I brew my coffee
correlation to my thoughts
knots of chaos conclusions
forming inside my head,

I stare into the screen
straining my eyes
waiting for replies
that may never arrive,

Something dwells within me
as silence speak out the words
I sip my coffee and nod my head
I can finally sleep with a clear head.

You seem unsure
How you feel about me
It got lost somewhere
Between then and now
I want your kiss
I ache for your love
Because my heart won't back down
Your missing out
Letting me go

I am a one love at a time kind of girl
The memory of his smile
Still etched on my pillow
His scent
All over my room
Empty now since you left
Two years ago

I am a one love at a time kind of girl
And every love is more heady
More enthrancing than the last
2010 lasted two yearsand a lot of tears
But a stronger heart
2012 lasted two years and a lot of tears
But a wiser heart
2016 is just over now
And it has been two years
I wonder still, what will I have learned,
Now?
I still wonder, how can I love more than I loved you?
But then again
I asked myself that question
Twice already...
As I get older I realize,
The last person I will love will be loved
In a way I have never loved anyone else yet
**How wonderful to realize I have not yet loved as deeply as my heart can love
And what a love it will be

A vine ridden house.
Just like my life.
The darkness has entangled me.
I swear to god I will never learn.
Because i keep making the same mistakes.
Forget it.
My biggest flaw was that I cared too much.
About everyone and everything besides myself.
Fck these vines!
Im breaking free.
Fck these lines!
Im letting go.
Im burning up.
Melting snow.
That flurried in my globe.
Shattered glass.
Im breaking free.
F*ck my past.
Im finding me.

People wonder how I can let go of someone I love so much, with such ease.
Well, I helped repair his wings so why wouldn't I want him to fly?

Nobody owns anybody
Nobody owns anything
Yet we are given
Precious moments
to be holders, not owners

So when it's time to let go
When things, people or moments
must flow
Surrender to the Being
For He knows what He's doing

Be free of greed,
just delight
For the beauty
that you held
even for a night.

How much more
for a lifetime
Can't you just see?
The honor of holding it
and the dignity to set it free.

No more worries, no heartaches.
You let it go and it's okay
Let's just put it this way,
the sea is too big for only one fish and who knows?
Maybe you'll catch a much bigger one next time!
So regret this action a little, or for a bit,
or for a while,
but not for the rest of your life.

“Grasp my hand so tight.
If you want me here,
just hold on me.
The black hole’s gonna **** me in.
And if you’re gonna let go,
do it fast.
I’ll close my eyes and
in a minute I’ll be gone.”