My chest caves in
As I choke on my throat
Sitting in the side of a grin
No care for a note
My original sin
My passion probed till void
My ire prodded to its prime
My pride stolen from a lion
Fallen from number one
Show me gates up high
Cause im done

Well, unfortunately, I am completely comprised of empathy
and my heart is so broken seeing yours break because of me.
It's a vice grip just inside my rib cage ******* with my heart,
in some moments, it stops and I think it won't start.
All I want is to make everybody happy,
but that's not going to work if you want me;
and if that is all that drives your soul,
you will be let down and it will take a toll
on your ability to face the day and conquer it with a smile.
I know that you've done everything; gone beyond the extra mile.
I know there are so many good things that it's almost hard to say no,
and then sometimes, goodbye hugs are almost impossible to let go.
However, I've thought hard about this, since knowing you,
and I know that I would not be happy, and that is sadly true.
I can honestly feel how much that truth hurts,
it hurts more than I can describe with any words.
I feel guilty; I always wish you to have anything you seek,
and I'm a sucker to please people; it's what makes me weak,
but if all you want is my unconditional love for you,
that is not something I can give, not something I can do.
I can't be in a relationship if my gut tells me not to,
and I get a negative instinct when I think of us two.
I know you want to take care of me and just love me,
but I feel so wrong taking and not giving back freely.
I know you know how I feel and I wish you'd see I can't change,
I just want to stop hurting you, and stop our chest pangs.

I am sorry for the friend zone, but I can't cross these lines,
there will be another who will save you, everything will be fine.

Dont mind if i sit
Waiting on the edge
Of maybe
Where i get a call
Rather than a text
We use to ...
Ugh! there i go again
Going backwards in time
Where i had a curfew for school
And you were twenty four
No i dont miss those days
Everything makes more sense today
But i do wish you still lived three hours away
Rather than nine
How youd call at twelve a.m to say goodnight
While all the house slept
Id hide to laugh and say it back
Its not the same
No one else kisses my forehead
And gets away with cruel jokes
No one has
Understood how easily i laugh
And see through what i have
Cant wait to see you
Best friend at last
But its never enough time
By your side
♡

It's as if I want to hate you,
And I might even say it to myself.
But at the same time,
I'm saying I love you too much.

Sometimes I'll think that I don't want this pain.
At the same time I'll know that I like it.
I like how it feels,
how it stings,
How it burns.
At least I'm feeling something,
That I think could be love.
But it's only one sided,
So how can I tell.

I'll tell you how it goes.
I love you,
I think of you,
I miss you,
I want to talk to you.
When you don't reply,
Even if you've been online,
About 15 thousand times,
You'll take another 24-48 hours.
Then I want to not like you anymore.
Even though you still haven't done anything.
It just slaps me once again,
That you will never feel the same.
But it can be a nice feeling,
So I cling onto it,
Thinking that it's worth it.
The most it's done for me is cause pain.

But then you're face.
It brightens my day.
But that also makes my heart break.
How many times can a heart be broken?
And this is only by one person,
Who hasn't done anything to break me.

No one can break me.
No ones broken me.
I'm not some object.
I am a real person.
I have real feelings,
But are these real?
Well I don't know.
I haven't had the chance to find out.
If you saw me, the way I see you...
Oh silly me that could never be!

What am I here for?
What do I care?
It's not like I deserve you.
It's not like I've always been there.
If you were by my side, though,
And you needed me,
Then I would bow down to your feet.
No, not literally.
But I would be there.
I would help.
I would do whatever I could.
You should realise that.
I bet you know.

None of that,
none of this.
Could possibly change any given thing.
I know I can't just write,
And make you feel things.
I know I can't just love,
And expect the same from you.
I don't.
I won't.
Oh, and you never will.
Basically, what I'm saying is:
You feel how you feel.
This is what it is.
This is not what it's not.

You and me.
We seem to be two different things.
Regardless of this,
I continue to dream.
I don't expect you to change your view.
I know how you feel about me.
You know how I feel about you.
Now there's not much left to say or do.
I'll just keep myself here.
Apparently this is what I do.
I sit here,
I sit here.
And I wait for you.

I know your a million miles away
On the other side of our bed
But If you'd just roll over
It could be five hundred thousand instead
And who knows maybe then
It'll be just close enough
For you to love me again
See im still to sick to admit
That theres an end to this
Forgive me i might be prejudice
Or bias could be a better word
But admitting defeat is obscenely absurd
I cant learn to yearn for you in the way that youd like
Like a friend in the day, and not even a thought in the night
I dont believe them when they say i cant make you love me

its a new year
i'm tired of all the *******
girls usually don't like me which makes me wonder
they always go for guys that will break in the end
they always  wonder "where are all the good guys?"
you literally come to me and ask me that same question
i've been friendzoned multiple times
i don't care anymore
these females really don't think of the guys they hurt
remember your'e always gonna see that guy you friendzoned
he will move on and you'll be trying to get back into his life
all guys that have been friendzoned find someone prettier or way more better than you will ever be
i'm just tired of the insecure females
who always say, "oh I'm fat"
when literally your a skinny little girl

when you friendzoned me my heart dropped out of my body.
i just thought about what life was.
my life was changed.
after that day my life changed.
i turned into something that i'll never become.
i started going after girls that i could never get.
now you've moved on.
i still think about you.
that day is just a clear memory in my mind.
i loved you.
now i just love to see your smile now.
i've been friendzoned by so many girls.
you ladies have to remember sooner or later i'm gonna become you need.
someone out in this cruel world is gonna love me for me.
love is such a strong word, but hey all the girls that friendzoned me i had a certain amount of love for you.

i know you were just
kidding around when
you asked me to be
your girlfriend and i
know you were just
kidding when you
would tell people i'm
all yours and i know
you were just kidding
when you said you'd
love me forever if i did
this or that for you but
oh my god i wish you
weren't

Before I sleep, I glimpse at my star.

It twinkles under where my lashes are.

Only to whisper about who you are.

“He’s just a friend my dear” said the star.