Sa higpit ng iyong mga pagkapit,
nais ko sanang magtanong ng “bakit?”
ngunit labi ay di makapagsalita, na tila ba ang dila ay naipit at napilipit.
Ayaw ko pa sanang tuluyang mapalapit,  
dahil baka sa huli, ito'y magdulot ng sakit;
ngunit kung sakaling mga damdamin ay di na mapigilang
magkalapit,
samahan nati’y ayaw ko sanang magdulot ng pait,
at mabigat na pasakit.


© LMLB

I feel an uncertainty when it comes to you.
Not because you want to do something that will destroy what we have between us,
but because you want to hurt me.
I clearly see what actions you do,
and I ask myself why you do it?

I'm afraid you will continue doing that.
That thing I clearly see you do.
I understand why you do it,
and I understand you never mean to hurt me,
but I'm afraid you'll do it anyway.
Because regardless of whether I'm sure why you do it,
and that I'm sure you never mean anything bad,
it hurts anyway.
That you want to hurt me,
hurts.

I'm here for you.
Here to fulfill what you want.
Your needs.
If you feel inferior,
I'm still here.
Here to fulfill what you want,
your needs.
I would never leave you if you felt inferior.
But you wish me pain either way.
Make me feel what you feel.
Make me feel inferior.
And I'm afraid you'll do it again.
Show that you are better than me in some way.
Make me unsure of myself.
Doubt myself.
Even though I see it clearly.
Your actions.
Your result.

I'm left thinking and thinking:
why would you do something like that to make me feel inferior?
To make me unsure of myself?
To make me doubt myself?
When I am here for you.
Here to fulfill what you want,
fulfill your need.

There's a difference between results and consequences.

For example
There's ample
Time to find what youre looking for
What are you looking for?
You need more?
Pour your heart out onto this
Page
Its startling how we're starting from
Page 1
Again
Being again let's begin again

There's a constant battle inside me
Between doing the right thing and choosing to be happy
Being happy wins when you're around
When you're gone doing the right thing takes over

Past at my ankles with every step
Future rolling over me without sleep.
Is there a way to replay the past without sulking in regret
Or am I stuck replaying good times waiting for my death?

I feel unsure...
Unsure about me
Unsure about you
And ultimately, unsure about us
But then again, I'm unsure about being unsure.
It's an uncomfortable feeling,
Plunging me deeper into my ever-expanding mind
An abyss of permanent midnight.
Us being together invites a lot
A lot of ridicule, difficulty, and stress
That should be enough to keep me from you.
But, nevertheless
I continue to stay
Regardless of all the red flags, problems and parents who press.
Because you are someone who cares
And that's the most important thing to me.
You never fail to impress.
Your loyalty reaches my heart,
And I hope we never part,
In the name of love,
And blue skies above.