Blocked.
Blocking the hope of a text message.
A chance to even get in my head more.
Closed.
Closing the sheets in my room so I don’t get a  glimpse of you.
Down.
Keeping my head down as I walk into the room.
So that my eyes don’t “ironically” find you.
Cold.
The chills I get when I walk past you.
Lies.
The foundation of our “relationship”.

I fake a smile every day
To not show my decay
I always trick their minds
To make them think I'm alright

But alright is not how I feel
Being ok shakes my heart and head
Im tired, bored and uninterested
Of this world and its endless ****

Poor those who buy the lie
I cant tell them otherwise
And when they look me in the eye
I cant tell them that I wanna die

Don't wanna keep faking
Don't wanna keep fighting
The tunnel is long and dark
I just dont wanna keep up

Always in the dark side where tears pour down and pain cuts deeps in my soul
Trying to figure out why  solitude is my only company and my only love
Darkness lurks in the shadows of my mind and laughs at the ******* mask
That which covers my self inflected wounds so nobody has to ask

Always in the edge fooling myself I won't fall
But my curiosity keeps me there waiting for my real friend to make the call
I'm waiting for it because everything about me is wrong
Even my smile and happy face hides that I am really not strong

You were lying,
I was believing.
You were deceiving,
I was trusting.
You were pretending,
I was loving.
You were manipulating,
I was falling.

Justice will come when we take all the sweet innocent things and make them testify against their lies