Running makes me obscure
like the lone wind on a shallow shore
limbs rumbling
heart clenching
I feel alive.
.
.
.
Mehek

I question in pain the blood running in those veins!
Questioning those purposes i found created and realized in my journey!
questioning with bitterness..with being lost in my space, my soul, mind mind...**** inside me!
**** towards a black whole!
knowing nothing if i'll be getting out of it or not!
knowing nothing except i saw the lonely air, lonely feelings, lonely self!
I questioned finally if i have Human Blood!

Run away//
Run away//
From the alarm clock that breaks your rest//
Run away//
From the pains held in your chest//
A life unblessed//
From blessings you subvert//
Run away//
From the love you invert//
Run away//
Run away//
Run//
Away//

I'm running out of ways,
To tell you how beautiful you are.
I'm running out of time,
To show you what you mean to me.
One day I won't be here,
But these words should remind you
Of how special you were to me.

My life is on the line
I’ve been alone
This whole time
But for now I fear
These voices in my ear
And the worst I fear
The echoes from the great beyond

I’ve been running
All my life
Dark times run deep
I need you
Even if it hurts my pride

I’m tired, and I’m hopeless  
7 billion souls
And you’re nowhere to be found

I’m tired of projecting  
These complex web of lies
Hurt me deep
Like never before
If I love you when I heal
I will love you forevermore
Sing to me to soothe my soul
Your memory lives
Past all dimensions
Of space and time
I’m glad I knew you
But it’s time to say goodbye

Following me
Chilling my bones
Sending ripples through my muscles
Fear slowly injected into my veins

Running
Shouting
But none show
None are there
Only you

Panting
Looking back
Only to see you are lost
In a forest so dark and unknown
Stealing the light
Not even doing so much
As to put up a fight

Feather falls
Bird unseen
Cries into the void
Echos returning
Haunting

Fragile soul
Yet ever so bold
Stronger as it grows old
Scrape away the mold
To reveal the marvel within

But this mold
Cracked and chipped
Will it ever break of its prison?
Will it ever glimpse a future
Beyond this childhood?

Laughter
Cries
Wailing from the depths of the heart
Only one of two emerges
Taking the child in
Arguments burst
Continue
For years...

Finally
Break
Separate
Blame
It overwhelms

Temporary stability
Then the world quakes
Your life shakes
Then all is quiet
Only for a little while

Yelling, shouting,
Whilst I am hiding
Trying so hard to escape it
But you're too caught up
In your terror and rage
That you don't think of me
Hiding in the dark
Waiting for the sweet
Yet haunting
Sound of silence...

- Jay M
April 17th, 2019

tires on the pavement
just rolling
sunglasses and smiles

we don't know where we're going

we pay it no mind
we're just rolling
windows down
hair tangled

no money to get lunch
adventure fills our stomachs
we don't mind
we're rolling

maybe we're running

just rolling
sun on our skin
fear buried, lodged in our throats

we don't know how much longer we can do this

but it doesn't matter
we're rolling
and if we never stop, so be it
this summer will be eternal
if it must

all that matters
is we keep rolling

Today your memory haunts me
As I ran the torture you brought me came flooding back
I ran faster
Hoping that running would somehow would temporarily erase that night
You screamed
I cried
For the first time your abuse turned physical
I ran faster
I couldn't breathe
You took my oxygen
I ran faster
If only I ran that night
Maybe then your memories wouldn't always make me want
to run faster