The architect of the universe
Acts a little sketchy
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We speak on our 60 waves movement
The other 40 percent we tell is all struggle
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Infinity shares its rip tides
Star light ties down wishfulness
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Night life and sun light
Body watering our drive to continue
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Soul brought to you by love
Free will lines our aerial focus
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Sinning and singing it all out
Hope sends these sonics out to our universe
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Circling around our desires in our designed contentment
To living freely to only die just to wake up to infinity

Headstrong, stupid, careless, wrong
Sinful, disappointment, hateful, not strong,
These are the things that describe me,
That plagues and eat away my humanity.

I have made so many mistakes that I have regret,
And these stakes are what I beget,
Driven deep within my heart, it tears me apart,
The pain, the scars, the guilt, the shame,
All I can feel now is just despair,
Will I ever be able to remove these stains?
Why do I feel so drained.

If only, If only, I could go back in time,
I would give even my last bit of dime,
But I can’t, there is no such thing as time machine,
Life is not a dream or fairy tale, this is not Jack and the bean.
I can’t go, but I could only regret
and fret “If only, If only”

But by God’s grace I won’t be lonely,
By God’s grace the darkness would dissipate,
By God’s grace there would be light,
Even throughout the darkest night,

We have all made mistakes, done things we regret,
Wept and been berated,
But where has that led?
If Only, If Only I have always relied on God,
If Only, If Only, my Lord, my God,

But it is not too late, make haste,
God love you more than anyone ever will,
Up above he looks at you here below,
No matter where in the world you may go,
No matter what you have done certain things can’t be undone,
But by God’s Grace you can have the strength to face,
Any evil, any scars, and overcome the past.

So I have learnt to stop saying “If only, If only”
And remember by God’s grace, You, me and we can live boldly.

Father Father where are you?
Father Father, I know I have lied to you.
Father, I have said I won’t do it again,
but yet, I went straight ahead and did what I ought not to do,
But that which I ought to do have never been in my thought,
I have broken your trust, and now my words are like dust
I have disappointed you, I know I am wrong
Why am I always so head strong?

Father Father, please lend a listening ear
Father hear my cries, see my tears, as I beg on my hands and Knees.
Father God I know it is my fault,
a default of my actions, words and thought
Father I feel that you are gone and now this battle can’t be won
All alone now has made my sorrow seep deep within my bones,
I know you can hear me; I know you can see.
I know you are up there looking down at me.
As such I ask, I pray, I hope, father please help me here below
Father please give me the strength so I could cope.
Father I am so sorry for all the things I have done before.

Father Father it is really dark here and I am scared
I don’t know what I should do, where should I go
I am so confused,
But what is fear? I shouldn’t be scared.
Because deep down I know my Heavenly Father loves me,
Even though he might be disappointed in me,
He loves me despite my imperfection, disobedience or sin
As long as I am willing to let him in.
He will always be by my side as a Father, a friend a shield
One who I can depend upon even unto the end,
To share my joy, my sorrow, my worries, my tears,
So tell me friend, why should I fear?