"cutted" poems
The time sways
Forth and back
Through the light
Happiness shines
Smiling bright
Everything that felt fine
Now are crowded in a sack
Closed, taped, not my way
It kills me,little slow deaths
To have them go with
A part of me alive
Why do the cure of emptyness
Has to have an end
Left with that painless ache
That creates a hole deep in pain
A member lost in my chaos
Returned by their ignorance
In the place which thy fitted
Now asks for coverage
It can't even be masked
For they cutted it broad and wide
It kills me,little slow deaths
To have them go
With a part of me alive.
That they never feel
How my elated heart smiled
When their smiles were around
They never cared for what
I gave up in the flick of eyes
Mesmerised by the sunkissed times
All they did was,
Find the ink to my page
And filled me up with their
Promising words
All they did then was
Give up on me
When they found that
I was filled up to brimm
So they took away me from me
With some that belonged there's
And with some that I never cared.
All they did was left me bereft.
Jun 15, 2015
Jun 15, 2015 at 2:33 PM UTC
Let me walk you through inside a writer's mind.
Aren't you curious?
How can someone write like that?
How can someone have those sick emotions?
How can someone be so dramatic?
How can someone be that suicidal?
How can someone be so sad?
You know what?
Being able to write about those things is a privilege.
If I have no one to talk to,
if I have no one to vent all my sentiments,
poems are going to slap me with a pen and a paper.
And i'm all good.
Once i've let go of that burning pen,
the moment I read what I wrote into that ****** paper.
My diaphragm finally relaxed,
I can finally breathe.
And when a writer doesn't have any inspiration,
that soul must do all thy take to feel everything and anything in order to fill those pages, those ****** pages.
You must value every word you read inside a poem or any kind of literature.
Because you didn't know what emotional ride that living flesh took just to serve you those burning hot raw words.
But aren't you curious?
Don't you want to know what it took?
What it took to serve those emotions to you?
A writer...
Scream, screamed like a mad sicko.
A writer...
Cry, cried like a new born baby.
A writer...
Laugh, laughed like there's no tomorrow.
A writer...
Burn, burned in their own oil.
A writer...
Slit, slitted thy skin and...
A writer...
Cut, cutted thy flesh and...
A writer...
Bleed, bleed until there's no more left.
Bleed until that living soul can write something.
A writer...
Is empty.
A writer...
Is a lost soul who can't find it's way back.
A writer...
Is dead... inside.
Then, viola!
A burning hot literature is served.
And that, my friend, is what inside a writer's mind.
Dec 29, 2018
Dec 29, 2018 at 12:42 PM UTC
blessed from the lord or
cursed by the devil
scared of death or
afraid of punishment
well i don’t know anymore maybe both
obsessed by you or
possessed by the devil
pretend to die or
already dead
what a messy girl i am and what a messy world i’m living in
haunted house or
confused mind
cutted head or
buried alive
well i don’t know anymore maybe both
a sinner or
a saint
pretend to die or
already dead
Sep 7, 2014
Sep 7, 2014 at 4:28 PM UTC
you cut me down like an old abandoned tree,
now i shall leave with what is left of me,
Yes
I am not the wisest
nor the faintest
but i have seen the hate and felt the love.
you are different
for you hurt me
and now you see
my heart is not easily changed.
because you cut me down
like that old abandoned tree
now is shall leave with what is left of me.
the person i used to be
yes the one who willingly handed the key
has passed and now is utterly free
when the day of love comes
with its sweet smelling sweets
and its pink cutted hearts
i will sit there
on the hill upon a stump
thinking of how you cut me down
cut me down
just like that old abandoned tree.
Aug 11, 2015
Aug 11, 2015 at 10:42 PM UTC
blessed from the lord or
cursed by the devil
scared of death or
afraid of punishment
well i don’t know anymore maybe both
obsessed by you or
possessed by the devil
pretend to die or
already dead
what a messy girl i am and what a messy world i’m living in
haunted house or
confused mind
cutted head or
buried alive
well i don’t know anymore maybe both
a sinner or
a saint
pretend to die or
already dead
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 8:50 AM UTC
*Needles under my nails.
Spoons behind my eyes.
You notice all the trails.
I wish you wouldn’t realize.
Robe around my neck.
Wild fire burning my skin.
Why did you have to check.
You don't have to win.
.
My cutted fingers lies everywhere
Blood is flushing out.
Why did you have to care.
“Die your ***** is all they go about.
Now you have to go through the same.
Ripping every hair out.
This is not just a game.
They won’t hear even if you shout.
Now I’m not alone because of you.
Even though you cared.
You can see out of my point of view.
Death is what you dared.
Life is our drug we all share.
While death is our remedies.
We all share the same nightmare.
Now I lie with our Dead Memories.*
Sep 12, 2016
Sep 12, 2016 at 10:17 AM UTC
She who cutted her wrist
And got scars
She who drink
Until she get drunk
She who doesn't care
But with herself
She who hurts anybody
But was so sorry
She who won't listen to anyone
But have regrets
She who feel pain
And hatred
She who seeks attention
And still searching
She who needs Love
Was No One But I
Jun 20, 2015
Jun 20, 2015 at 9:45 AM UTC
i can't even express my extreme hate for myself properly without crying during the start of it, my words get shaky and stupid, eyes start to sting, that ****** feeling in your throat, and more hatred swarming through my veins and out of my silent screams and as i stare at the ugly tears i shed that have fallen on my pillow, more hatred pierces my toungue and makes my appetite bitter with only satisfaction coming with an empty tummy and a deep cutted wrist.
Jun 29, 2014
Jun 29, 2014 at 11:57 PM UTC
The stench from liquid, almost transparent
wallpaper glue
stunk up the room for a long time.
It took half a day to stick merely few
of those soggy and vile rolls.
Though the desire to change the overall
palette of the room to a favorite blue
existed anyway.
However by night, the area around
the window had dried up and peeled off the wall,
holding only around the ceiling
and the floor. The draft from the window was probably
to blame, the old frame even closed
still let the wind through the cracks. The worst
pieces had to be throw away and new
ones were cutted out. Those wallpapers, which were
still more or less holding on, were
put back on a simple office glue. While leaving the
room for re-drying, the most dangerous
sections of the window frame were covered with rags,
the door - with foam rubber and
old clothes.
It took 8 rolls in total.
In the 4 by 2.5 m bedroom, at a height
of about three meters,
one roll covered almost a full
two meters of the perimeter. Therefore,
excluding the window,
but taking into account the gaps to adjust the pattern,
seven rolls were used for the walls. The eighth
remained spare but never came in handy.
Eight rolls cost (roughly)
230 UAH. Also glue for 83 UAH.
Jan 13, 2020
Jan 13, 2020 at 4:06 PM UTC
I've been cutted into pieces,
Pieces I can't find myself
Pieces I can't glue by my own,
I'm falling apart through this
I'm not complete anymore,
Maybe I've never been full
Maybe I need more than glue.
Sep 19, 2017
Sep 19, 2017 at 6:49 PM UTC