I was wondering,
What if things were different?
This soul of mine is not mine
And this mind I have is not for share
Would you still recognize me then?

If I am just a pretty face to you,
I see no point to offer you my bare soul
And my raw mind.
I shall not tell you how to think
Nor to act

However if you see I am more than a face,
You have my soul
My mind
And my blood
Singing and rising within your command

happy birthday, sylvia plath
i'm writing you a birthday letter
because nobody does it enough anymore

i studied your book once and
had a horrifying vision
that i would be rejected
and i would forget language and words and
i wouldn't write anymore
like you i suffered to breathe
i suffered to watch and i
found comfort in *****
i couldn't drink it neat like you did
i could fall asleep
but you didn't

your pain pained me
and i wondered what you'd think of
my writing
if we'd swap poems and

but we couldn't
i suffered rejection too
and for a while the words wouldn't come
i slept more and ate less
i smoked more and spoke less
but i found the words again
taught myself from reading dictionaries of loss
and though my bad habits remained
i felt ever so slightly more like me
and less like you

i got better
i wish you did too

Underneath the tree
Down by the riverside
Sheltered from the sun

Why oh why are you sad?
Can't you see the sun
How it shines bright

Her sunglasses dark
As dark as her nails
Lips as red as cherry

Sherry, baby
Please don't cry
Stop daydreaming

He's not coming back
Even if he tries
He won't be there for you

Dry your eyes
Cause momma said tears are weakness
And you don't want to disappoint

Ketika malam berganti pagi
Bintang-bintang berkelip sayu
Menanti angan yang tak tiba

Dua anak manusia
Dibawah temaram sinar lampu
Berbicara dari hati ke hati

Merah ingin mencapai Mars
Hitam ingin mencari yang hilang
Satu berdiam
Satu menangis

Sebuah memori dan luka
Datang mengambilnya
Dalam hati terus ia berucap
"Kembalilah... Kembalilah pada dirimu"

Hanya isakan yang ia dapat
Dan sebuah cerita
Yang dilalui dengan tercabik-cabik

My personal déjà-vu-time memory-prompts that frame
The blurring patterns of today’s hubcap-wheels, spinning
Kaleidoscope flashbacks of bathtub playtime.

A gaggle of giggling girls babbling about
What used to matter : umbrella-popping chewing gum
With gallivanting jargon laced in crushes-hushed : boy-talk.  

Pillows : Comforters morphing, swarming like
Womb-entranced, half-cupped palms calmed
Palpitating mouths motoring off self-pitying rumble-grumbles.

How the clopping ball of opted-birr was a bent-mouth birdcall
Over-relished, over-zealous imploration : a round robin
Jumblemix of a jejune bombast for slap-sticked power.

By-and-by polysyllabic buds bloomed, baked, and wrinkled
Past-Gas’s long-gone jokes : those balmy snug-hugs guarding
Doltish vulgarity among the begrimed-glitch and old-grown-boring Jive.