I'm not gullible, you know.
I know second chances are just excuses. I know I have to stop counting the stars for those who wouldn't even stay up to see them glow. I know. I can't keep breaking myself to fit their template, to make them feel perfect. I know I need to start burning bridges with the match that has always stayed unlit through my temperance. I know. I need to stop looking through rose-colored lenses. I always hoped that when I took them off, nothing would change. But maybe it's good that I finally see what has really been in front of me.
Beautiful sea breeze
How quickly you become a storm You’re built of resilience You bring with you an entourage Of silver lining and moon tides Sailor’s boats and lighthouse guides Yet you still shy away from burning bridges That monsters love to cross
Scientology chick asked me once,
"what are you doing about it?" I looked aghast, I guess and asked, "What does that mean?" She didn't say she didn't know, but I suspected. She said nothing.
final thoughts on day 274
it hurts that everything you ever said wasn't real
and I believed it with all my heart -only to realize when it was too late and I was all-consumed by your lies.
She told me it was the right thing to do
I trust her She wouldn't lie to me She's the only one who understands me She would never try to hurt me I guess I will participate She's so perfect In my eyes
You follow light with willing desire
With no fear No worries Why ~~~ A silly mouse A confused cat You follow without question You trust in something with blind eyes Why ~~~ Desperate are you Lost Confused In need I cry and worry in your stead Wait For a sign of safety But none
I cant explain this one
With no words to say I will let you ponder
HE SEEMED LIKE HE WAS PRETTY COOL.
CHIPPED GLASSES AND EASY GOING. I WAS A FOOL.
You stepped in through a crack like an assassin. And yes your prying eye did establish how far you could reach inside. Little did you know Though that the lady you made out of me can see in the dark. "Gullible" "Bully" "Risky" "Courageous" Red flags you waved before me for your colourful entertainment Pillars for my temple And swords for my angels.