much like the sea glass that I wear on my ring
I too was rough

broken from its whole
sharp edged
too jagged to be held
eventually discarded

it wasn’t till the rough seas shaped me
eroded my body
smoothed my soul
drove me to the shoreline

then
I found my worth

from man made debris
to a nature shaped treasure
I have been molded by my environment
polished into a gem
smooth enough to be held
nice enough to be kept

I have still got pain.
Its big and in vain, 
For its only pain,
It has got no body and no brain.
Its of no use ,
And from it nothing I will gain 
But it still comes like a tornado and rocks me like a hurricane .
It breaks my windows and knocks on my door
And enters swiftly, even when I don’t open them wide anymore,
And it holds me prisoner,free once but no more  ,
And it makes me write verses like they were curses once for sure,
Thats the gift that gives me  my pain .
No its never a boon,
it's alwez a bane.
A bane of my existence,not clear and quite uncertain.
I ride the waves from fountain to fountain. My pain has really no gain BT it's still bleeding,
bleeding crimson red from heart shaped curtains .
From the door to the street, it will make me keel it will make me bleed, but
Don’t love me alone, I may be insane.
But love me, love me because i come branded with my pain.

I’ve always been afraid of them:
Stairs.
They have a tendency
To give way beneath me
And pitch me forward
Towards the floor
In the back of my mind at least,
They do this.
It is rare that
this moment
actually occurs
but the occasional occurrence
keeps the fear in the back of my mind
and in my dreams
I’m fall
ing,
fa
ll
ing,
fallen.

The heart-shaped, red, hanging lights on our wall;
I see you in your full existence,
with all your pure skin,
all naked, with all your appeal.
The shiny, silky-smooth skin all bright and red;
I sense you, I touch you to devour
the deliciousness in you.
I come closer, dripping your body with my wet hair;
I **** in your honeycomb;
I taste the sweetness.
My honey, oh so sweet.
Your honey, oh, sweet honey—it’s one of a kind.
I drink it—all drunk with full pleasure, I feel total ecstasy.
Then I ride like a cowgirl to reach as far as I can be.
I hustle, I shake, I grind, I wind, I go deep
where there is only one path and only one way to be.
This road is an endless road; miles away it can lead.
It will be the road where you will find me,
and I will be riding on it endlessly!

that perfectly shaped bone,
i can see it right through
your tender and thin
skin,
it is visible when you
breathe and swallow
my taste,
my venom.