In the moment I wanted to say I hate you.
In the moment I wanted to punch you in the gut,
For it felt as if you had just done that to me.
In the moment I wanted to scream out to show the pain that I was feeling.
In the moment I wanted to rip your heart out and feed it to you...
And yet...

In the moment I laughed,
Put on a brave face,
And said "that didn't hurt...
The way I imagined it would."

In the moment I was right...
In the moment you broke up with me,
I was blissfully numb.

I curled up in bed and breathed a sigh of relief;
And in that moment I began to cry so violently that my lungs wanted to escape,
I begged the tears to stop,
And they kept rolling anyways...
And I looked at places for rent;
In that moment...I was broken.

In the next moment I rebuilt the wall that used to linger around my heart before you claimed it.

My love
When you're sick of me
I hope you have a good aim
Or that the knife is really sharp
Or your hands very strong
So you can get it over quick
I dont want to bleed to death slowly
Or gasp for air forever
I just want it to be over fast

Maybe an atomic bomb
would be the nicest way
to end us

On the day you left me
The wine hit my chest
As soon as I woke.

The skies opened up and wept

How fitting

She threw you under the bus
to get the confirmation of his glance
He changed your name to Bovary
to get a taste of false romance

Circulating the marble floor
You waited for his arrival
You never would have guessed
She'd be the most perfidious rival

His hands were in his pockets
As you reached to touch his skin
He was secretly composing
Untroubled by your grin

You were intoxicated by love
He was drunk on ***
You ignored the signs
Of who he would become

At the fields of concrete
He left without a word
You saw him walk through guarded doorways
Perplexed by what occurred

She swallowed your left overs
While you were drowning in distress
They made fun of your appearance
And your feelings they oppressed

All that you have left now
Is a notion of how it should feel
To be completely consumed by somebody
Instead of being the wistful third wheel

She's all he ever wanted
You're everything she's not
Your heart is his to ruin
And he will never stop

Remember if you meet somebody
Who is all you're dreaming of
That you're safe when you are lonely
You are weak when you're in love

Burnt my lip on a cigarette while I was thinking of you
I hate to say it but I think I wanted it too
My gut hurts and twists and feels so ******* distraught
All because you loved me and left me without second thought.
I know you're not mine and I'm not yours either
I know she's better and without habit and a believer
But it still ***** to know you won't reply
Because I lost you and you got what you wanted, all in one night.