Why her
Why her
Why anyone other than me
Me-the young girl who loves you unconditionally
The fragile girl who cares for you so deeply
The one girl who understands your broken happiness
The girl who gave her all to you
Gives her all to you

She said she could love you better
She said you trusted her more
She said she knows you better
After a week?!
She had convinced you that I can't love you
If I can't love myself
***** she called me
****
Worth less than dirt
Do you think she loves herself?
Can you say you love yourself?
No-you can't
But
I know you can love
I've seen it
Felt it
Believed it
Basked in its radiance
Bring it back to me.

Why her
Why her
Why anyone other than me
How could you touch her
How could you let your lips
Touch anyone else's
When I would treat you like a god
If that's what you want
Beg at my hands and knees
For you to use me
Protect me
Because there is no one above you
With your flaws
Your mistakes
There is no one above you

I
Am mad at you.
I hate being mad at you
Hate being mad at you
Part of me is so hurt
That I wish I could hurt you back
This anger sets fire to my lungs
And I know that when I speak to you,
Smoke escapes my lips
So I try
To keep my mouth shut!
I am trying to suffocate the fire
But the fire is suffocating me too
If I could stop the fire from breathing I would
The fire would die
But so would I
I am dying
I can't tell when you are lying

I want to hurt you back
It wouldn't be hard to get someone else
In my bed
On my lips
I feel sick saying that
Sick to my stomach for thinking that
Like how I felt those couple of weeks
When I knew something was wrong
I DID know something was terribly, terribly wrong
I told you I felt something was terribly, terribly wrong
And you spoke with such patients "love, nothing is terribly, terribly wrong"
You lied
I trusted
I know that feeling well
It wasn't a wave of anxiety
It was truth
I wish I didn't trust you so easily
I have never trusted anyone so
Willingly
So lovingly
And you
Took advantage of that

today i walked down the street
and
then i fell
and rolled, rolled, rolled, stop
down the hill.
then there i sat wondering where i was
and guess what
i had found myself with you again.

Underneath the cold moon
In the parking lot I told you
Didn't even know you would take back the hours we wasted
We're frozen in the headlights
We're slipping on the black ice
We're shooting not to act nice
Blood in the air, I could taste it

So I found out through a mutual
The night you said that you went home
You played me like a musical
Said ignorance is beautiful
I found out through a mutual
The night you said that you went home
You tricked me with the dude I know the wrong

You said you wouldn't
But you did it
Why you lying?
I ain't kiddin
Hands numb, can't feel
This love's not real
Now I'm finding
Your handwriting
'Cross the ceiling
Close my eyes and say, "How'd I get here?"
This love's not real

I lost touch with who I am
I am just a hollow man
In love with a hologram
This castle is made of sand
I am just a hollow man
In love with a hologram

Double yellow lines like
Slipping in the black night
I'm losing all my lifelines
Never thought you could erase them

This world is full of hypocrites and ******* claiming innocence
Ya I just came to witness it
And leave here with no fingerprints
This world is full of hypocrites and ******* claiming innocence
We always want to be the prince, but it’s incestuous

You said you wouldn't
But you did it
Why you lying?
I ain't kidding
Hands numb, can't feel
This love's not real
Now I'm finding
Your handwriting
'Cross the ceiling
Close my eyes and say, "How'd I get here?"
This love's not real

I lost touch with who I am
I am just a hollow man
In love with a hologram
This castle is made of sand
I am just a hollow man
In love with a hologram

Cold sweat, shaking with the fever dream
Go back to the same crime scene
Now my ears baby won't stop ringing
My ears, yeah, they won't stop ringing
Cold sweat, shaking with the fever dream
Go back to the same crime scene
Now my ears ya they won't stop ringing

I lost touch with who I am
I am just a hollow man
In love with a hologram
This castle is made of sand
I am just a hollow man
In love with a hologram

Clean me in your river
You can wash me with your water
Purify me till I shiver
Cause I've been seeing ghosts
Is this me finally losing you
Or an optical illusion?
Every beat I make is unfinished
And every song I write is ill conceived
When all the cities fade and they diminish
Will anyone remember you and me?

Why would you pretend
that you weren't in love with me;
continuing to play so dangerously
against others' skins,
trying to tempt something
from within yourself to not be
so **** obsessed,
so obsessed, I see,
that as soon as I was let go,
you looked inward
and started to project parts of me
onto every other girl.

I guess
I just
miss
making
you smile
that way