Like king Midas
Everything i touch dies
When it appears to turn to gold
So take your hand in mine
And lead me down this lonely road
So take your hand in mine
And leave me all alone
I can't control the direction that we go
Tie sails to our minds then let them flow
But my sail has nowhere to go
The strings aren't strong enough to hold
So they break
Along with my sanity
My own words float around my head like debris from a hurricane
Nothing is relative but pain
This world has made me change
This world has caused all of my emotions to rearrange
Behind doors i only have a few keys for
So i cross through them often
Treading harder each time
I drag mud and leaves from one to the other
Back and forth
I'll track the feelings back to the source
And **** it
Staring into it's eyes as it begs and pleads trying to make things right
I am ending this fight
It's getting harder to sleep each night
I often witness the start of daylight
Bask in the warmth
Transcending through my window
Where i end up I'll probably never know

I'm still not ready

I will share with you
My empire of dirt
If you should ever decide to cast me out
Through the heavens I'll fall
I do not blame you at all
For i have nothing to give
But im sure as hell going to try
To give you all that's left of me
Maybe we can build something new
We can take a walk in eachothers shoes
And make sure the laces stay tied
As the soles wear away i can learn to confide
If we ever trip or break our stride
Feel free to bind the strings and throw them over a telephone line
To come back to another time
They will not wither
They will not break
If they ever fall
The ground will shake
And let us know its time to come back home
No two souls are destined to be alone
Our spirits have bathed in one anothers glow
The scent is one they've grown to know
Held hands throughout the cold
And will surely hold fast as destruction surrounds the place we call home

I adore you and you alone

There's a feeling in my body,
One that's quite unknown.
It's really quite annoying,
This feeling that isn't shown.

The emptiness lives on,
And I simply cannot reach.
It seems to live forever,
This numbness that I seek.

Why does it exist?
For that, I am not sure,
However there it rests and sits all day,
Now and forever more.

Where did all my feelings go?
I really must know why!
Love and hate and joy all gone,
With only sadness to fly.

Someday I'll rid myself
Of the numbness conquering my mind,
But until that days comes to pass,
I can only try.

My stiff arms hit the metal of the door as I force it open, against
the chilled fist of wind, pounding hard upon the glass
windows and then equally upon my face and forearms. It had to be
below 50 degrees, but I had hoped that the cold could help me
feel again. Feel something. Unfortunately,
this ice only froze my fingers, leaving
my body as numb as my mind.

Later, as I rid my machine of the cloth concealment, protecting
the scars laced into my skin. The water boils as I
examine my life-lines, these battle scars, in the mirror and
can only cringe in thought of the disappointment drowning
the faces of those I care about most: their eyes
drooping down with the weight of eyebrows, creased
diagonally, half shock and the other half burning
discontentment. They purse their lips and stab my eyes
with their daggers, when I chuckle nervously.

I shake my head of these thoughts from my speculation and
step into the steam, hoping the heat could help me
feel again. However, the fire does not scorch my
body, nor incinerate the emptiness, it only slides
down the marble sculpture my body feels to be
(equivalent to the concrete barrier that builds behind my eyes)

I am neither worn
nor torn.
There is no battlefield here to make of me.
There is nothing to help you digest
Me never giving into your "hello"
I am always "no"
I am always "next time"
I am always pick up book
before trusting people...
Contain  before express ,
And when I get too comfortable
it always comes out wrong.
I am always too strong, too much passion...
I am an overwhelming ****** marry
in a season meant for cosmos...
So no... there is was no storm here,
no hurricane
no damage.
I have just not yet opened heart long enough to let in  stranger...
It never crossed my mind
That there may be something better than feeling nothing.
That something that beats doesn't have to involve hurt.
That sharing doesn't mean losing you
and feeling doesn't mean I have to stop breathing.
I am waking in my numbness
I am stumbling from this self induced coma
Hoping to run into a hurricane that
makes me scared of leaving,
Makes me tired of sleeping.

-Indigo Morrison

Pitter patter,
Is that the sound of the drops of rain streaming outside down my windowpane or is it in the pain I am feeling while the tears cascade down on my swollen cheeks?
I try to speak but no words come out,
The rain stops.
Pitter patter, the sound of my tears and the thudding of my heavy heart are now one.
I try to speak but no words come out.

i let myself
go
and disappear
into
the deepest and
darkest
secrets
of the soul
that once was
captured by
the illusion
that i
that i could
go on
and on
there was no
end

i feel light
the air is buzzing
and
the walls are
spinning
there is no
better way
than this
pure bliss
i forget
and forgive
myself for
the things
i could not fix

i breathe
and close
my eyes
there is
no
one
that will
harm me
not anymore
not
when i
not when i
can't feel
no more

Make my heart your home
Come in and lie with me
I don't care what mud you've been drug through
You don't even have to wipe your feet

The sensation of loneliness is imminent
Being fully aware of this is a curse
I want to hold a heart in my hand
Just as i want mine held
Use my frail body as a shield
Our two souls i will meld
                    //
I want to open my exoskeletal barrier
To a soul so beautiful
And shell to match
A rare combination indeed
For all souls can be considered beautiful
But so few to myself
I haven't felt a genuine connection in so long
I forget what it's like
Embraces mean nothing
If you don't care about their life
I will know the right one when they reveal themselves
If they still exist on this earth
One soul splits in two
When we are placed here at birth
Feeling the blatant comfort of someone
Is not a comfort I've truly known
But as close as I've gotten
I'll attempt to build a throne
For our amorous thoughts to sit
High and mighty
It shines too bright for the temptation of abandon to seep in
I will soak up all of your fear and anxiety
With every kiss
Then spit all your pain into small viles
And paint you a picture with it
A letter to the earth
And everything above
Nothing will strip you and i
Of our love

We are inseparable
Even if i don't know you yet