Those nights when I feel like dying No escape from my sadness or from myself When you're supposed to be there When you were supposed to care. I figured you knew me well enough by now To be able to notice when I'm losing it Just laying here, wishing on a star That something will come put an end to it all. It hurts me to know that I truly don't know That even you fall with those I shouldn't trust.. Because I tell you about everything And find out you're returning nothing. I feel so alone here and I can't cope All these emotions to untangle Surrounded by others with no one to confide in And then to realize i might be losing my best friend. If there's such a thing as crazy Well then I'm well past insane And if you need me, that's great But, unfortunately, it's too late.
Why can't I control my mind? I'm alone and anger is all I can find. Each day the evil spreads Deep into my heart and inside my head. I'm unsure of where it rose first I only feel it digging deep, getting worse. I hate everything I see No. I hate me. I'm the worst, most days Easy to see why people don't stay. I treat everyone terribly Unfortunately, even my own family. So "he" can reject me at the Gates of Heaven I swear Hell can't be much worse than the places that I've been. Day after day drag out and in Clawing and tearing and wearing my skin. Oh where did I go? When did I get surrounded in this never ending snow. Blizzards of pain and confusion It's too clear to me now that I'm no longer losing I've lost.
You said you love me, but you never did. You said you'd always be by my side, but you never were. You said you would keep me from falling down, but it's too late, cause right now, im broken and all over the place, while you rest in his arms tonight.
See her / right there She pulling / her hair She's stressed / and scared She screams / they stare But they / don't care Her skin / she tears This pain / she fares Too much / to bare She climbs / the stairs The ledge / she dares Suspended / in air Escaping / the lair Of scars / to spare Her heart / she shared They dipped / in despair She's gone / but now They say / **"I cared"
Cold steel slides across my skin. In so much pain. I let you in. Now I bleed red. I'm better off dead.
My life is cheap 30 pills and the bottle only puts me to sleep A rope from a deck didn't stretch out my neck A gallon of gas But my life didn't pass And a blade, at least one for each finger And yet my life seems to linger
I'm come to the conclusion that happiness is an illusion. And the only one who can take my life
Is the girl I gave a knife. The girl I owe my life The girl who causes my strife. The girl who I love.