I would like to recline, rest
these weary limbs of mine
- head down, feet up,
giant sigh -

Resting for a moment, really,  
I'm not going to sleep right
now...  I just need to rescue
these poor feet... only a
moment...

I’m not sinking deep into
the couch... one little show
and then off to bed I’ll go...

Yes, that last blink
lingered… and the next
more so - another sigh -
and I sink deeper…

One more blink… weighs
heavy on… dreaming
eyes… too late to fight…
good… night...

NCL 2019

So ...
Who Do You ... " Believe " ... ???
  
MP's and Their ...  
... War Stories .... ???  
    
cos' ...
When It comes To ...    
Speaking .... TRUTH ....  
    
Their Talks Seems ...  
... " Pretty cheap " ...    
    
TRUST ME ...  
Some MP's ... ARE Liars ... !!!  
    
If You ...  
Don't Believe Me ...  
Try ... Stephen Byers ... !!!  
    
He LIED About ... " Railtrack " ... !!!  
    
He's ADMITTED He Did ...  
and ... That's A FACT ...  
    
They Asked Him To ... " Backtrack ... "    
But When He ... Did ... ?  
    
His Mind Went ... Black ... !!!  
    
Of Course I Mean ...  
His Mind Went ... "                 " ... !!!  
    
But Let's Move On ...  
To The ... " London Attacks " ... !!!  
    
REMEMBER ...  
What You ... HEARD ...  
    
" It's A Power Surge !!! " ....  
    
NOW It's ... " MUSLIMS " ...  
JAMAICANS and ... BLACKS ... !!!!!  
    
Come On Now .....  
What's Up With THAT ... ?!?  
    
DEPORTATION ...  
Is Now ... Part ...  
of Plans Being Made ...  
By YES ... Charles Clarke ... !!!  
    
Muslims Now ...  
Are Being ... MARKED ...  
As ... TERRORISTS ... !!!!!!!!  
    
DON'T Make Me Laugh ... !!!  
    
WHAT About ...  
  
Those THROWING BRICKS ...  
Through Mosque Windows ...  
Whilst Wearing ... "Masks" ... ?!?!?  
    
Is He Gonna ...    
DEPORT Them ... ???  
    
Probably NOT ...  
What's The ... PROBLEM ... !?!  
    
These ARE ...  
ENGLISH ... " TERROR Men " ... !!!  
    
Better Yet They're ...  
... Walking PHLEGM ... !!!  
    
Why Aren't THEY ...  
On ... " News At Ten " ... ?!?  
    
So ...  
WHO Do You ... " Believe " ... ???  
    
I Believe In ...  
What ... I SEE ...  
  
NOT Images On ...  
... TV Screens ... !!!!
    
These Days ... Life ...  
Is NOT A Dream ... !!!  
    
Technological ... TRICKS ...  
Can Make Things STICK ... !!!  
    
It's NOT All ... " Fun " ...    
Watch ... " Rising Sun " ...  
    
It's Just A ... " FLICK " ...  
Maybe ... " Fiction " ... ?  
    
But Nowadays ...  
You Could Get DONE ... !?!  
    
Neo ...  
A'INT The ... Only ONE ... !!!  
Whose Destined For ...  
    
Some ... TROUBLED TIMES ... !!!!!  
    
Might We See A ...  
THIRD ... World War ... ?!?  
    
I Believe ...    
While MANY ... "Grieve" ... !!!  
Silence Is A ... QUICK Relief ...  
For Those Who ...  " Choose " ...  
To ........................... "NEVER See" ......................  
    
PROBLEMS In ...  
    
... " Third World Countries " ...  
    
They're NOT ... " Third World " ... !!!!!  
It's .... POETRY .... !!!!!  
    
These Countries Have...  
... MUCH Poverty ... !!!  
    
How Many ... " Think " ...    
of Those Who ... BLEED ... !?!  
    
When They're At Home ...  
On Their ... " PC " ... ???  
    
SEE ... That's The Stuff ...  
I DON'T ... Believe ... ?!?  
    
While MASSES ... " TRUST " ...    
These ... SICK MP's ...  
  
Who ...  
DON'T Give A **** About ...  
LIES They ... FEED ... !!!!!  
    
These Men LACK ...  
... INTEGRITY ... !!!  
    
I Believe ...  
In Groups That Feed ...  
Messages ...  
That Set Minds FREE .................................................  
    
That's Why I Like ... " Public Enemy " ...    
NOT 50 Cent But YES ... " Chuck D " ...    
    
A Man Whose From ...  
A ... DYING Breed ... !!!  
    
