Her eyes are weary, but she’s wide awake.
She can’t seem to shake this feeling away.
She knew what you were, but had to learn the hard way.
She broke out of the asylum.
Night terrors still haunt her in the dark.
Blinded by her dreams.
There’s a disease in her garden.
She had no choice except to abandon all of her sins back in autumn.
Here in the shadow she cries.
Every night she holds on for dear life.
Barely making it out alive.
Here in the shadow she only just survives.
In a bed she doesn’t want to sleep in,
In a world she doesn’t want to live in,
In a universe she doesn’t want to exist in,
Is where she lies.
She wants to pull her stomach over her head and swallow.
The weight is adding to the baggage she always carries.
It’s not as strong as all of this tormenting sorrow.
She suffered through the invasion.
Her soul forever paralyzed.
If she ends this now, she’ll never feel anything again…

Thought I’d be stuck here forever.
Don’t need to live in fear anymore.
There’s been a change in the weather.
The choir’s singing in my honor.
I’m happy to leave here.
There’s so much more to explore…
Time to wash away all the fears of yesterday.
I’ve had enough of your black rain.
Don’t let the past ruin today.
Time to free myself from all the pain.
I’ve come such a long way.
There is a life out there beyond the valley of tears,
There must be…
I’m going to change my name, change my hair,
And untangle you from me.
Picking up the pieces of the mess you made of me.
The darkness still surrounds me,
But I pray one day ill rise above it all…
Around this time next year I’ll have nothing but my shame.
The flame may be gone but the fire still remains.
I pray that one day ill rise above it all…
There is a life out there beyond the valley of tears,
There must be…

Where is my mind today?
Is this real or make believe?
Don’t know the difference anymore between fantasy and reality.
Have I lost myself completely?
I no longer recognize myself.
Don’t now the truth from lies,
Don’t even know why I cry.
I’ve lost the ability,
To push my troubles aside…
Grow accustomed to the feeling of being stuck in my mind.
It’s suffocating yet I can still breathe.
Draining me of all energy.
In a way it gives me a sense of relief.
It’s my cage and my remedy.
How long will I stay trapped here?
Been craving to once again see the sun that shines.
From here I don’t know where to go.
Stuck in limbo,
Everything I fear is now real.
Am I that far gone?
I’ll just lay here until the world outside is worth living.
Am I just looking or really seeing?
Just hearing or really listening?
What’s really happening?
What’s going on?

All she had left was her strength.
Searching for the key to happiness.
Is it possible to just have a key made?
Stranded in the castle of thieves.
Her tower was her birdcage.
The martyr to the pigeons,
Sacrificing her wings.
He took away her freedom.
God is my judge.
God is your judge.
He judges us all.
Am I More than a commodity?
More than a slave to the king.
How many casualties are left?
Will I ever feel the joys of spring again?
Brace yourself, time to take off the mask.
It’s only fair that we reveal only what needs to be.
It’s not an easy task. Is she safe?
She knows what she needs to do, but it’s easier said than done.
Has the battle ended? Has he really won?

Her laughs sweeter than sugar.
Dancing around the room in circles,
Until she gets dizzy and can’t stand no more.
Her smile was contagious.
Too bad life happened,
And that smile had seen its last days.
She had no choice left but to be courageous.
The years went by so fast,
But really she’s still a baby girl.
She doesn’t sing and dance anymore.
Every morning she has a war with herself to just get out of bed.
Cause they don’t come around anymore,
So they may as well be dead.
I remember my father used to say,
Can’t get his words out my head.
He said, “Knowledge is power”,
The problem with that is the more you know, the less you really want to know.
Underneath it all she’s still in longing.
This world is so infectious,
When it comes to chaos and evil.
I want to slay the dragon,
But I seemed to have dropped my weapon.
It’s there but it’s missing.
You call it a mercy killing for killing my innocence.
You got a sick way of looking at things, darling.
I get to live to see another day to tell my tragic tale.
But underneath it all I’m weeping for my precious baby girl…
Hollering at the wind, hoping to slow it down.
I don’t know where I begin, or where I’m supposed to end.
There are so many unwritten pages to my story,
So why should it end here?
What would mother say?
If this was back in the day.
Nothing is meant to be easy.

God didn’t put any promises in the promise land.
Forgotten how to dream my own dream.
Your words have a bitter aftertaste.
With you was where my dreams end.
Underneath it all she’s still crawling.
**** out the poison slowly, not all at once.
I want to slay the dragon, but I seemed to have lost my weapon.
You call it a mercy killing for killing my innocence.
You got a sick way of looking at things, darling.
I get to live another day to tell my tragic tale.
But underneath it all I’m weeping for my                            
Precious baby girl.

Smoke and mirrors,
That’s all you ever were.
Bathing in the river of illusion.
In the eleventh hour,
Is when your loyalties turned.
You’re a ****** artist,
Painting me a fool for your own amusement.
Playing with fire always leaves a burn.
Ignorance keeps the monsters away.
Never wanted this to begin with.
Should’ve listened to my conscience.
You’re the professional illusionist.
I’m unconsciously laying with a demon.
How can I ever love again?
If I’m still caught in the chase.
What you’ve taken from me,
Can’t be easily replaced.
Past the point of no return.
My nightmares have been infiltrated by your dreams.
Wishing to look past all the graphic details.
As you left me here silently.
The nights getting colder.
Will the beast ever sleep?
You got me begging on my knees.
You can really make those clowns scream.

The jungle is awake and alive.
Show me the ways I’ve been missing.
Teach me how to be a butterfly.
So I can come out of hiding?
My wings are in need of some fixing.
Lately I can’t feel anything,
Besides genuine hate.
Toward everyone around me.
I need someone to shelter me.
To keep out the rain.
It’s overwhelming.
You told me you cared.
What were your true intentions?
Covering me in your blankets,
Won’t cover up your fingerprints.
Your drunken words hypnotize my sober mind.
You told me you could ease the pain.
Can I keep a glacier from falling?
Nothing but the mountains remain.
Make me feel something.
Even if it hurts,
Make me feel anything.