I edge away from the darkness
Afraid of the unknown
I find myself in the moonlight
Lucid and lone

The stars shine bright
They show me I’m not alone
Instead they laugh and dance and sing
With no care at all in the world

After days they make me smile
Every day they remind me of life
Soon I laugh instead of cry
And now I stand tall in the night

The people watching me believe
That I was always strong and brave
And now I no longer hide

For though I may not see them here
I know that they are always there
Watching and waiting
To take me home
When I just don’t care
About what I am

Writing is my safety net,
That I abandon far too often,
In the fear of finding answers
Of the inevitable truth hidden,
Behind the well protected walls,
One would call anxiety

I slept with you
And I slept with him
I thought it would feel the same
But hell was I wrong

You gave me comfort and safety
Made me sleep in peace knowing that you care for me
But when I slept with him,
I felt nothing
No safety
No comfort
It was empty
And it felt lonely

I guess nothing can change the fact that you will always be the one I wish I could sleep with

I hate you when you're here
But miss you like mad
When you're not around

-JP

i can understand
if you're not making plans
cause it's only autumn
it's the time for boredom

sun is coming down
i can't feel the ground
raindrops on my head
even on my bed

nothing i can't solve
it will soon dissolve
find a new solution
start a new discussion

turn off the alarm
stay here in my arms
if you need just call
walk you through it all