A Man of VISION ...  
Like ... " Ice T " ...  
    
Men Who Came With Poetry ...  
That OPENED Eyes ...  
Who ... "Would Not See" ...  
    
The ... Nature of Man ...  
From ... EVERY Creed ...  
    
Those Who Live ...  
Their Life ON Streets ... !!!  
and Those NOT Practising ....  
What They ... PREACH ... !!!!!!!!!!  
    
Like Hospitals ...  
NOT Using ... Bleach ... !?!  
    
Those Who RUN THEM ...  
CAN'T Get .................................................................­.... Reached .... !!!  
    
By Laws To MAKE Them ...    
Keep Wards ... CLEAN ... !!!  
    
This Is ... REAL ...  
and ... A'in't A Dream ... !!!  
    
I Was ... STUNNED ...  
When Sickness Come ... !!!  
and Saw The Way ...  
Some Wards Were Run ...  
    
NOT Firsthand ... !!!!!  
But Through ... " My Mum " ...    
    
Sometimes I WISHED ...  
I Had A .... GUN .... !!!!!  
  
For Things These ... " Medics " ...  
Tried To .................................................................­................... "Shun" ...  
    
But Now She's Gone ......................  
To A ... BETTER Kingdom ...  
and Rests In Peace .......................................  
    
" I LOVE YOU MUM ! "  
    
NO MORE Do I ...    
Have To ... Grieve ...  
    
Cos' You Are ... FREE ...  
and I'm ... RELIEVED ... !!!  
    
But NOW I'm STUCK ...  
With ... LIARS and THIEVES ...    
    
So ...  
Tell Me Folks ...  
    
" Who Do You Believe ? "

denial:
you tell yourself
they just needed a break
a vacation for the day
until a vacation turns into a week
and a week to a month
then you realize all the questions you have
are left wrapped in cellophane

anger:
your presence to me
was as calm as the sea
until i remembered every promise
you ever made
and then suddenly i become the sea
and these waters are no longer
soothing to me
but are now a violent whirlpool
where all my emotions
end up in the middle of

bargaining:
this is where my “what ifs” come into play
and how my “what ifs”
create a fake imagination
to where it is now a fake escape
from any kind of pain
until i can adjust to what my reality
is now set up to be

depression:
these black out curtains
still aren’t dark enough for me
i can still see your face
sitting in every picture frame
on my walls
with your smile
hanging there picture perfectly

acceptance:
this is the final stage
now i finally feel alive and free
the sun is no longer my enemy
but is now a friend to me
to remind me everyday
that i am alive and okay
i am now content with this
being my reality

Born with a true heart. Raised within love. Torn apart I find myself reachin to past the skys above. Drowned in love a bright visage turned cold 25 so young yet my image so shaken a fickle soul with time on my side but my eyes are my truth, my wisdom, and downfall my efforts boring, my trying old.. A downfall for all who look within me.. My facade will not hold..

Hatred within me for those thrown aside.. This earth in a process of a slow suicide you run to lies but what you truly despise is these mistruths in your eyes all mirrors comfort with these lies it's just a slow demise..

From yourself its so futile.. You cannot hide.. This is earth, humanity, and us. Mired in slow suicide.. We try to escape but we are our own fate..

You can never escape..

Submit and be you as love turns a gray hue.. I thought I was a saint as did you but hey, Mr. Devil guess we are just like you..

We are lonely, we are lost, the young hearts of hope torn asunder..

Born into this world as it all falls apart.. Hope so weak but I must push on..

Refresh on a killed heart..

Shattered..

Torn apart..

What ... In This Life ... ?
Is It Right To ... " Expect " ... ?
  
Well .....  
One Thing FOR SURE ... !!!  
    
One Day ... " YOU'LL BE DEAD !!! "  
    
" Morbid " ... I KNOW ... !!!!!  
    
But We've ... ALL Got To Go ... !!!!!!  
    
This Isn't A Subject ...  
For ... PARANOID FOLK ... !!!!!  
    
" I'M NOT GONNA DIE !  
I'M NOT GONNA FRY !    
I'M BEGGING YOU GOD !  
I WANT ONE MORE TRY ! "
    
" Why should I let you ?  
Your life's been, a lie. "  
    
Did You Expect THAT ... ?  
    
NO ... !!!  

Neither Did ... " I " ... !!!  
    
Sometimes ...  
I'm Quite SHOCKED ...  
By The Words That I Write ... !!  
    
It's SHOCKING I Know ...  
My ... Poetic Flow ... !!!  
    
Cos' Many Still Think ...  
Most Blacks ... Just Sell Coc'...  
    
