I drink to have a good time
To numb the pain

When I stumble back to my place
Being alone feels 10x worse

I miss your body pressed up against mine
You tricked me

Gave me taste of something I didn't know I was longing for
You've got me addicted

You are the drug
I drink to have a good time

- "Let's keep things causal"

Lonely
Seeking to belong
But intimidated by peers
Alone was in my world
The walls were my best friend
And in the paintings do I find solace
For I am rejected
And treated like an outlaw
Even in my mother's home

Immortal

I lay sleepless... waked
You're love he comes again
I lie asleep but broken
You'll forget my heart you'd stolen

Forget not what I am
For you, I, "the Summer of Sam"
Ponder you thoughts will lose
(Pitty)
Memoirs of me you choose

My gazers light as sky.
My portrait pale as I die.
My love lost to a him
My life again but a dim

Worry not of me
My face you'll never again see
I will walk this road
And life itself... I loathe

A sick rose I am, for
never I'd love a soul more
Live long and be free
Never worry of me.

I'll lay here asleep
Your love, him, has come
I'll lie here forever broken
For my heart, by you, it was stolen.

“Hindi kita iiwan, pangako yan”
Ito ang mga huling salitang binitawan
Binabalik-balikan ng aking isipan
Hindi na alam kung alin ang imahinasyon sa totoo
Pero ito pala ang totoo
Nagmahal ako ng todo at nadurog ako
Nadurog na tila isang salaming
Tinitignan mo lang para ipaalala sa sarili **** gwapo ka
Matapos nito ay babalewalain

Maniwala ka sa’kin nagsimula kami sa magandang istorya
Isa akong prinsesang noon ay napaniwala ng tadhana
Nahulog sa matatamis niyang ngiti
Nahulog sa malalambing niyang mensahe
Nahulog sa kaniyang malamig na tinig
Nahulog ng walang sumasalo
Nadurog sa pagbitaw mo

At dahil na-ikwento ko na rin naman ang mga ito
Lubos kong ikasasaya kung mauunawaan mo ako
Sana maintindihan **** mahirap ang makalimot
Sana maintindihan **** sariwa pa ang sugat
Sana maintindihan **** hindi mabilis ang paghilom
Lalo na kung sa puso ang tama nito
Sana maintindihan **** ayoko nang mahulog
Dahil basag na basag na ako
Sana maintindihan **** hindi ko pa kayang
Muling magmahal

Sa takot na muling masaktan
Sa takot na hindi masklian ang labis kong pagmamahal
Sa takot na muling ipagpali sa iba
Sa takot na maiwan mag-isa
Naiintindihan ko namang handa kang maghintay
Na sa akin ka nakabatay
Pero tigilan na natin ‘to
Tigilan na natin ang kalokohang ito
Dahil hindi ko na kayang magpanggap
Na kaya ko na
hindi ko na kayang magpanggap
Na wala akong nararamdaman
Dahil hanggang ngayon nasasaktan pa din ako
Ang sakit sakit pa din
Kaya tigil-tigilan mo na ang pag-asang yan
Dahil minsan na akong nilamon ng sistemang yan
Minsan na din akong tumambay
Sa lugar na tinatawag nilang ere
Ngayon pa lang sasabihin ko nang
Wala kang pag-asa

Siguro dahil hindi pa talaga ito ang panahon
At hindi ikaw ang inilaan ng panginoon
Siguro kailangan mo munang ayusin ang sarili mo
Dahil kahi anong pili mo
Hindi nauutusan itong puso ko

Rejected
I am cast out
For no one cares
What I am thinking about

Love is overrated
And I do not deserve any of it
For I have done too much wrong
To be forgiven

I'd like to be loved
But what is that to you
You simply care
About nothing but yourself

You say things that burn a whole in me
You tell me to be
Someone I am not meant to be
You make me see the things
No one should ever have to see

Why can't you be more caring
And just love me the way I am
Instead of just staring at me
And pointing out my mistakes

Rejected and alone
I look for a home
But turn up emtpy
And completely unknown

Then you my father
Took me in again
Only to beat me
And put me in pain
For I am worthless to you
And deserve to be
Without any hope
To have or see

Having taken my last strike
I am dying from being alone
My whole entire life
If only I was loved
Then I would have something to strive
To be
To want
To have
But maybe
I'm better off alone
Drifting in the bottomless sea...