I can see the moment
My heart first saw you
It only took a second
To know that it was true

From that very moment
Love would join two hearts
Only in that moment
Life would join to parts

One part is yours and one is mine
The shortest distance between, a straight line
Straight to your heart, that’s all I can see
Loving in you, what I’m feeling in me

9/12/25

In later years, my writings tend to incorporate hope

I hint at it, allude to it, or even praise it outright

But I have so precious little of my own...and I wonder why

I thought of Pavlov:

If a dog is beaten every time it approaches people food

Eventually, after years of abuse

That dog will cringe whenever it sees a delicious morsel

To the point that the dog could be left alone with a steak

Without daring to sniff at it, likely afraid to even consider it

I realized, I am that dog

Beaten down by life, disappointment, tragedy, solitude

Driven to terror by the possibility—even the hint—of hope

I wonder if there are any therapists out there

Who accept payment in kibble...

“Will I ever find my voice?”
The echoes bounce off buildings
collecting dust in a silent aftermath,
white noise is circulated through
indifference to what is defined
as treasure on my path

Searching from inside a trail of starlight
barely visible from lack of focus;
my wealth is discerned from
these quiet moments

So I must part ways with conversation,
and leave the skeptics
who glare their eyes
as if walking catastrophe is my niche,
the title of a book they read
page by page, words swirling in a mirage
about the never ending assumptions
of being careful, careless, or lost

A scripture of doubt is chiseled within:
"is this a vessel with any real destination?
Or has your meaning been defined
by a faulty lens,
spectacles that showcase nothing more
than a means to an end?
Or maybe you just have to stop caring
about who you might offend”

Buried within the heart's depth
Lie memories of the one who left
My beloved left me alone
To stare at the sky on my own

It's been ages since I saw you there
In the world outside
Or my inside
I looked for you everywhere

Dreams seen, opinions shared
Memories created, plans made
Some relations are impermanent
Like the colours of an old film fade.

Where once existed a garden,
Autumn resides my heart
Pain disguised as memories
They tear me apart

Whenever I think about you,
I loose the track of time
I feel as gloomy a poem
Without any rhyme .

My eyes flow like the sea
As I search for you
I wish I could see
My beloved beside me.

high above
the the trees,
i accept this
new timeline

take some soil; earth,
cover your town,
plant the seeds and
bury back into the earth

let your tears be
the rain
that fertilizes your dreams

You throw your heart at the world
It throws it back like a girl
It comes up short as it hits the ground
You pick it up and can tell that it’s been around

One more time you throw it out again
One more time you hope you win
Just once more is all you need
It comes with pain, but you don’t have to bleed

Catch my heart as it is falling
Here me now as I am calling
I am one you will see
All in time I will set you free

Catch my heart, let me hold on tight
Hold me close make it feel so right
Don’t let me stand alone
Catch my heart, I’m throwing it home

04/09/19