Or ....  
EVEN WORSE Still ...  
    
Have ....  
NO STRENGTH of ... WILL !!!  
    
Well ....  
Here's A ... NEWSFLASH ... !!!!!!!!!  
    
I've Now ... Had My Fill ...  
of These ... " Stereotypes " ...    
White Folks Have ... "Instilled" ...    
In ... Weak Peoples Minds ...  
    
Since We've Had .....  
    
" SANDS OF TIME ...................... "  
    
So Now I'm ... ATTACKING ...  
This NONSENSE ... In Rhyme ...  
    
NOT ... Every Black Man ...  
Is Living ... " Off Crime " ... !!!  
    
But .....  
How Many Whites ... ?  
Are ... " Government Slime " ... ???  
    
How Many Are ... " Guys " ... ?  
In .... " Corporate Ties " ... ?  
    
THESE Are The People ...  
Who ... Tell The World LIES ... !!!  
    
I'm ...
SICK of This BULL ...  
    
" Some white guys are nice ! " ...  
    
I'm Sure That Some Are ... !!!  
    
I Think That's Like Saying ...  
That ... ******* Have CLASS ... !?!  
    
CLASS ... Is A Farce ... !!!!!  
    
and THAT Is My View ...    
    
But ...
Don't EVER Expect ...  
ALL Black Men Are ... " Fools " ...    
    
A White Guy I Worked With ...  
Was ... Talking With Me ...  
    
I Was ... Telling Him ...  
Why I ... DON'T LIKE POLICE ... !!!!!  
    
He Quickly ... Retorted ...      

" We Need them to Live !!! "  
    
So ....  
Then It ... Began ...  
    
I said ....  
    
"Listen young man,  
they're just a street gang."  
    
That's When I Got ...    
.... " SHOCKED " .... !!!!!  
    
cos' That's When He Said ...  

" HIS DAD WAS A COP ! "  
    
I Just Said ... " Really ?!? " ...  
    
He said ...  

" He used to be, but these days    
he's working, for the. M.O.D. "  
    
I said ....  
    
" Yeah that's great,  
I Still, DON'T LIKE POLICE ! "  
    
I Then Explained ... WHY ...  
    
I've Had Police ... TRY ... !!!  
The Usual ... " Old Line " ... !!!  

" You look like a guy,  
who's just done a crime ... "
    
They've Acted Like ... Berks ...  
When I've ... Been In My Merc' ... !!!!!  
    
Quizzing Me ... In The Morning ...  
RIGHT OUTSIDE ... My Work ... ?!!!?  
    
So What Do You Think ...  
My White Colleague said ... ?!?  

" WHEN YOU LOOK LIKE    
YOU DO, WHAT DO YOU EXPECT !?! "  
    
We Were ... " On The Phone " ...  
Otherwise ... He'd Be RED ... !!!!  
    
Because of The ... GRIP ...  
I'd of Had ... ROUND HIS NECK ... !!!!!  
    
Cos' ...

What He Was Saying ...  
Is ... I Should ... EXPECT ...    
To ... NOT EVER GET ...    
A Little ... RESPECT ... !!! ? !!!  
    
He Said ...  

" He was joking    
to just, get me vex ! "  
    
Well ....

This Was His Aim ...  
But ... I Wasn't Upset ...  
cos' ... Funny Enough ...  
    
It's What I ... " Now Expect " ... !!!  
    
From ... IGNORANT Whites ...    
Who Are ... " WHITER Than WHITE " ...    
    
So ...
That's When I Said ...  

" Your father must be,  
a REALLY COOL GUY,  
to stand up and tell,  
on, Racist Police Guys !  
cos', this is the breed,  
that's kept in PIG STYS !!!"  
    
I Left Him To ... " Dwell " ...  
On The Idea of ... " Cells " ...    
Where Black Men Have DIED ... !!!  
and Police Said .... " HE FELL ?!? " ...    
    
I've Now ...    
Learnt A Lesson ... !!!  
I'll ... NEVER FORGET ... !!!!!  
    
When Speaking To People ...  
    
On THIS ... YOU CAN BET ... !!!!!  
    
Most People ... " BELIEVE " ...    
Their House Is ... PERFECT ... !!!  
    
and Don't Like To Hear ...  
A View That ... " Suggests " ...    
Some Things In Their House ...    
May Have Some ... DEFECTS ... !!!!!    
    
People of ... ALL SECTS ... !!!!!!!!!!!!!  
NEED .... REALITY CHECKS .... !!!    
    
And THIS ...
Is Now Something ...  

I've Come To ........  
    
....... " Expect " .......