it’s dark and lonely
i treat myself so coldly.
nothing makes sense anymore
small things have become a chore.

everything seems so distant
always inconsistent.
everyone says i’ve changed
my mind is utterly deranged.

but don’t worry about me
this poem isn’t a plea.
i will be okay
maybe, someday

People
Have told me
that loneliness is a heavy thing
That it sits in your lungs
It ways you down, dragging you

But my  loneliness is a bird
And it lifts me
It lives in my hollow bones

I am traped in an empty sky
The strom pushes me higher
Further from the ground
And I am lost to the night
Forgotten again

I am whole
I am alive
Unbroken
Unharmed
Full of life
Full of love
Yet in it all
Life has slipped from my grasp
For moments in the days
I am lost
Broken
Empty
I am unable to walk my path
Looking back for you
To walk hand in hand
But at days end
I have ran you off
Now I stand here
Longing for the day
We may stand hand in hand

I saw muself falling apart
with a wounded soul and a broken heart

In a sh*tty place full of durt
everything in me screaming i'm hurt

Under the grey cloudy sky
with onr half opened eye
i can see where i will die

Laying alone on the ground
where no living thing is around
so sure that i can't be found

I don't know what happened to me
all i needed is someone to care about me
someone to make a better happy me

I guess everything is messed up
my redeem is that i'm giving up
cause i know it's hard to stand up

For all what i desired i was banned
everything was out of my hand
and after all what i have been through
i think all of this has come to an end.

I hate what I have become
Someone incapable of love
Never long lasting
I've been emotionally fasting
You've changed who I was
I will never be the same because
Of you....I'm no longer that hopeless romantic
I'm now that girl who wish she never had it
Being in love was a myth
All those months proved it
With all your lies
Now my heart is lower in size
It's hard to trust new people I meet
Because there is nothing I can do but keep
Remembering everything you put me through
Now I can't move onto something new
As I stare into space, standing quietly and still
I don't think anyone can save me or ever will

I wander lonely in the dark
Arms held out to feel through maze
This rocky road has left its mark
Much safer crawl through murky haze

How long have I been plodding on
With no sanctuary close in sight
All my humanity now gone
My heart much blacker than the night

All senses gone all reason lost
This hostile path at set of sun
Continue on no thought of cost
Must march for nothing can be won

At breaking point I cry aloud;
“Just to behold His saving light”
And wings surround me as a crowd
Fly free of gloom to glory bright!