
You may have torn my soul apart
But you can mend it anew.

This cup was not
passed by me, but to me
And the vinegar inside
Is justly deserved.

I was not enough
To heal the wound
Telling her that
I am not worthy of her love.

Will i be okay?
Or am i just trash again
To be tossed aside

I know you will be fine
Whatever the problems you had overblown will be talked of and healed
Love will return
But only if you wish it to.

I hold on to another day and
I watch the birds pass by.
I feel the cold autumnal wind
Caress my swollen eyes.

I do not know what it is i want
I know what it is i need.
I cannot force a persons love
Just as i can't force the seasons.

Don't be too hasty, please, for me
Take this break, keep the peace,
But don't let me break away
And float down another stream.

For you are the Whole of which I'm a part,
And, without you, I'm alone.

Did I assume, when writing last night
Amidst pain of fire and sweat
That Love would flee, would have strucken me,
As if they blood in my body's bereft?

I am never going to find another
No, never, not anyone so great
Your love for me may have faltered
But my love for you will stand 'gainst fate.

You'll always be the one who struck my
Heart and soul afire with flames
Of love and sweetened, kindly devotion
Even if one of our loves' to wain.

Never forget me, never forsake me
Please keep me in your mind
For maybe love will ferment again
When I am given the trials of time.

Oh God, my Lord, what have You done?
What can I do to remedy?
You made me fall so madly in love,
My life, You have taken from me?

Follow me, stick to me, never leave
Your heart may not be mine
But mine will forever be owed to you
And will stand the test of time.

Can I truly speak my mind and not
Lose my train of thought?
Am I the one who's above all else?
If so, its only because of you.
Remember when I say that, verily,
Everything I love is in you!

You make all of my senses fail
In comprehending your beauty.
Soul and body, both pristine,
My life is changed by your love.

I hung blankets from my bedroom walls
And draped them over my windows.
My head lays down, thoughts abound
What is this that I'm doing?

Why am I finally able to dream without sleeping?
Finally awake to the glory of the world!
I'm able to think about adventures
With the one I love

Its like I'm clearer headed
Than I've been these past few years
And I still can't believe that I
Have gotten to where I am.

I can finally sit and imagine
Ponder of how I can be
Look in my minds eye and travel
Across land, air, and sea.

Not alone, nay, never
The worlds too vast for one
But share it with the one I love,
And I'll be forever blissful.

I'm sorry, my love, I failed you
My arms fall to my side
I lay my weary head to rest
And rise to feel like I've died

Arisen in panic
In worry, in fear
Anxiety stricken
With no sleep near

Please forgive me, love
I hope it went well
I love you so much
Though I feel like hell

Every day I walk through life
Unknowing of where to go
I only have a vague idea
Of what I'm 'sposed to know.

I'm unsure of my calling
I'm unsure of my life
I'm not too keen on these machines
That cause me all my strife.

I live a life of lying
Of looking into eyes
And telling people I'm okay
That I've still got all my tries!

But one thing is for certain
This one's not left behind
The one thing I am certain of
Is Love's right-wondrous rhyme.

What's shone since the beginning?
Since light first graced the sky?
'Twas Hatred's broodish, helly face?
No! Love's the one, says I!

So one thing is for certain
This one's left to remind
Of why I keep on chugging
And a-rollin' down the line.

That's Love is my whole reason
For dancing this foreboding dance
And if I am not careful
I could lose my last chance.

So learn to romp and tango!
Bully, my boy, dance right!
For if we Love, what have we lost?
Not nary a beautiful night!

O Joy! Bright, beauteous being!
            Behold my jovial smile!
O Joy! Sweet soul, so sending
            My heart to golden isle!
O Joy! Great goodness, dearly
            Does my soul doth love!
O Joy! My life is yours so wholly!
            My gift from up above!

Stowed away in darkened halls
In murky crypts it's kept
The mighty it has humbled
And, oh, every widows' wept.

This thing is kept in lock and key
In spikened treasure chest
But there's no gold, nor silver here.
Oh, let me tell the rest.

The bane of wives, the horror of lives
The husband's fault so clearly.
To kids, they cannot handle it.
Adults, we hold it dearly.

The end of all good things, if not
Kept neatly under wraps.
Like Pandora's box, once opened up
The whole of your world may snap!

The treasure's called Anxiety,
The box's name is Worry,
And the key is just one single thought
Left in your mind to scurry.

So keep your thoughts together
And let not one be your end
For if you open Anxiety's Box
You'll surely lose a friend.

I walk into the mossy wood,
The Sun above me shining.
Around me I can feel it warmth
And I see the ray's wide-winding.

As source, it gives me light and heat
And gives the moss it's green
Through grace, I shall be warm again
Even when I'm left dying.

Fast falling rain and
rumbling thunder.
A healing refrain,
a sky torn 'sunder.

Great are the clouds
that heal the land.
The Lord's great blessing
for fields of Man