you were the worst mistake
i ever made
and i realize it was a waste
of heart
to want something so fake
that i knew would harm my well being but

all i ever wanted
was everything you promised
why was it so hard to give?
you said you wouldn't stop, love,
but look where that got us
i'm broken and you don't even speak to me anymore

you were outer space
and galaxies.
you were the smile on my face,
and in all my dreams.
but hope has started
to stop coming and it's fleeing but

all i ever wanted
was everything you promised
why was it so hard to give?
you said you wouldn't stop, love,
but look where that got us
i'm broken and you don't even speak to me anymore

memories burn down the walls of my mind
everything's slowing frozen in time
i never asked for much
i expected more than this
i guess
i guess
it was too much

all i ever wanted
was everything you promised
why was it so hard to give?
you said you wouldn't stop, love,
but look where that got us
i'm broken and you don't even speak to me anymore

all i ever wanted
was everything you promised
why was it so hard to give?
you said you wouldn't stop, love,
but look where that got us
i'm broken and you don't even speak to me anymore
you don't even speak to me anymore

I never thought I'd get like this
I never thought I'd take this risk
Writing my goodbyes with this pen
Thinking of the man I used to be back then
I wish I had the strength to bring my death
I wish I didn't have one more breath
What else can I do when I have nothing left
I let an angel push me off the edge
Who's fallen now?

When I look in the mirror all I see is black
Everything is dead inside
When I grasp the shards, as I peel back the cracks
There's nothing for me to hide
I will cut myself open
So you can see my truth
Use my veins as strings
So the Puppeteer can entertain you
Peel back the curtains like you do my skin
I'm sitting here waiting for my life to begin
As you applaud to the end of the show
I'm sitting here at the end, preparing to let go
I'd live the pain again and again
Just to feel the euphoria from then

I stood off the ledge signaling SOS
No one noticed my lights
I stayed up late, crying at night
No one noticed my plight
I know I shouldn't and I know I promised
But the knife found it's way to my hand
You say you care but I know you hate me
My blood, my life are what's in demand

I will slit my ******* wrists
And pour my essence onto you
Please give me just one last kiss
Your lips are the answer to my wish

I hope you hate yourself
As much as we hate you
Down goes your mental health
Maybe you will join me too.

Snow falling
a sleeping baby  
flowers in bloom,
the crystallized night sky.

Hospital waiting rooms,
closed doors,
funerals,  
The bus, sometimes.

Empty sidewalks,
Fond eyes,
Motel balconies,
Most smiles.

4 a.m.
A deep breath  
Food pantry line,
Living alone.

he's with this girl now, she got eyes so blue
it sort of makes me sick
he's with this girl now, her name is savannah
she's in his life where i used to fit

and i know it's been too long
since my hands don't remember his face anymore
and i know i've got to carry on
but i don't know where to hide away
and i know it's been too long

i've got these thoughts now, lying in bed alone,
i'm cold and shaking bones.
i'm kind of lonely without holding my own,
i'm sad but i don't know.

and i know it's been too long
since my hands don't remember his face anymore
and i know i've got to carry on
but i don't know where to hide away

i'm moving forward,
i'm growing stronger
what doesn't **** you
turns you into stone
medusa
i'm growing stronger
i'm moving forward
what doesn't **** you
chills you to the bone
medusa

and ooh where do you go
ooh i'm trying not to care.
who do you think you are
ooh with snake venom in your hair
medusa, medusa

and i'm moving forward,
i'm growing stronger
what doesn't **** you
turns you into stone
medusa
i'm growing stronger
i'm moving forward
what doesn't **** you
chills you to the bone
medusa

and this stone cold heart feels nothing anymore
this stone cold heart feels nothing
medusa
and this stone cold heart feels nothing anymore
you're nothing anymore
cause i'm
i'm medusa

if i was tinier, i could float away, heavier, i could stand my ground. but until then, i'll just have to stick with being in a limbo between stuck in a ditch and too far gone.

