I think i'm fine but i'm suppressing
To hide weakness and pain is to pretend
But in reality of my desperation,
I crave for attention

Attention to be heard with my silence
But sometimes silence is so loud
It makes me want to disappear

It's this feeling that I can't explain
For even though i'm not alone
I still can't find my inner peace

i am the “beware of dog” sign
and you are the dog
you are behind me
on a chain
loud and angry
i am there
so the next person that crosses your path
cannot be upset
as there is a sign
that warns
to beware of your tendencies

I'm shaking
why am I shaking?
breathing rapid
eyes wide
tears fuzz the edges of my vision
indifferent faces swirl
like a van gogh painting
I hug myself to keep my heart intact
I can't breathe
it's so loud
why is everyone so loud?
no one is here to save me
no one is here to protect me
help me
please help me
I'm shaking
why am I shaking?

Sitting in class
tired
everyone's talking
everyone's quiet

I don't feel anything
not nothing
my heart is empty

I could laugh
I could cry

or just die.

You ever just sit in your quiet place and realize that it's not so quiet anymore?

Listening to the silence, it's so loud that it's almost deafening.

You ever realize that your "quiet place" just isn't the same anymore.

It's been tainted.

It use to be the place you go to find sanctuary.

The place you would go to find your peace but now not even that place is satisfactory anymore.

Feelings of sorrow and despair riddle your mind.

You've sunken into a place farther than the quiet place...

It's no longer safe there.

Alone in an ocean of thoughts you swim for dear life to find a new quiet place...

But all that's left is you watching yourself sink deeper and deeper...