~For Pradip~
who reminded me:
We are all God’s Trial & Errors

tender is the tendency,
so finitely human,
infinitely foolish,
to overlook the
obvious,
let us not delve into our
particular peculiar idiosyncratic knots
in our hair and personalities,
all natural,
inherited or ill begotten
in voyages to far away,
like our childhood

Thus,
we are all mistakes of a sort

with natural fault lines,
accumulated dings, scapes, bruises,
furrowed crinkles that took us
years to perfect

We are flawed like diamonds,
valued by these natural flaws
by graders with loups who uncover
our flaunts, our clear air bubbles,
the more flaws the better,
because these attributes make us
most interesting!

you may be blonde,
you may be exotic
perhaps a lovely shade of
iridescence,

but lucky you whose scars speak
out and others wonder why,
they are so interesting

let us design a large animal,
seemingly ungainly, yet keystone to
their environment, so others may
profit thereby,
yet insanely quick on lumbering feet,
no hands, fingers, but a long snakey thinge
that multiple functions  for
breathing, drinking, feeding grabbing, smelling and
trumpeting their presence
to foolish beings in their neighborhood

let’s us not debate
whose design is
an efficacy par excellence

so we be
ungainly, too tall, too
this or that,
even too flawless,
a specialized curse of sorts,
we are the product of
a sophisticated design laboratory
that makes many models,
each variegated, always different

so get down on your knees *******,
and praise the design engineers
who created you to be
full of
& by elephantine trials and elephantine errors,
thereby making
us each,
a special pronoun,
an I
blessed
by definition:
though not in any dictionary:
unique,
flawless!


^you are the most
flawless poem
you have ever written
and will ever ever
write

I'm pleading with the operator all in vain
There's no one there
Could be operator error
It's only ringing, no one answer for my pain
Lies tend to be faster
Not everyone's a good actor
See what I see, a monster with my same name
A new breed creature
Science doesn't get it either
Sanity fleeing and impostor steps into reign
A hostile takeover
Over 'n over but over in short order

©2024

Never in my life would I ever want to come back to a mistake like you—

Never once,

Never was,

Never am,

Never will.

You might have all the forever within grasp,

because you’re a ghost,

and ghosts have forever.

But not everyone is you,

not everyone is privileged with any next lifetime.

Time with you is a time wasted,
wasted with all of your over-glorified ghost—

that the devil himself is scared of you,

even your only shadow leaves you in the dark.

And there you are,
there you always will be;

Cast out alone in the void of darkness for eternity—

bequeathed with eternal guilt;

for you are nothing much,

but a mere shadow;

a ghost of the lingering past

(not) worth reminiscing.

̶̷̷̷̷̷̡̙͕̥͚͔̝̪̮͔̺̖͖̟̠͔̝̪̮͔̺̖͖̟̠̔̌́̽̽͗̈̊̉̾̉̾̚͝͝͝𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘩𝘶𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵 ...𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴..


̶̴̸̡̧̢̭̟͖̦̹̺͙͍̳̠͕͍̬͙̩̖͔̘͛́͊̀̎͊̓͌̿̑͋͛̀͂͗̚͘̚͜͜͝͠͠/̴͚͙̞͚̖̫̫͚͐̏́͗̿̇̀͘̕\̴͓͓̖̩̦̘͚̄͆̉̀͜͠.̶͉̤̭͓̀͗̌͐̄̒̈́͋̚͘ ̷̨̠̻̝͓̯̩̘̈́̈́́͐̇̑ ̴̹̆̋͂ ̴̧͔̺̜̪͍̰͈̄̏̕͝͠ͅ ̴̨̩̆̀̌̐͋ ̶̧̛̤̳̮̱̦̒̓̾̏́͊̉̀́ ̴̛̘̯̬̺̣́̉̉͋̏̅͑͝ ̵̜͚̭̜̻͑͗̋͆̚ ̸͖̗̫̻̟̌̉̌̓ͅ ̴̞̫̜̟̞̯̯̗̥̓͆̌̀̃ ̷̺͋̂́̊̀ ̷̙̗̗͖̎ ̷̪̰̤̥͚̍́̆̾̀̚͜ͅ ̸̝̆̏͌̒̊͆̌̌͝\̵̯̈́̿́̉͐́͆̒͊̚/̶͕͓͇̻̪͙̬̓́̂̌ ̶̢̬̭͙̼̯͔͕̝͇̾̔̈́͝ ̷̮͇͌̐̆̎̑̂̒͝͝/̶̧̧̹̜̲̰̓̈́̽͜\̷̶̷̷̷̡̙̙͕̥͚͔̝̪̮͔̺̖͖̟̠̉̏̒̔̌́̽̽͗̈̊̉̾̚͝͝͝.̶̡̬̪̻͔̺̰͋ͅ­̟.̶̧͇̟͇͒.̵͈̱̉̑̈͆̃͑̉̾́̐.̶͎̮͙̥̼͉̭̌̔̋̓̀̕̕͝.̸͓̖͎̋͆.̵̜̜̣̑͛̿͑̍̀̋͆̽ͅ.̵̏͘­̧̲̎̑̒̎̽̋̇͜.̷̛̥̫̥͍͕̰͉̏͝.̶̧̟̗̭̱͈̻̙̜͑͒̾͑́̏̅͛͝͝ͅ.̷͖̀̈̐͋̔̎̚̚͜.̸̛́̋̉̓͘͠­̳͙̟̜͍̠̰̳̏̀ͅ/̷̥̣͊̆̈́́̽̂͆ͅ\̷͇̖͙̦͖̺̥̮̽̚/̷̬̝̦̦̙͈̗̃̓̀̕͠\̴̖̗̮̦͙͉̍̃͐͜͝/̵̵̵̵͓̰͓̰͓̰͓̰͊͛̐̿̏͋͑͂̂͊͛̐̿̏͋͑͂̂͊͛̐̿̏͋͑͂̂͊͛̐̿̏͋͑͂̂. _̶̷̷̡̙͕̥͚͔̝̪̮͔̺̔̌́̽̽͗̈̊̉̚͝͝͝.              <-----my brain right now
̶̷̷̡̙͕̥͚͔̝̪̮͔̺̔̌́̽̽͗̈̊̉̚͝͝͝_̷̖͖̟̠̾ ̴̹̆̋͂ ̴̧͔̺̜̪͍̰͈̄̏̕͝͠ͅ ̴̨̩̆̀̌̐͋ ̶̧̛̤̳̮̱̦̒̓̾̏́͊̉̀́ ̴̛̘̯̬̺̣́̉̉͋̏̅͑͝ ̵̜͚̭̜̻͑͗̋͆̚ ̸͖̗̫̻̟̌̉̌̓ͅ ̴̞̫̜̟̞̯̯̗̥̓͆̌̀̃ ̷̺͋̂́̊̀ ̷̙̗̗͖̎ ̷̪̰̤̥͚̍́̆̾̀̚͜ͅ ̸̝̆̏͌̒̊͆̌̌͝\̵̯̈́̿́̉͐́͆̒͊̚/̶͕͓͇̻̪͙̬̓́̂̌

And yes, I am Someone.
By default, I have a few names,
Like:
Someone Is Knocking At The Door,
Someone will do that, or
Old People Need Someone To Talk To.  
But really I’m just Someone Else.