I'm feeling free for once in my life
Dont need to care, I'm feeling the vibe
Who cares what they say?
**** what they think
I'mma do me and take a sip of my drink

The wild animal in me is raging to come back
Go sprak on the dance floor, making it crack
Life's all about having fun, no time for being sad
Let's make the most out of it; let's do something bad

Nothing wrong with breaking the rules
If you're not about that life, stop wasting your joules
Live a little, that's all I can say
We're just having fun and it wont matter anyway

i'm so tired of being harleekae
can i please be someone else
if only for a day
do different things/see new places
travel around/see some different faces
this world wasnt made for me
no not at all
it's built too precariously
set up for me to fall

I just want to say what I *******
mean and feel what I ******* say,
no filters or metaphors no words
in disguise. I just want to *******,
whoever you may be.

wanna hear the secret
to having a perfect day?
don't try at all
and all will be okay

I like to do drugs, hallucinogens in fact. ***** Crack, ******, and ****. ***** I don’t **** with that. **** your grammar or whatever U thinks about it. Not being an *** it just how I feel about it. **** shows me the vain plead to be successful.  To them I’m soon to be dirt. Yet they ,,,,,,have done no research. I like the colors and the swirls in my brain it almost makes me feel like im not even gay. Cuz im not when im high,,,,,and this is not self-hatred . Preference is the problem of the gay hate matrix. But back to drugs there so fun and idgaf if u don’t get the pun. My art turns into magic, the sounds turn into visuals , music becomes colors on the -----I am great canvas. I like to do drugs, hallucinogens in fact. ***** Crack, ******, and ****. ***** I don’t **** with that. **** your grammar or whatever U thinks about it. Not being an *** it just how I feel about it.

i am the lyrical terrorist,
     stalking virtual grasslands
     technology fueled efficient
     #winning#unabombereatyourheartout

     IDK how 2 roboto-cize
     spiritual growth.
     YET
     IDGAF bout your FB status
     if you dont respond to mine.
     First.
     #circumcumnavigate

     the sheep are now wolves
     (lobotomized)
     preying on our weaknesses

    BRING ME ANOTHER POWER STRIP!

     See?
     so much 2 say...
     Why?

                        c
               i                   g
           r     the globe      n
               c                   i
                         l

     Word.

I DON'T GIVE A ****!"
WHY?
"You asking me why?"
"When was the last time we spoke ?:
"When was the last time you saw her?"
Who?
"Don't play stupid with me
I'm not tryna hear all that
I'm out
You are such ******* *******"

Your eccentric personality
The illusions
The constant confusions
The subtweets
The words
The allure
The pseudo care
The Korean noodles
The massages
The animal ***
The guilt
The phone calls
The texts
The drama
Repeat

We lie to lay with each other
To find out about each other
Till clever words
Make us distant
Eluding your illusions
A handful
Even for my two hands
Checking on me like a baseman in the ninth inning  
Patrolling my twitter is what keeps you winning

DMs got me sinning
DMs got me sinning
DMs got me sinning?

DMs got me feeling tremendous
Newness and
New man
New thing.

out in the west end

kneading at a soft belly
warm and fragrant straight
out of the shower
like bread from an oven

they would have me eat
from my own side
before I could be deemed
acceptable for purchase

i curiously inform them
that i am no longer for sale
and drift into peaceful sleep
to the song of the wringing in their hands

truly feel the impact
of old school swears

and that makes me sad

I can only hope
in four hundred years
after we're dead

some poor HS freshman
is searching the new wave
hologram CliffsNotes
to define idgaf

You think your so pretty,
You think u can rock with me,
You say "I love you." your a liar,
Even a blind man could see that,
But I really don't give a ****.

And before I say anything I just want to make it known that I am writing this because I just watched the movie gravity, but this Is about the sciency one not Sandra bullock breathing heavily for an hour and a half. Gravity is a concept that has been proven real and this all happend a long *** time ago. When exactly doesn't matter to me cause idgaf about exact info. But I'm not sure wether I like it or hate it. On one hand it keeps evrything here and in it's designated place and that's cool and all, but on the other side it stops me from looking up at the sky and jumping for the moon or just leaving the earth or even being able to dunk in basket ball. If there was no gravity I could just get my moon shoes on and jump around wherever I want to. I'd jump my *** all the way to Texas to see mel, but I can't because we have gravity. **** gravity. I want to see mel I want to hold her and cuddle with her and kiss her and make her feel like there isn't a single problem in the world when I'm holding her but I can't do that. I can't jump my *** to Texas In moon shoes because of ******* gravity...

im done no one gives a **** why should i i find life pountless im just so ******* done  idgaf anymore ive tried and tried and tried i guess its not good enough everyone runs away no one can love me i just **** up to much And no one cares so im done bye.

"Columbus was a twatface ****** whose karma now entails an aeon-long dharma of subsequent reincarnations as a monkey *** stain spurt on the hard cold floor of an unkempt city zoo deep within the bowels of Fucksville, USA. There, I said it. idgaf"

~ Einstein

I
am sinking into the broth of a wealthy mans soup
she
says that mental illness is scary but doesn't seem to care when
i am being overtaken by chains pulling me
away
and you
say that i am yours but
spend more time with her everyday than
we have in the three years ive known you and
he
stares into my eyes searching but drowns in encryption
we
are trying to pull ourselves from this pit but
swimming through oil is making me break out and
it
is too hard to not give up or just look
away
from me

I'm always so astounded
by my ability to ruin everything
slit my wrists, ****** fists
questioning why I exist
pain persists, evil gifts
******* up my life to ****
I'm worthless, slit my wrists until I bleed out- worthless: eli.

