This time I am going to do things differently
I'm so scared we're destined to fail
Was in a state of blind hope before
Blinded but I learned to read braille

All this feels vaguely familiar
It's only a matter of time
I'll find out you haven't changed
Not ready to accept the signs

I wish I decided with my brain
I'm in a battle with my heart
One pulls your direction
The other
Drags away cause we're better apart

Decisions
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A part of life where you’d like gravity to stop

And just fly away

Decisions are a part of growing up

Sometimes it’s hard to decide
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Sometimes it’s easy to decide


Sometimes it’s hard to accept decisions
Or make decisions

Decisions affect your life
Decisions can hurt or make you happy
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Or both at the same time

Everybody makes decisions to make their life better or get another chance

After making a decision
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You feel freed
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But there also is this other feeling that hurts

It is not what I wanted

How could it be?

It doesn't go the way you have planned

Out in your mind

You want to have faith

In fantasy

But reality will never be a movie screen you get

To play delusions on

Being broken
Hurt
Is not how I wished

It would end

And you might be able to pick your battles

But you will never decide who wins

acclaim to the one who got disapproval
for regarding what’s right

although who is autonomous,
agile; persistently willing to fight

does not allow an excuse to alter
its brain; just asserts the light

there is nobody like you on the site
who elicit a resilient knight

raise your head, but never have
arrogance in your heart

use that confidence in you to
empower other people around

beginnings are over, may not
always restart the first part

you can move forward with
your faith & be crowned



Muhammed E. K.  ☾  🅴  ✩
© LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS POETRY