You let down your walls for me and i walked in
I was in love with the view
The sun was shining so brightly
Flowers were blooming
Birds were singing
But
You forced me out
You wanted me gone
You didn't wanna let me know you better
You didn't want me to enjoy the view with you
You didn't give me a chance to be closer to you
You wanted to be alone
You isolate yourself
You locked me out
I thought we could be something more
I really don't know what was it all for
Dark clouds are all i see
Thunder is all i hear
The sun hasn't shined since the day you left
And my dear,
I broke down your walls
But you broke my heart in return

I try not to worry
her
So much that sometimes
I answer
I’m fine
before
Hello
when she calls
because I know to her
I’m still more bone than
skin
I’m an empty bottle of
pills
One breath away from non
existence
A blood stain she scrubbed
with her tears
I’ve already worried years
off of her life
while trying to end
my own
So when she phones to
to check on me
I’ll always be fine
no matter what is
going on in my life
and sometimes before
Hello

Not now
Not once
Not ever
Have I wanted you to see how I truly feel.

I'm fine
I'm okay
I'm happy
The lies I tell so you don't know how I really struggle.

Don't worry
Don't stress
Don't ask*
All things I say so you don't find out how I really suffer.