I know you are fearful,
For you have been treated this way before
But I am merciful;
“Please listen!” You implore,
But I am too regretful.

You know how I am,
For I have never changed
But your embrace is plentiful;
“I will! I promise!” I cry in rage,
But you are just too wistful.

I wish I could show you
The things I feel everyday
But my mind is hurtful;
“Please, stay for a bit longer.” I say,
But I am not so hopeful.

I was right.

It was hard,


But you said goodbye.

I have always thought if two people were in love
Together could take any obstacle
If they tried their hardest to work it out
No problem could remain unsolvable

I was the paradigm of hopeless romantic
Pristine
Knowing your heart my greatest wish
A privilege to be chosen as your queen
Knees wobbling like jellyfish

I was sure our friendship would not fail
You were the only thing I ever wanted
Foolish belief
We could survive on love
What had my head undaunted

To those who are disillusioned
(Like me)
Please
I beg you to stop
Need to open your eyes
Before you fall from clouds
A far drop

I found my theories to be wrong
All along living a dream
Two hearts in love did try
Both burned as a team

Our bond destroyed by negligence
We will rebuild our lives apart
Misfortune cares not for romance
Time removed softness from each heart

In my mind delusions are shattered
Of you
What love is
Will I find strength to fall once more?
Or be alone as long as I live?

They tell me smile
How can I smile when the world feels like it's ending
I smile though fake as can be
Cause happiness is something I yet to receive

Help me
I'm falling

And I don't know
How to ever get up
Because I'm in the deepest hole
In total darkness

With no way out

I lost myself in the nightsky
scaring me with it´s creatures
and found a stranger in the sunrise
blinding me with it´s shine

and the red sky left me stained
hiding my true colors
it was when the ocean turned purple
and the sky began to cry

soaking me with it´s odor
washing away my fragrance
that the reflection in the ocean
showed a stranger in me

So scared of the night I hid myself
becoming the spectator of my life
watching without interacting
silently in the back of my mind

I lost myself in the night
fearing it´s monsters
but the shine of the moon
brought me back

and as the sun rised
I finally saw
I was the monster
all along

There's no other feeling like
Feeling... empty.
Where there's no place to call home
until I turn the age of twenty.

Mother doesn't want me coming back
Because I offended her
And the reason why
Is because I'm transgender.

I slept at my boyfriend's
But couldn't stay long
And that's when I realized
Life is all wrong.

I'm in a hotel now
I have food and shelter
But now the things I had
I cannot welter

Where do I go next?
I don't know
But maybe there's something
On the other side of the rainbow.

Mistakes have been made,
and I'm not sure how to fix them.
I try my hardest to be normal,
and yet I'm still condemned.

They yell
                            yell
                                                            YELL.

And I can't escape
the torture that they create.