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Abner Ros Mar 2022
I am a God
Conceit and ego aside,
I would like to announce to all that doubt
That I am a God
My bones are rubble
Debris floats around me
I mock reality
Lick my lips
Salt my tongue
Devour the sun
I am a God
Contorting my pain
Into something tangible
Remove my skin
(A muddy coat)
I’m a feline I scratch.
Jan 2022 · 125
Dog
Abner Ros Jan 2022
Dog
When I go home and you’re not there
The days won’t start the same
The familiar smell of rain
Makes it unfair
Your life was intertwined with mine
Yet I am cursed to remain
And go on much the same
In your absence
I can’t bear citrus
The garage frightens me
Walking is marred.
Why bother with this, I am mourning a death that has not arrived
But still, pain contorts me
Puppeteering
A grateful final act –
Time is on its side
Make use of night, do not mourn
Thanks to the now and the then
Discourage the future
Close your arms.
Jan 2022 · 108
Dont smile at me
Abner Ros Jan 2022
This is a game
To see who laughs first while we stare at each other.
It’s just a joke, you used to do it with your other friends.
I can’t look at you without smiling, so its obvious I will lose but I
Play because you look at only me for a few seconds and we
Share that, and I crave it.
It’s inevitable that I lose
But I didn’t think that meant losing you too
Sometimes, I still stare.
Jan 2022 · 326
cherry whine book
Abner Ros Jan 2022
guys I made a book!
https://au.blurb.com/b/11021892-cherry-whine
Dec 2021 · 140
Untitled
Abner Ros Dec 2021
A year since his death and I’m fine.
I don’t mind formalities but
Being backed into corners by crazy family is more than I can handle.
    Your aura has changed!
    It’s blue, know what that means?
    Oh, of course not.
    I never saw you as a writer but
    Psychology is a well-fitting hat.
    Are you happy? You look sad,
    Whys that?
I’d be happy without this conversation.
There’s no cold water left.
I wake up and everyone is still here.
The house is anxious
The dog screams
I say these things, but I know I am fine.
Nov 2021 · 112
Untitled
Abner Ros Nov 2021
I don't think I've had a single original experience.
I can't seem to finish a book anymore
I get halfway through one before I start another.
I think my friends can't stand me.
Work terrifies me.
I can’t handle damage to my confidence
Though it is already dangerously low.
I live for weekends but struggle to leave my room to actually live.
It’s reassuring to know that I’m just the same as most others
No one likes their job or even reads at all.
Maybe my friends don’t hate me and I’m wrong.
I always wonder
What my reflection looks like to others
Since I struggle to see beyond the blur.
Nov 2021 · 110
Untitled
Abner Ros Nov 2021
Tomorrow I will wake just like today and
Think of what I feared most
Having now become more than
Nightmare or dream
It is in my hands or
Perhaps on my back
I’m a feline I scratch
I want it off
Marring me
Far more than mere skin
My spirit is *****
I want to wash it
Seeing black run down my legs
And hair frizz like a day so familiarly faded,
Yesterday, I yearned.
Nov 2021 · 207
Cherry Whine
Abner Ros Nov 2021
We don’t really cook anymore
It’s just easier now
Not worrying about
Pots and pans and knives and forks and napkins and
Instead thinking about waking.
If ever there was a right time, it would be now
I die when you call them movies
Insisting that they’re films
One semester I studied it
I know better than you.
I surrender
If I’m not the best why bother?
I’m lonely but in an existential way
I’m not simple
I don’t just want.
I complain
I’m not the best now
I liked hurting girls
You know I’m well read?
It doesn’t stop there
I worry still
Just about me.
But also
I’m still worried about what we’ll drink
And what’s for dinner
I think tomorrow is important but I'm starving.
Nov 2021 · 635
Untitled
Abner Ros Nov 2021
I think words disgust me
But touch amuses me
I get confused sometimes and
Mix up what I think
I think touch disgusts me
And words amuse me
But I never do know
What I really mean.
Sep 2021 · 77
Bookmark
Abner Ros Sep 2021
En route to the guillotine of my own construction
I gaze at each glimmer from your earthy eyes and
Cheers my own life in its final chapter –
  No longer wanting to mark the page.
Aug 2021 · 229
Untitled
Abner Ros Aug 2021
We sat on a log
And called it a spaceship
