Jade is a speed date that goes for six hours
A waltz of coffee and posy of flowers
So, we drink cocktails and talk of our lovers

Then we laugh at the others
And of our dead mothers
Together we cheerily mourn

Jade’s hair is pink, and her heart is warm
A pigeon's nest of twigs and twine
Her name is green and so is mine

So, here I’ll drop a line
Of appreciation
And overall-tote-bag admiration

Now herbaceous vegan progress begun
A switch of books and witchy poetry
Seems there’s no hurry, so just wait and see.

The sadness is your mother.
Nobody warned you at your grotesque birth
You had no choice
This is who you'll "love"
This is your mother
Until she's not.

You don't want your mum to die
Sometimes you just... wish she was dead
So the pain would feel more real
Less like a play-doh wall
Childishly constructed
For protection until the day you can finally
Sigh
Relieved that it's all over
There's no turning back now
Even if you wanted to cut off your right hand
And hand it to her as a peace offering.
What a relief when there are no more
Chances (choices) to repent in dust and ashes
For formulating opionions...

Mother, nobody warned you either
One day the ******, screaming, mess
You call child
Will be dead to you
And in return for all your "love"
Will wish memories of you were only that.

Last night I dreamt about suicide
High on a bridge
ground way below
falling
      falling
              falling
Or was I?
Honestly it felt good
knowing
Everything would soon be done
the end

Man
You fit into my five year plan
You ARE my five year plan
You're my plan
and
You're my forever plan
You're mine forever
You're my forever
Man
and
I plan to be with you
Forever
Man!
Forever is a long time
I make time for you
You're my time
My time
is your time
Forever Man!

S EXistence
S EXploitation
S EXplain
S EXit