Drowning in the ocean just to feel your skin,
Even though deep down i know you lust me.
Love is blind,
So I'd rather stay and live in a lie.
And the hot sand burns my feet,
I don't want to change you, i just want to love you.

Your beautiful eyes that i want to look at,
Your hair that i want to touch.
The sun makes me sweat,
Would it be okay to get your permission to feel your warmth?
Your flaws make me love more and more.
Even when i feel like you don't care anymore.

I swear im not evil,
I just want to feel you.
Skin to skin, lips to lips.
My only wish for this life.

It always starts this way...
you fold a paper airplane
throw it up...watch it fly...swoop
only to crash
"Its like love" he said
turning over in bed
the next time he spoke
he asked for money

"Its like love" I thought...as 
I walked out the door
thinking...nothing is ever like love...
what good is it to compare
what you want....and what is
"nog eentje" I say...and sip beer quickly
it's always so dark over here

one foot then the other...
keep...counting as you...make your...way
across tracks and cobbles
through crowds and rain
one drink too many.....but always too few
a separate issue now
no longer love in question
just lust and hunger for release

"are you alone now" he said
"no...I'm with you"
He reaches for my hand...
I'm reaching for my drink...
we collide and....glass smashes 
to the floor....bleeds red wine

a calm feeling now....after kissing and ***
the smell soothes...yet...creates confusion
an odour of such delight makes one feel...
feel so filthy...."its a necessary evil" he said
and as i close the last shirt button
I say "believe me...it has nothing to do with heaven"

Well…

You heard the news, that I was finally falling
out of love — I must have forgotten your touch;
and I know it really *****, that you heard the
news from somebody else; her I’ll never love.

And have you ever kissed that taste of sweet sin;
I know I said we'd be lovers ever since we were kids,
but looking in the mirror now — I'm definitely not him!

Men go chasing after wet waters; my chasing gave
you running tears – I made you feel like a princess,
but never settled on making you, my queen.

I'm sorry for being a *******!

Baring myself to you was no small feat
A childbearing body for a man to judge
The sun through the curtains highlighting my flaws
Clothes hit the floor, and I laid with you
Pulled the covers up to shield your view
You pulled them back down and gazed in my eyes
Placed your hand on my insecurity and kissed me
My mind has gone fuzzy, I can't believe we are here
You leaned back to prepare us, and gave me a view
Lord, help me I can't go falling for you
Gliding your thumb over my bud and through my lips
You pulled me up to meet you, your hands on my hips
I can't pretend I wasn't hoping we'd end up like this
I pulled you down to me, my face in your neck
Your scent is driving me crazy; I'm all kinds of wet
But you didn't get to feel it, we had our safety on
Feeling like a ***** I'm pulling you to me
You flipped me over and pressed at the center of me
I can't stop my mind from racing, I want you to enjoy this
Your hand has wrapped around me, and pulled me to your chest
I'm shocked by your strength, I'm no tiny thing
This protection is ruining it, I want to feel everything
Feeling bold down on my knees, kissing and licking
Your head fit in my throat like a crown designed for a king
I hear "That mouth is gold" high praise from a man who wears it
Our eyes keep meeting,  I'm starting to get nervous
You've got me feeling new to this and a little girlish
I've decided I have to feel you, every part of you
Call me insatiable, I've started to beg you
Just for a stroke or two so you can feel it, know what you do to me
Reaching between us I'm guiding you into me
You give me what I need, but you want something too
You pull me on top and urge me to ride you.
I want this, I want you, this feels so right
But you're looking in my eyes like you've seen my truth, my light
I'm feeling overwhelmed, do you even want me
I'm in my head instead of in this bed with you
I brought us here and now I'm leaving it up to you
You pulled me under you and raised my legs
What a great way to get me out of my head
When we finished, I peppered your face with kisses
I guess I should have known what this is
You pulled away from me and started to get dressed
A million thoughts I hadn't been able to sort through yet
You asked me who I'd thought of when I couldn't ride you
My mind was mush with you staring in my eyes and your **** raw inside too
So here is what I thought that day when we were joined as one
Your commands to give you me were so easily done
I would have squirted on every surface had you told me to ***
I would have milked you with every hole on my body
And I don't say this just to sound naughty
I would ride you like you belonged to me if I had the opportunity
I would worship your body if you were to give it to me
I would hold your stare the entire time
I would give you all of me as if you were mine
I would gladly throw it back for you if you would ask again
Until then baby, I'll just be your little friend

Lingering in the dark side,
She just blew my mind,
My brain waves all fried,
Sanity lost, too far to find.

I dream of busting chains,
Throwing my life down the cliffs, to the ocean rocks.
My soul now in your reigns,
Bound,Buried & Chained in a box.

My visions wild,
Fantasising a life away,
Heartbreak not so mild,
I end up all alone and stray.

In my Mind, my Initials chained around her neck,
Tighter than the grasp of love and dread,
Blinded in a hedge maze, reality unchecked,
We’ve already done it in my head.

Fiction and reality merge,
I keep recalling you in vivid dreams,
A messy little kiss it’s all that I urge,
Lust flows in wicked streams.

The river of lust,
Sourced from fatal fantasies,
As I drown deep in you,
Giving into all the fancies.

Bedsheets all ablaze,
Screaming, hiding my face,
Rising up like waves,
Crashing over, leaving no trace.

At last, a wishful yearn,
Giving way to laboured breath,
Will the tables turn,
Our fate all set.

I don’t speak many languages but I’m fluent in *******
My tongue is bilingual in moans and *******
A professional cunnilinguist that teaches her to forget every word in the English language except for my name.