Late night drives
always help me think
the farther away from home I get
the further I see in to my future
dazzling lights
blur on the speckled windscreen
then starburst through the dust
I can never seem to get off my specs

Don't wanna turn around
not feeling the need to go back
the closer I get to home
the more memories that come back
of a life I've lived, of one
I could never get on track
the road is wet I should slow down

The steering wheel my punching bag
my microphone, my audience
a place to rest my head when I'm sad
empty seats are empty
just like empty me without the envy
and
I can't see the street signs
'*** I don't care to

That ship has sailed
I'm not on it
Our glorious romance
Now a sad sonnet
Our ship has sailed
We are not in it

We tried, but I won't say we failed
Forever I know I will regale
Myself with the thoughts of time so well-spent
Lost in each other wherever we went

The wind in the willows whispers your name
Whenever I walk down Memory Lane
I see our reflection in the lovers who hold
Their hands tight together
It's soul to soul

That was us, what we used to be
But our ship has sailed to its destiny
The sea of romance, the ocean of sighs
It was good while it lasted
We both realize

So many roads I have walked
That I sometimes forget the path.
I’ve been around for decades now.
I’m rather old, so do the math.
So many names and so many faces
I knew and loved have come and gone.
I learned long ago, to let them go
To cherish our time and then move on.

Yesterday’s in-jokes like hairdos
Have changed and been forgotten.
I am not the same kid today I was
Back when my hair looked like cotton.
I don’t run as fast as I once did;
I am not much into random chasing.
Much of the drive I had long ago
Is ever so slowly self-erasing.

I do recall leaping off my couch
To take the day by the throat.
These days, I rise rather noisily
Sounding like an aging old goat.
I have to carefully watch my diet
Because things no longer function
The way they used to back then,
At a former, youthful junction.

But oh the memories I do recall
Of lovely people and adventures.
Back when I was free of arthritis
And unplagued by any dentures.
I still try to be that person now,
But I am dancing much more seldom.
Instead of being on my roller skates
I am on eBay trying to sell them.

OK, I get it, you still think of me
But we're not gonna connect
It's too messy
Two old soldiers of love
Who are still looking back
But our lives have moved on
So why the heck should we talk?
We're not gonna be together again
No way, we both see no future
In regards to our past
Just warm memories that forever will last

Life, love and war are not fair
You just grin and bear it
You take it from there
Make the best of today
Ruminate, reminisce
But when it's over, it's over
It's the goodbye kiss

I think of you often
I know you know
You think of me too
We sure we're close
So in my thoughts you will always be
But the way it was will never again be

Miss.
Us, you, my sanity.
Life, thoughts, reality.

My mind can create so many things
that I maybe shouldn't
but do

Miss
Your banter, her smiles, my laughter.
**Our talking, their acceptance, the love.

Promise me that you'll never leave. Promise me that you'll remain an inseparable part of my life. Promise me we'll play at the beach on Sundays.
Promise me you'll brighten my day with your graceful movements, weaving their way into memories replayed on rainy days. Promise me that you care. Promise me that I'll never have to worry, about the day of your death. Promise me that I'll be your one and only lover, on this path we share, walking hand in hand. Promise me you'll remember my promise. Promise me that you'll entertain the joyous reminders I nag you with, while eating ice cream at the beach. Promise me that while we sleep, we dream together and build tall skyscrapers, reaching to the stars, shining fourth and blinding the magnificence of our love. Promise me that I'm going to be the only person, that holds the key to unlocking your hearts content.

Days are spent early longing for each others touch,
whirlwind desire clouding judgment much,
the days roll on as the love changes,
hours spent in each others midst akin to flicking through pages,
the story moves on from romance to happenstance as lives take over,
no longer desire but routine all before is now just a dream,
the air thicker and colder as time has rent a wound,
the ***** in the armour to hard to repair,
as we drift in solemn silence we reminisce of times had,
to reverse the cold passage needs time not some fad,
bridge the gap with love and respect,
it will bring bountiful fruit of which you may not expect.

Where we would sit in your car at midnight
Up on a hill watching the city still alive at night
Smoke flowing through our lungs
And electricity through our fingertips.
We sat in silence admiring the view,
More than often I would look over and admire you.
Listening to Johnny Cash,
Oh please take me back.
You would sing to me,
Those were some good times.

I remember when I first saw her
She got off The Red Line.
I thought to myself
**** this woman's fine.
Her long beautiful hair
Was flowing in the wind.
Tight fitting black dress
With a body built for sin.
Her smile hypnotized me
It left me in a trance.
She was so out of my league
But decided to take a chance.
We talked for awhile
To my surprise, she actually liked me.
Everything about her was perfect
She was so right for me.
She talked about God
& her relationship with him.
She said she didn't want to disappoint him
So she runs away from sin.
She talked about her dreams
Her hopes, her fears.
All I was thinking was how
I could keep this woman near.
Our first date ended too quickly
She had things to do at home.
It was love at first sight for me
My feelings for her already grown.
We hugged at the train
& we said good-bye.
Even though we just met
I felt like I was going to cry.
I went home & thought about her
I told my uncle, "I Met The One!"
My playa days are over
They are over & done.
I met the woman
That has stolen my heart.
Even though we just met
I hate that we're apart.

The first time we made love
It felt like Heaven opened it's gates.
She was so soft & warm
To be crass, the puxXxy was great.
She made me feel like
I never felt before.
I couldn't get enough of her
I had to have her more & more.
She seemed to get more beautiful
With passing day.
She had a brotha sprung
I just couldn't stay away.
Tears fell from my eyes
The first time she said she loved me
When we found out she was pregnant
I was so happy.
I can't continue the story
It causes me too much pain.
Instead of being with her in constant sunshine
I'm without her in constant rain.
I'll just remember our good times
They help me go on.
It helps me stay sane
Because My Angel is gone.