You insisted on being the pilot.
Aug 2021 · 90
Untitled
Abner Ros Aug 2021
There was a boy
Once disillusioned by the idea of seniority,
Who one day realised his dad might be wrong.
What I heard when he was dying
Takes unusual form in my memories.
A lively spirit masqueraded in a stained shirt.
All too reminiscent of the boy
Who was once the light of my eyes,
But cannot be.
The light had gone out that day.
Jul 2021 · 324
Untitled
Abner Ros Jul 2021
When I was little
I needed my dad to lower my chair with his weight.
When I alone pulled the lever
My chair would go higher and higher
When I wanted to go down
So my dad would sit and pull and
Take me down with a grin.
Jul 2021 · 98
June ?
Abner Ros Jul 2021
You forgot my birthday yesterday
Even when I told you that
I'm having a beer for my first drink,
And you laughed at me.
Oh God I should've known that when you handed me
A plastic succulent that still had a price tag under it,
You really had forgotten.
My mum and dad both told me that nothing good could come
From you and I just fighting and me always crying.
But my dog always loved you so I thought you must be good,
Even when the sun itself would run and hide from you.
I guess I should count myself lucky
'cause at least plastic plants don't die.
But I'll still send flowers to your mum on mother's day.
Jun 2021 · 217
[rsvp] : N(o)
Abner Ros Jun 2021
If you see her; send my regards
When her sweater doesn't quite fit anymore.
Her new, four-year-old paper hangs above her bed. 
Dust gathers on my old shirt buried in her cupboard.
Winnie wags her tail for the last time.
She's promoted.
Thinks of me plainly.
I see the white envelope slide under my door —
I send my regards.
Jun 2021 · 86
Pleasantries
Abner Ros Jun 2021
December was remembered for what it brought
Well, more specifically what it stole from us all.
Overwhelmed like a tear in rain –
An engulfing force demanding pain.
Then, colours faded from around
Until there too was no more sound,
  Agony seeped through each room
As flowers too refused to bloom.
What’s left now with no more glee?
Hard to say, you may agree.
  As it came so it went,
  Month followed month
  With no ill intent.
January now, time moves on
Not forgetting what had gone wrong.
One becomes two, and three and four,
Until remembering too becomes a chore.
   Now six later you sit and sigh
   When you know you should instead cry.
You say tears have expired
And are no longer required –
You should be thankful
For what December brought you.
May 2021 · 79
Times with a coachman
Abner Ros May 2021
Each carriage rushes past
Asking me who I want to be -
  Fix my collar,
  Stand taller,
  Hang my bag off of my back with only one strap,
  Hold a book,
  Check my reflection in the stained glass.
As doors pass, so do parts of me,
And what I may be.
Apr 2021 · 410
$22/22
Abner Ros Apr 2021
A face of petals
Surround an opening
Of childish hot pink
That has come to define you.
Yet,
Bruised ears hang
And catch words -
Polite and not.
As Old ale graces your lips
And warms you
Despite resultant fatigue.
You're tall now
And fall apart -
Drooping,
Like frail birds of paradise
Burning in moon shine.
Feb 2021 · 160
A Grain
Abner Ros Feb 2021
Like a blip upon the timeline that is My life
I struggle to recall the time,
Though, not so long ago that I had entirely forgotten,
When days were consumed by your presence.
Whether speaking or simply sitting – basking in whatever
The environment offered us, it mattered very little.
I long for the stretch of time which seemed endless to
Once more return,
And to fill My life further,
Reminding me of what friendship felt like –
A foreign comfort now rarely received.
Feb 2021 · 291
Idio
Abner Ros Feb 2021
When meaning collapses and words dance
Thoughtfully, attempting to rediscover purpose
Beyond mere sound,
You will look to the darkened chamber
And see an unusually familiar phantom –
One which you would think belongs far in past
Yet refuses to be relegated to such a place.
A fleeting moment reminds you of when letters resembled
Joyous times of pleasures now unthinkable
As a sweat stained collar renders all poetry dumb.
Jan 2021 · 106
North Lay The Sea
Abner Ros Jan 2021
North lay the Sea.
And for me
  To think of something
Other than old bone
Would be a thought (not quite my own)
  As that dumb thing
Lingers and leans at the back of my mind
Begging for attention from all humankind.

