i'm reading from scattered notes
cause they're the closest thing i have to hope
i wanna be strong enough
cause i know this road'll be tough
i want to hold on and not let go
but if i do my roots won't grow
i wanna leave and be set free
but i don't know what will happen to me
staying the same feels safe
but i haven't really got out of my cave
if i take a shot in the dark
maybe i can reach for the stars
and then i'll be out of here
if only i can lose my fears

naalala ko pa lahat,
lahat ng ating pinagsamahan,
pinagsamahan mula hirap at saya,
saya na hindi ko inakala,
inakala na magtatagal,
magtatagal ngunit sakit ang naging dulo.

ikaw, naalala mo pa ba lahat?
lahat ng mga alala,
alalang alam ko unti-unti mo ng nilimot,
nilimot kahit ako,
ako na sinakripisyo lahat pero ako pa rin ang mali.

saan nga ba ako nagkulang mahal?
mahal, namimiss ko na ang iyong mga yakap,
yakap **** kay higpit na ayaw akong bitawan,
ngunit dumating ang aking kinakatakutan,
kinakatakutang iwan ako at iyon ang iyong ginawa.

We saw that
It is  so wide
But it seemed so clever

She kidnapped that meat
She ran and disappeared
They said, cat must do that
Or wild rat

We tried to chase
The question was
How did she know?
The wise boy said

Why did the meat    
Was not covered  
We did not answer

As it was not wise answer

I'm tired of this...

This is it.
Six years come and gone.

I love you.
I tried so ******* hard.

You said you loved me.
But I really wonder if that's true.

My heart hurts.
I'm sick of trying though.

I wish it was easier.
I know what has to be done.

Doesn't mean I want to.
But I cannot waste my life here.

If you will not try.
If you don't want to be with me.

If we don't want the same future.
We can't work towards it together.

Pulling in different directions.
Will only hurt us both more.

I can't do this all alone.
But you're not trying to help me.

I have stated my needs perfectly.
And you have stared straight through them.

As much as this breaks my heart.
Why should I suit you anymore.

You put yourself first.
So I will love myself instead.

If you really truly loved me.
You would have at least tried to keep me.