If hearts were made of glass
Mine would have been shattered
Into a million pieces by now
Thanks to you

If lies were poison arrows
My chest would display them
While you shot at me
From your articulate mouth

If trust was a golden ring
You would have melted it down
And burned me
With its fire

If your definition of love
Actually had some meaning
Maybe, just maybe
I would have made it

Someday, when I'm
Old enough,
brave enough
To have my own
Children,
I'll tell them about you...
About a man
I loved so much,
About how I longed
to hold your back
whenever I'm
walking behind you...
About how I wrote
Love letters and
never let you read
any of them...
About how I prayed
and hoped that
You'd be brave enough
to love me too...
About how I almost
told you Iloveyou
on a New Year's Eve...
Of the teasing smiles
And hapless denials
that broke my heart
every time...
Of the small things
I did to show you
the things I could
never tell...
Someday, when we're
all aged and jaded,
When the heart
No longer fears
rejection,
I will tell my
Children that
You were my first love
And my only
Heartache.

And how I could
Only hope
to tell them that
It was you...
Their father broke
My heart a million
Times but
loved me all the same...

If could jump like a grasshopper
I wouldn't have to ride
the elevator to my apartment.

If I could fly every weekend
I would go to the Bahamas and bask
in sun with drink in hand.

If I had $1 million dollars,
I would help humanity
and make a difference.

If I met a guy handsome, kind, funny, compassionate, trustworthy  and a great lover I would be content and grateful.

I thought this was a painting I hadn't started
but its a collage with sections like open water
With territories left uncharted