Yet still, it remains.
And dances cheerfully,
Wearing a face  (not quite its own)
And bearing a tone
Of uncertainty.

Lips of silver don sarcastic clothes
  With scarcely audible remarks
    Shaking the Sea itself, and
North it remains through it all.
Abner Ros Jan 2021
Rapping at my window,
Tracking in mud —
Allowing a draft to enter
My four walls.
Who is that knocking on my door?
A wordless whisper accompanies your sightless gaze
With a ***** essence following.
Who let you in?
Jan 2021 · 170
We'll Talk Soon
Abner Ros Jan 2021
I'll tell you all about it when you awake —
How the brilliant bees buzzed as they rested on your
Birds of paradise and hummed a happy tune alongside
The brightly shining beams of radiance,
And the scent of sweetness resonating from
Your hive which filled my nostrils.
I'll make sure to tell you all of it —
And I won't skip a single detail.
Dec 2020 · 101
Everybody Dreams
Abner Ros Dec 2020
But I cannot remember the last time
Mine had come true.
Dec 2020 · 122
'Another Day in Paradise'
Abner Ros Dec 2020
I met a woman at a bus stop once.
She sat next to me, which I, being a teenage boy in a school uniform, found peculiar
As that sort of image usually acts as a repellent for kind-looking individuals.
Though, I was glad, and promptly shuffled over.
As she sat, she began to speak to me, and her lips pursed and carefully let out each syllable with such care,
As though every sound she produced meant something special - something beyond the confines of the English language.
I recall her introduction, as she looked to me and smiled;
'Hi, I'm Joanne, and you?'
Without thinking, I shook her hand and we began chatting.
At this point, the bus was probably thirty minutes away, and we knew this conversation had an obvious expiry date.
Joanne then spoke of her husband, who had recently lost a hard-fought battle with pancreatic cancer,
And made what I initially thought to be a mundane passing comment, as she noted that I resembled him —
Though, I had no reason to inquire as I was hardly in a position to request information about a strangers deceased husband.
As she continued, she repeated a phrase which she said her husband used to often ramble:
'Another day in paradise', and smiled each time.
At the time, I never understood the four words she had said again and again, and I questioned what she had meant by it.
Even now, writing this, I struggle to comprehend what one could infer from such a vague phrase.
Though, the answer seemed much clearer as our conversation approached its inevitable end,
And Joanne once more commented on how my hair fell to the side much like her husband's.
As the bus sluggishly made its way to the stop in front of me,
Joanne stood, with the blinding sun above illuminating her and the blackest black shadow below her,
As she said farewell, echoed the phrase one last time, and walked to the
Bus stop across the road, and took a seat.
Abner Ros Dec 2020
A room full of amber is new to me.
So is the presence of another —
For I feel o so out of place here;
Wherever here may be.
But an air of unfamiliarity is nothing new
To one as old as I —
A traveler of face and place.
A thousand patricians sing a song of Old World fame with lips wide.
Still, I am unaware of this place and nameless face I bear.
I am evidently not from around here - or so I'm told, as strangers watch on
With glazed eyes and indistinguishable faces that silently scream, begging for my removal.
An unwelcome guest to a backwards land of the final ring.
To which I submit.
Dec 2020 · 98
A Grassy Hill
Abner Ros Dec 2020
An emerald stretch of well-trimmed lawn survives amongst the surrounding hill side.
Despite an evident contrast of greens and the dreary wheat-coloured plains,
The self-contained lawn remains indifferent.
Dec 2020 · 181
Flowers In The Rubbish Bin
Abner Ros Dec 2020
What causes this?
Arguably the greatest tragedy one can observe —
Amidst cigarettes, grog and gum sits a bouquet of
Freesias intertwined with blossoming buttercups which illuminate the murky can.
But why?