you. you should be nothing to me but the paint chipping off the wall, the broken blind hanging on just barely, the glow in the dark sticker just peeling off the ceiling. but you're not. you are 'i love you' written in the notebook of mine that i keep on the shelf. you're gone too soon in the trail of my mind, you're i love you, i miss you, and 'what the heck is wrong with me?' what's wrong with me?



i grew up in the peach state
back in a small town
where nobody knew your name
unless you were someone
and i wasn't anyone
not anyone important anyway

ooh, take me back to the summer babe
ooh, 'cause everybody knew my name
when i was with you.
take me back, take me back to june

i grew up in a small house,
back in a small town,
where georgia was on your mind
unless you wanted to leave
half of us wanted to leave
leave old georgia behind

ooh, take me back to the summer babe
ooh, 'cause everybody knew my name
when i was with you.
take me back, take me back to june



the floor has started to puddle with my teenage angst that's dripping down the wall and it sticks to my con-clad feet and later to my fingers, and i think this mess is what i got myself into, but i can always get myself out.

Darkness falls & Darkness Hides..
Darkness on the walls and Darkness in the sky's...
Darkness in you all just look into the eyes.
Can darkness save lives?
Light is shining but the light is dim, the night is here and it seems so grim...
If Darkness comes it will flow from within.
Let us join together to control this force
Let us hold hands and enter the void..
The light is there just take one more step,
Enter the well, let us enter next.

"Abandon all hope, ye who enter..." a sign spoke, as we lowered in the the pit I saw smoke.

This wasn't a wishing well, but instead we had stumbled upon the gates of Hell.
Climb up and abandon your friends to head home or enter inside and save their souls?
A journey of the truest test and a quest unlike any of the rest. A Land of damnation and utter doom. pain and cries from every corner, bloom.
Do you have the strength and courage or are you a coward and vermin?
What can protect you in a voyage such as this? Faith and Hope and the ability to resist?
Venture fourth and vanquish this evil and find something within that is far more than equal.
Find yourself, find your friends and return home. Use the light to help and in the end peace will find you along this road.

This journey has merely begun.. so what shall you choose? Will you stay?.. or should you run?..

Freedom of speech
Until we speak too much
They revoke it and
That's when

The waves start rising
Covering our mouths
They don't test for breathing
They test to see if we retained the information

You don't know what it's like to breathe underwater
Because if you breathe underwater you drown
But if we can read or memorize under the water
To them, that's all that counts

They'll check you for
Another score and another grade
But they won't check your wrists
Where you take out the pain

For the days when the workload
Weighs more than you do
And the more it weighs
The more you lose

I’ll try not to tame the rolls.
It’s not always fun and games,
When the winner’s always you.
The stakes are on my toll.

Life is a game, love is a gamble,
Just roll the dice.
Snake-eyes, rhyming numbers,
You’ll be surprised,
At who rolls the dice.

As the clouds clear, and the music ends,
*The rule of the dice is, the roller never wins.

I've got a pet daemon,
Every once in a while, I let him out of his cage.
I find it most beneficial,
If every once in a while the wise one gets to play.

I've got a bad desire.
I want to see you when you're out of your skin.
My bad thoughts are inspired
By the ugly, dark world I live in.

No matter what you believe,
No matter what you think you've been told,
There's nothing you know about me.
I have never been the one to be a tortured soul.

A bead of crimson forming,
I see it and my heart starts to throb.
The story few people know,
Is the tale of my midnight macabre

It's like a tale from Lovecraft, brother,
But I was never surprised to gaze upon my face.
And I have always known it.
To others, there was barely a trace.

I revel in self-adulation.
Your pleasure brings me such pain.
I look in desperation upon you.
I want to see your tears fall like the rain.

I understand my desires.
I know why I exist .
I suffer from no allusions.
Your soul is meat, I am a carnivore.

I've got a pet daemon,
Every once in a while I, let him out of his cage.
I find it most beneficial,
If every once in a while that wise gets to play.