If I allowed my hand to get acquainted with a calm blade
and allow them to work together to have my grave made.
It would be so much easier
If I gathered all my possessions and left the challenges and callings
and ran away from all my troubles and problems that won't stop falling
It would be so much easier
If I took a bullet to these warm feather breezed feelings that stir up the winds
and forced unwanted emotions to take command, and avoid the punishment of being mentally skinned
It would be so much easier
If I gave up my fight... and simply lose the battle of my individuality
And accept their Labels of Lies and give them the right to make me wear a mask that is beautiful but beastly.
It would be so much easier
If I accepted my fate in depression and abuse and allow it infest inside of me
and be as dark and gruesome as I've always been tempted to be
It would be so much easier
If I chose to ****** all the things I've worked hard for
By throwing them over the wall of rejection... and watch it shatter onto the deep floor
It would be so much easier
If I ignored all the beloved people who surround me and would do anything
And focused devouring myself back into the past until I'm nothing more then bone and ****** strings
It would be so much easier
But Just Because It's Easier...
It Doesn't Mean It's Right...
I won't lie, there are so many temptations out there that can cause me to drift away from the will of God. There are so many things that would be so much easier to do.... but just because it's easier it doesn't mean it's right... Sometimes we need those struggles and challenges to make us stronger, to make us better. These temptations are so addicting I'm sure to many of us. An easy path can lea you to a path of destruction and misery
May God Continue to Guard my Heart and Direct my path on the path of Life, Light, and Wisdom...
Cat Lynn ///
3/24/18 - Progressive Dinner