The scent of faeces now stains the bright bunch of flora,
As the once shining ribbon of gold takes on the foul sheen of the ramshackle can,
And now, I ponder how one can do this.
I ponder how you could do this —
To me.
Abner Ros Dec 2020
A gathering of clouds reminds me of what it was like
All that time ago, when you were more than an echo.
Now, rainfall is all but a memory of what is lost,
And what I am yet to accept is gone —
Reduced to an untouchable phantom wearing your clothes.
But as the rain gives up, I still see your hand over me
And I manifest a grin to show you I'm here,
Still.
After all this time,
I, unlike you, never left.
Because without you, the rain is cold.
Dec 2020 · 74
A Crisis on Flake Street
Abner Ros Dec 2020
Bells chime awfully loud,
Infiltrating a once clear mind
Now possessed by dings and tolls.
Puffs of blackened smoke accompany incessant whispers
And a uniform stomping of shoes along the busy street of asphalt.
A flood of hat-donning men absorb the road,
As women gaze from dusty panes and disapprovingly nod
At the odd march occurring streets below.
Flags of old fall down as new crests fly high —
Usurping what was known to be true and redefining unity.
Headlines equivocate: 'A Crisis on Flake Street', though,
If patricians did so, they'd've proclaimed freedom for all.
A conflagration of deceit and embellishments runs rampant
And joins those men parading the streets to their clear dismay.
Dec 2020 · 907
Rocket Ship Blanket
Abner Ros Dec 2020
A rocket ship cannot be orange and red with white open hatches.
A rocket ship cannot live only on cotton.
A rocket ship cannot have wings of blue taking it high.
A rocket ship must be up in the blue sky.
A rocket ship needs to see stars above.
A rocket ship is not yours to keep.
A rocket ship blanket, however,
May be orange and red with white open hatches,
May exist on your soft cotton
And have wings of blue which take it high, though,
Not in the sky to see the stars above, but
Remain yours to keep as you nuzzle for comfort
In a world where real rocket ships rise.
Abner Ros Dec 2020
You'll struggle to find a home
Without smiling pictures hanging
On the walls.
No matter where you go,
You'll always find a home
With smiling pictures hanging
On the walls.
Because who would want to remember unhappiness
Because a wall is but an ideal of what you wish to be
Because no one would hang the sad pictures
On the walls.
Dec 2020 · 187
A Lonely Tick
Abner Ros Dec 2020
Your clock now rests on my desk,
And each tick and tock simulates the beating of your heart,
A heart which now rests in the earth —
The earth from which it came from
And of which it has now returned to.
Your clock now ticks for you,
No longer with you.
Dec 2020 · 72
Realities
Abner Ros Dec 2020
There is nothing I don't know.
Expect you, perhaps.
Dec 2020 · 81
Time. At Last.
Abner Ros Dec 2020
There will come a day
When I look at where we once were
And feign a smile, caught in nostalgia, and
Think to myself of what we once were —
There will come a day
When I see you as no more than a poorly developed photograph
Imitating a life which has been long since abandoned.
There will come a day
When I discover truth.
Dec 2020 · 153
I don't like the past tense
Abner Ros Dec 2020
'Asleep', they say.
Waiting for whatever is to come next.
Though, a crooked nose and
Scent of decay pulls you back
To this reality —
The one you left not too long ago.
Empty eyes lacking pigmentation
Feigns life and claims you,
But only I see it.
Only I
Hate the past tense.
Dec 2020 · 62
untitled VI
Abner Ros Dec 2020
I want to be the person you write songs about.
Dec 2020 · 72
Third Story
Abner Ros Dec 2020
I've heard the first two,
Though, neither make it clear.
So I wish there was a third
Story which told me why I couldn't see
The obvious end to what we had,
Or more specifically,
What we never got to have.
Thirdstory is an excellent band
Dec 2020 · 134
Cherry Wine
Abner Ros Dec 2020
Stealer of face
Engulfs my very being.
Though, regardless of what I desire
I understand that ultimately
I am yours.
I will always be
Yours.

