Why can't I control my mind? I'm alone and anger is all I can find. Each day the evil spreads Deep into my heart and inside my head. I'm unsure of where it rose first I only feel it digging deep, getting worse. I hate everything I see No. I hate me. I'm the worst, most days Easy to see why people don't stay. I treat everyone terribly Unfortunately, even my own family. So "he" can reject me at the Gates of Heaven I swear Hell can't be much worse than the places that I've been. Day after day drag out and in Clawing and tearing and wearing my skin. Oh where did I go? When did I get surrounded in this never ending snow. Blizzards of pain and confusion It's too clear to me now that I'm no longer losing I've lost.