I was in a vortex
A very complex place
A feeling that I just have to chase
Take me there and make me safe
Wrapped up in cotten wool
For the the world no longer seems forever dull
Keep me here forever
And never let me go
A bright light shining with an everlasting glow

How do you feel today?
How will you feel tomorrow?
I wonder how I was feeling yesterday
Maybe I wondered yesterday how I was going to feel in the future or the past
Maybe I wondered how you would feel tomorrow or had felt previously
Maybe I didn't even feel anything
What is a feeling ?

If I could only find a space in time to let you know what was on my mind
But I could only tell you what I couldn't find
I couldn't find the words to talk with
I couldn't find a way to not feel awkward
I said at the time I couldn't take any more of being morbid
But just couldn't find the strength to move forward
I couldn't feel the pain that I feel so
I couldn't believe that anything was real
I couldn't comprehend it all had to end and when I needed you the most
I just couldn't find my friend
I couldn't choose a life to take
I couldn't sleep so I stayed awake
I looked in this mirror
But this couldn't be fake
But this guy looking back
It couldn't be Jake
I couldn't detriate
An I couldn't even think what the hell I had done
I could think this was all just for fun
But I JUST COULDNT STOP
I couldn't keep it on the lowdown everything was on top
But if I hadn't met you
I couldn't of got what I got
But I couldn't cry
I couldn't laugh
I couldn't fight
I couldn't bath
I couldn't try another path
I couldn't ask
Because who on earth is there to ask !

I can fly
I'm just afraid to jump

I could see the lies in her crystalized eyes
I never meant for me to be your demise
It was only for so long I could wear the disguise
Until we broke way more than just our ties
As I watched you deteriate
There was no time to contemplate
My whole world stopped through the fear of fate
Soon as I grasped what was happening
It was way to late!!

The roots grow deep into the earth
The tree stands strong
Vines hang in the trees one hundred ft long
Whilst birds sit on branches singing there song
I pine to be back in the pine trees
Where my mind leaves under the devine leaves
Enchanting flames flicker in the night sky
As I sit back and ask why???

So much pain in the bottom of a seally bag
And it reminds me of the life I could of really had
For every scar on my arm it never made me stay clam
Left my head ringing like alarm
The itch always burning like its ******
A need that I just couldn't run away from
And when I look around today and wonder where the hell have all my mates gone
Shackled up in chains I can't see they will ever break from
An this is only take one
But there's no take two
Thousand hits of Dimitri
still couldn't break through
So I'll have to make do
Knowing there's a part of me that loves and a part that really hates you
I never meant to hate you
I never meant to hate you