i need someone
that i trust
to lean on and hold me
make it all go away
make the bad days seem good just by smiling and saying
'hi' or by hugging me
i feel like they've all just..
left
distanced themselves away because I'm just a ******* mess
a clingy
annoying
mess
that needs someone just to stay stable
that isn't normal is it?
no
it's unhealthy

I don’t know when this all happened
I didn’t know I wasn’t truly being me
Apparently it’s been going on for awhile
Or maybe I always knew subconsciously

I don’t know why after all this time
I still get butterflies when I look at you
At first glance that sounds cute and charming
But it’s preventing me from doing what I want to do

I often compare myself to other girls
who would never possess a piteous trait
Constantly beating myself up inside
Knowing I’m the reason we can’t date

What I long for isn’t a relationship
It’s knowing that our souls are entwined
You know me like the back of your hand
And I know you like the back of mine

I hate myself
by hurting the person that i love,
by making a mistake without knowing.
Do I deserve that person?
I think, I didn't love him
the way that he loved me.