let me float away
with all these butterflies

you've
        
                given

                                ­ me

You say I am stone cold you say I am bad
You say I don't say why am I sad
You say you want to be the smile on my lips
You say it hurts you when I hide my griefs
But have you ever noticed that it's not a one way road
You have my silence cause you stab me with your word
You want to know the reason I shed tear
Go to your room and look at the mirror
The demons I have, already eat my core  
And the actions you take makes me hurt more
I know I am an option ,not a choice you have made
Then why does it matter what I do what I said
I can be hopeless I can be dead
You have many more shoulders to put your head
I know you love me and I love you too
But only love is not enough I knowe from you

what does silence sound like?


it's the sound that surrounds me
every night i lay in bed
without your warm embrace
and wonder why i'm so sad
my brainwaves are incoherent
my fingers have gone numb
i haven't left my bed in three days
how i long to feel your touch
the sounds that no one dares to break
at 3 am in a lover's grave
brushing the hair away from my face
but you don't even know my name
and it's all just a dream that i made up
i wonder if i am actually awake
or if i'm stuck in a perpetual nightmare
counting the days until you hold my hand

would you **** me slowly
and enjoy my pain
playing on my heartstrings

do i mean nothing
am i just a ghost
am i just worthless

i'm swallowed by my loneliness again
my corrupted thoughts that know no end
how i long for your gentle touch
even though you don't know me much

the air around me feels thicker still
as i drown myself in all my pills
i know you won't save me from the dark
but you're the only one who has my heart

your name is a silent word on my lips
because i'll never call you
after all the times i've lived
through the same thing before you

your name is the softest thing
that i have ever heard
oh, how i wish it wouldn't
make my heart hurt

i just want to sleep
i don't want to be awake
i just want to dream
i don't want this heartbreak

first it was admiration
then came infatuation
until i realized that i fell
inside a hole

a hole deeper than
the a
         b
           y
             s
               s

and i don’t know
how to find
my way      k
                 c
               a
            b

but one day
i crawled out
and you were gone

out of sight
and out of mind

i rarely think of you
i still wish you well
but i’m glad that
i was out of that hell

I have to fit my hand into yours,
like forcing misfit puzzle pieces together,
just to get you to hold my hand


©L.F.

I feel like
I have lost
the battle
in a one-warrior
war