And I may be nothing more.
Name inspired by Hozier's 'Cherry Wine'
Dec 2020 · 312
untitled V
Abner Ros Dec 2020
Eagles of stone stood valiantly outside
The rickety aged home of wood planks.
Though, were unsuccessful in their duty of protection,
As the roaring conflagration reduced the estate
To mere smoke amidst the icy air.
Dec 2020 · 252
See You Soon
Abner Ros Dec 2020
A grey-faced lady sits solemnly on a bench
For the fourth night in a row.

The twilight radiance casts a peculiar shadow
Around her presumably turquoise jacket
With bursting pockets of paper and pens.

Encircled by brightly-coloured books,
The lady, for the first time in her bench lamentations,
Raised her head and looked over to me.
And as our soft gazes collided, we noticed the darkening
Of the scarcely visible Moon, and the resultant
Gloom which consumed the surrounding greenery.

Though, she, with dreamy eyes, whispered so sweetly –
"I'll see you soon",
As she stood and became one with the encroaching dark.
Dec 2020 · 226
The Wire
Abner Ros Dec 2020
Possums on a wire
Or on a roof.
Wherever they transpire
They remain aloof
To what problems we
Inflate and accumulate

Possums on a wire
Or on a roof.
Little care for how we take fire
And hide the proof
Of what damages us
Until the day
We meet our fate —
Wherever it may be;
Possibly on a wire
Or on a roof.
Dec 2020 · 441
Cat
Abner Ros Dec 2020
Cat
At midnight I'd see a cat
Male or female I do not know
Though they're fluffy —
White as snow.

A pleasant approach with an embracing face
As the creatures eyes glow
Warmer than the ol' Moon up above
And shine so splendidly that I often forget
Both the time and place
In which we met.

How can a nameless feline like you
Make me ponder who I am?
Dec 2020 · 75
untitled IV
Abner Ros Dec 2020
To sacrifice what I feel to
Ensure we remain
What we have always been.

Yet I cannot assure
That I can make us what
I know we must be.

If time has yet to ease
What I know to be true,
How am I to guarantee
That I am able to suppress
These feelings which have
Loomed and darkened
Our lives?

An everlasting stain
Of which I am to blame
For the mess
We have made.
Dec 2020 · 63
Him
Abner Ros Dec 2020
Him
Envy a monster within.
To be jealous of what I am not,
Unlike him.
For simply
I am me.
Dec 2020 · 73
Haiku for You
Abner Ros Dec 2020
How could I forget?
You were often good to me.
Though, never for long.
Don't always write what you know.
Dec 2020 · 125
Words Lost
Abner Ros Dec 2020
How come
Every day
As I walk
Through the room
Which was once living
I glance over
And stop,
Staring at the
Empty leather chair.
And as I freeze
I ponder what
Was once there
With glazed eyes
And whisper
Your name.
Dec 2020 · 118
Telephone
Abner Ros Dec 2020
Though Death may be calling,
I remain on do not disturb.
For I am not prepared —
For I am not equal to He.
Dec 2020 · 220
Terrible Talons
Abner Ros Dec 2020
How do the gnawing claws of Death ache less than the resultant onslaught of loneliness?
Dec 2020 · 115
untitled III
Abner Ros Dec 2020
You've just become a photo.
Your name now a void of sorrow,
With little meaning beyond a sound
From the lips of those who remain.
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