Surprised I didn't go psychotic
But lately the rules I've been braking is huge implications
Cause blood may be thicker than water but it's not thicker than a bottle of Jack- Away: Bmike

I'm not suicidal I don't wanna ******* die / I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright- Suicidal Thoughts- Josh A &
iamjakehill

Once upon a time, I still believed in myself
True love doesn't have a happy ending
'Cause when it's real, it doesn't ever end- Happy Never After: Gnash

My music is dark, sorry my life ain't prettyJust me and my thougths and they always stick with me
If my head's down it's 'cuz i'm overthinking- IDGAF: sik world

I'm unwell, thanks for asking
Swallow hard, kills sadness with science
But the aftermath might make you sick
I worry I won't be the same
But I guess that that's the point- Medicate: Gabbie Hanna

People wanna talk when I'm not around to hear
I'm not worth the trouble it seems
I would say you're wrong, but I've been here before
There's nothing left inside- Monster: Gabbie Hanna

And my heart was pumping, chest was screaming,
Mind was running, air was freezing,
Punch my face, do it ’cause I like the pain- boy in the bubble: Alec Benjamin

I’m such a ******* waste of achievement
I should put this trigger to my brain and just squeeze it
It’s getting to the point where it’s sad as ****
I’ve given it my all but it’s not enough
Ask me one more ******* time how the **** I feel
Imma ******* lose my mind- anxiety: Bmike

"Baby, never cut!"
She even tried to overdose and take her life away.
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.- Bmike: baby dont cut

The day he left for Rome I cried
I wouldn't see him for 35 long days
To get some air I went outside
The fresh mowed grass reminded me of his beard
The sunset reminded me of his hair
Tears fell of my face when mum asked are you alright
I watched movies on youtube late into the night

1. Today I slept a lot
I felt mad when I woke up and saw that he'd texted me while I was asleep
And sad
I think his perfume is making me sneeze
He gave me his jumper to cuddle while he's away

2. Today I worked
Had plenty to do but it still felt weird
He texted at lunchtime
Said he missed me and loved me
I love him too
I think he might be the closest thing to perfection
I want to live with him forever
Tonight I worked
Had one too many assignments to do

3. Today I worked for 5 hours straight on my new business
My man texted me when he woke up and sent me a picture
Das my man
We texted for a bit
I think he's missing me as much as I miss him
He still wants to know what's going on
Procrastination tbh
I still have the oral presentation to write
And the slideshow
Uni *****
Never do it
Find yourself a man that will love you without a degree
Trust me
Sheesh I love him so much
Sposiamoci

4. Welp, day four and we fought
FML
So after crying a lot and questioning everything
I slept
**** uni
**** assignments
**** life
*** does he think he's doing
Saying that he loves me
Then hating on me
What's a good enough answer
To being told your life is going to be ****
And you wont get what you want
*** is the point of anything
If i dont get what I want
Call me selfish if you like. idgaf
Maybe I shouldn't be with anyone
****** if I do and ****** if i don't:
-Tell him what they say
-Ask for what I want
-Keep trying

Day 5
If anything or anyone is making my coat-tails flap
I think everyone knows who and what that is
We took a 'family' trip
Saw dolphins
And a blow hole
Things are so different now
I'm not in charge of anything
I'm not expected to be helpful
I suspect I 'should feel bad'
But it's less stress on me and that's great
I wanted to get a photo with grandma
Prolly be the last time I do anything with her
But no time seemed right
I forced myself to have a zest for life
Spent time with everyone
And really, it was beautiful
The way the sun sparkled off the waves
I hardly thought about what it would be like
To throw myself in
And sink

Day 6
Today was a day
High but low
Very animated
Singing, laughing, running, working hard and fast
Getting a lot done
But teetering on the brink
Having to savagely tear myself back
After the email from mum
She got the job!!
I'm glad
(But no, it's not what I'll be ever doing)
And scared
Life's just rushing along like a torrent around me
I dont matter
Nothing I do really matters
It's good
But what if I get left behind
With nowhere to go
What if I drown
Alone
While everyone else is
Head long
Full pelt
Going places
Young men in a hurry
But good things did happen
Felt like they did at least
Come to think of it...
The best thing was that Ross and Rocky saw me and said hello
It's ages since someone said hello to me
It's even longer since someone said hello to me that I didnt want to punch in the face
So yeah
Boyfriendless Fridays ****

Day 7
Today I slept in really late
I'm feeling good
Recorded my oral presentation
It's 12 minutes when I read slowly
So I've cut some words
I'm a *******
Gosh I'm grateful for people that help me
This assignment *****

All these people putting fake smiles in these pics.
Idgaf just let the camera click.
They be scared to let them see who they really is.
So they posting fake images,
No witnesses, no one to snitch
No one to say..
Yo what is this.
Just the likes they're get-ting
the hearts that make em grin,
Makes them feel wanted,
accepted, loved,
oh my god it's all fake it don't mean ****
Especially if you're not the one behind the pic.