I sat there wasting away in my car, because I remembered when I had done this with you.
I had just gotten home, and my ear was to the phone, smiling widely at this dream come true.
Your voice was like music bellowing through the speaker coupled with the most angelic tones.
Now I sit reminiscing, wandering and remembering while roaming looking for new homes.
Sunsets are pointless and the rises are stupid since you they all neglect to include.
I belong in your life, and the same goes for you, but I'm not bold enough to intrude.
So sit in your car after a long drive home, laughing as your legs can't bend,
and I'll be here too, with lost thoughts of you hoping this paralysis would end.

you are broken
anxious - not gifted
God never stood by your side
you fill what you don't have
with images
then you connect all
with your thoughts
you read your suffer
by the pain of thousand others

your skull is cracked so the
knowledge all pass by

then you became a poet

You have had me
Myself,
In the most
Raw, pure, honest
Portrait of myself.
You
Changed that
To a person
Stranger
To both of us.

Night--
Where my mind aches for you.

Night--
Where i miss you the most.

Night--
Where everything seems hopeless.

Night--
Where overthink conquer me.

Night--
Where everything start and end; us.

remember when we ran home in the pouring rain together but we didn't care?
because we were happy
we arrived home sopping wet but laughing
and took our clothes off to dry and anything that could be bad in that moment didn't exist
it was the fact we had nothing but we had each other
and we were happy
we were happy

It's not that I don't want to give you one of my parts, like you gave me one of yours. Is that I can't give you "me" if I still don't have "myself".

it was 3 am when i felt the felt the bed creak
and i heard your feet hit the floor
and i knew that you were leaving,
and i felt you lean over me,
so i closed my eyes and pretended i was sleeping
and you kissed my forehead and whispered
"im sorry for everything"
and i didn't know what you meant
until i woke up the next day
and every trace of you was gone,
like you were never even there.
i felt a searing pain in my chest,
and i didn't know it then,
but that was the feeling of my heart
being torn to shreds.
i never heard from you again,
and now your memory just trails me
like the ghost of what could never be.

Perhaps--
Nothing could ever make me very sad--
or very happy--
other than, you.

Perhaps--
Everything happens for a reason--
Us; which we both have no idea about--
Anymore.

It doesnt make sense anymore,
We use to talk everyday;every hour,
You knew me so well--
So do I towards you,
But look at us now.

It doesnt make sense anymore,
We use to share our problems and thoughts,
You love to talk about your football team,
And me with my favourite books,
But look at us now.

Never knew im so in love with you--
Just till now.

love,

months swiftly passed
since that enchanted night
i never wished to end,
as it was then that i first
laid my hands,
and my eyes,
unto yours.

i have been wildly spinned
throughout the dance,
and eventually,
throughout your world.

it was those dazzling eyes
that hooked me most
without an utterance of a word.
it was those precious gems
that connected us,
that made me fall in love
with you more.

but only then did it hit me,
i didn't want to fall in love.
what i wanted was to grow in love.
and you don't make me grow.

i know and i accept
that letting you go
and setting you free means
letting you love someone else.
but love,
it is that i am in doubt.

i did not dream of a love
full of doubt, full of lies,
and overflowing with fear.
i did not dream of a love
full of questions
and full of secrecies.
or maybe,
i just did not dream of a love
with you.

i could not stand to feel that
you are mindful of my pretense
but you smile and refuse
to believe i am lying to you.
i could not stand to feel
the sadness i give you
that you hide
and that i am inept to solace.

i am afraid that one day
i might wake up to see you
happy for being with me
but you don't see the same.

love,
my feelings did not
gradually fade.
it vanished in a snap
and i am afraid
it might be back, too,
at once.

i doubt you accept me again
when my love returns,
or when my love is sure,
and i doubt i might
let you go again.
but by that time,
if you've found the rightful one,
let me apologize for being unable
to control my feelings back then -
my feelings today.

honey,
there is nothing wrong with you,
nor is there with me,
but there is with us.

love,
you need not to hurt anymore,
so for the last time,
i love you and good bye.

i loved you.
good bye.